The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start, The Journey So Far.........

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Hello, I'm Mouse

Welcome. There are all kinds of lovely Babes on board this Bus, drinkers, non-drinkers, part-time drinkers and those who have no idea what they are when it comes to drinking. Some are newer posters and some have been here forever for a little while.

Come and say hi, there are no rules, no 'must haves', just plenty of open and honest support.

You can talk about whatever you like. Your life, your love or even your laundry. We've seen it all!

The important thing is that you can post if you want to, or not if you don't. There are posters in AA and posters who are using medication to beat The Booze and of course posters who are just trying to cut their drinking down with the support of The Bus and the people around them.

See where we've been so far by following this ---> LINK TO PREVIOUS THREADS HERE

helpyourself - i dont 'do' the steps at all! however, i do think that they are a fairly good blue print for anyone to try and follow, alkie or otherwise - why do you feel the need to do them in the AA kind of way? i bet if you looked at how you are living now, the way you behave, the way you now interact with your fellow humans that you are actually 'living' them as opposed to 'doing' them iyswim? dont beat yourself up over trying to 'do' them (this is an area of AA life that i find quite tiresome, you will always find that someone else has 'done' them faster/quicker/better than you etc etc) why not today, maybe be just a little kind to yourself? go and have a nice cup ot tea, find a book/film you like, maybe a piece of cake and just BE!! maybe try and get to a meeting over the weekend, failing that, just keep coming here! you will be fine, you can stay sober, just breathe!

Afternoon, tis me, Mouse

I've had no internet access all day up until now, thank you very much dearest BT!

Anyway, I'm here now, who wants what? I've got hot chocolate with cream and marshmallows, or green tea with cranberry, or freshly brewed coffee (Columbian) and a plate of Ladies Kisses (little cakey biscuity yummy chocolate filled yummies) for those in need of a treat.

Nursery was fun this morning, I managed to upset a 4 year old girl by telling her not to draw on another child's picture without permission because she'd (the girl whose picture it was) been asking her for a good while to stop it before I intervened.

Why is it that girls fall out with one another so much at the slightest thing? Boys just CBA and go off to play with someone else or alone. Girls? Forget it, it turns into some sort if You're Not My Friend Anymore Or Ever Again war!

The mouse has been in Nemo's room, under his bed so when DH gets back from shopping, I've got to clean the entire house from top to bottom and lay a trap for him .

jwni bet if you looked at how you are living now, the way you behave, the way you now interact with your fellow humans that you are actually 'living' them as opposed to 'doing' them iyswim.

Definitely, 99% of the time I am pretty amazing .

But I don't think its a coincidence that I've turned into a snivveling shrieking banshee over a tiny upset (nemesis SIL) at around the same time I'm really letting my AA attendance slide. I also strongly believe I should attend and one day be a sponsor, because if everyone did as I'm tempted to do ie. mainline meetings for 18 months when desperate then slide away once 'fixed', well... there wouldn't be any AA would there?

help - best you get to a meeting then! not sure how to deal with a snivveling shrieking banshee!

You're right. Fresh air first, then a meeting is my plan.

Friday night in Bangkok and I've been feeling very pensive today, mulling over some extremely thought provoking posts from wolf. Welcome to the bus wolf, hope you stay with the journey. I hope I have some helpful words to add at some point, but for some reason your posts have struck a real chord with me. Or maybe a real nerve? There's something there that's making me look inwards today, anyway. This is a good thing, I'm sure. I just can't figure out why/how as yet.

God, I am an idiot and so self obsessed sometimes, I really annoy myself.

Felt a very strong urge to drink tonight so went to the gym after dinner. Will be back in the gym again tomorrow at 630 because dh is out all day, so my only chance is before dd wakes up whiles dh is still home. I ate too much today, but, hey, it's better than drinking too much.

Interesting point, helpyourself, about irritation increasing as attendance slides. And a very astute observation about aa needing ongoing attendees. Very good point. Dh is going regularly, I think, we don't really talk about it, but I'm sure he's still going a few times a week. But I've noticed that in weeks when he's home earlier from work or coming in every day with me, ie he's probably not going to meetings, he's more irritable.

Anyway off to bed here, have a good night all, and will be riding the bus again tomorrow.

Night TheBoss - sleep well. Your post was so down tonight (where you are) which is really unlike you of late.

I hope that tomorrow brings a new, happier, brighter Boss out. Are you okay? Anything that I/we can help you with sweets? xx

JWN would look good in a bin bag I bet. She's one glamorous Babe

Hello Boss

I hope you got a good night. Not sure if you live in Bangkok, but am making an assumption here. Jet lag out east is a killer - that's when you reach for the usual 'sedative' to help you sleep..plus extra strength anadin.

You will feel strange (as in not-grounded) as you readjust re the time difference, I used to guzzle to cope with that too. All part of feeling 'international and fab'.

Would love to support you in any way I can.

Hello Mouse

Lavender oil on a tissue is fantastic for getting small children to sleep (wave nearby, and stick it somewhere close). I used to knock mine out on long-haul for 8 hours, and the entire cabin used to ask me what I'd used....!

Hope everybody is holding firm. I'm good...

Hi everyone. Just catching up with thread. DD is being a nightmare (think tantrum 3 year old girl with a strong sense of the injustice of life). DH working late. Would love wine. Will resist.

(Mouse totally agree on girls - have already heard enough 'best friends' discussions from DD and her pals to last me a lifetime).

Hi babes,

hope everyone is having a nice sober(ish) night

hi all
am still here

How is it going tonight, ma?

Hi Ma do you want to chat?

Hi Ma, how are you?

my DN band is on local radio! [proud]

I'm ok.
Growing to accept that I need help with this, that I am incapable of mastering it on my own.
Have had two glasses tonight and will probably stop there. it's not vast amounts but its every bloody night. My skin is dull, I look tired and ill
got to stop

Ma - this little cycle needs to come to an end doesn't it. For once and for all? Are you ready? Is this your day, your time to stop. For YOU? You know that once you set the ball rolling, we'll ALL be with you every step of the way.

What do you reckon? Time to say bye bye to hangovers, dull, tired skin, saggy eyes, bleeding gums, bad breath, blood shot eyes?

What are the pluses? Come on Ma, if you have even the tiniest of 'it's time' feelings then why not capitalise on it. Tonight?

YOU CAN DO IT IF YOU WANT TO xx

Yeah Ma you CAN do it, how about trying an AA meeting tomorrow, getting to your GP next week for a referral to the community addiction team?

You know we are all behind you, but you need some RL help as well, go girl, you can do it for sure, but you need to make the first step.
Where approx do you live, can one of the BBs go with you to AA? I would for sure if I am close enough to you...

Go on Ma, you will feel soooo much better if you stop, even if it's just for a few days. Please try it, just so you get to feel why it's worth the effort. It's bloody hard at first but I can guarantee you won't regret giving up the booze. You deserve to feel better than you do. We're all behind you and egging you on .

Well, too good to be true springs to mind. Nemo is in his bed for the first time in about 2 weeks as DH ash been ill.

So, after cleaning his room from top to bottom and washing his bedding etc, I've put him to bed only for him to wake up to a nightmare and the screaming abdabs. Why can't he rest and settle so that he can get better?

He's all snotty and bunged up. Poor wee thing.

I hope that those of you kicking yourselves or fighting so very hard tonight are winning and being gentle.

Sleep well Babes, I'm off to watch tv and then get into bed with at least one of my boys!

Night all xxx

well have had two glasses and don't want any more, even though there is more in the house. I'm not ready for AA but I think I am going to have to talk to GP. i know you are all behind me and I want to get better.
It's weird, it's not about getting pissed every night, drinking the bottle dry, drinking myself into a stupour...just having to have that drink EVERY night. Why?
I don't know.

Ma I honestly think it's habit. I used to be the same. If you can just get a few days under your belt, you will probably feel more confident about giving it up. I know exactly what you mean. I used to feel fine until the evening came and I began to crave just a few drinks. Not to get drunk. Not for any particular reason really. I couldn't understand it either.

On the other hand, there was an article on the news this morning about how addicts' brains are different to non-addicts. They were talking about drug addicts, but it could possibly relate to any addiction I suppose. I will try to do a link.

www.bbc.co.uk/news/health-16854593

Ma, you've been so sad about your drinking for so long. What are you waiting for? Don't you deserve to be happy?

faire it IS habit. the thought of a long evening without a glass in my hand seems too much. Just one or two seems to meet the need but of course. often it's more than that. yes, it's making me sad, but I can't seem to find a way out.
I'm going to bed, pretty much sober so not a bad night.

Ma - It's weird, it's not about getting pissed every night, drinking the bottle dry, drinking myself into a stupour...just having to have that drink EVERY night. Why? I don't know.

Why? Because in fact, tonight you want too.

I don't, I'm having a hot chocolate.xxxxx