If it weren't for ds

[meandmypickle]

If it weren't for ds, sometimes feel it would be better to end it all.
Things awful atm (see other thread). Feel so trapped and so wish if i left h i would never have to see him again. But of course that can't happen because ds would still see him at least every other weekend. Part of me still loves him i think, but the whole relationship makes me so sad. Never regret having ds as he is the most totally adorable little boy and am amazed by the intensity of my love for him. I guess all mums are the same

It's good to get validation from trusted friends :)

Don't know why but feeling much worse today. Could be cecause pain is worse today, or just a build up of it all. Keep feeling very tearful, and head feels like its been kicked

Oh pickle [hug] [grapes] What have you been doing? How mobile are you?

Well, it's now 2 weeks and 1 day that we've not been speaking unless necessary. What happens now - this is awful

I suppose one of you could say 'I think we need to talk' but I am not really the best person to give advice. Maybe someone else has a better idea?

I'm not sure there are any other ideas. i expect he'll just let it drag on until i say something

BTW what have you been doing? and how mobile are you?

geting areound a little better now and managed a to drive a (very!) short distance today

Glad to hear that, I have always felt free when driving! So important...

anyone else got any thoughts? Am i overreacting? Should i stay with him and make the best of it for ds?

Why not work out a plan, take your time to think it through slowly and thoroughly, perhaps begin with the finances and looking at divorce (try the Resolution site). Then you can make an informed decision.

My DM was all set to leave DF (not abuse, but he was hard to live with) and then fell on the ice and broke her leg, so had to stay longer. She went eventually though. Not the same as our situation, but sort of relevant to part of yours...