The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start, The Journey So Far.........

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Hello, I'm Mouse

Welcome. There are all kinds of lovely Babes on board this Bus, drinkers, non-drinkers, part-time drinkers and those who have no idea what they are when it comes to drinking. Some are newer posters and some have been here forever for a little while.

Come and say hi, there are no rules, no 'must haves', just plenty of open and honest support.

You can talk about whatever you like. Your life, your love or even your laundry. We've seen it all!

The important thing is that you can post if you want to, or not if you don't. There are posters in AA and posters who are using medication to beat The Booze and of course posters who are just trying to cut their drinking down with the support of The Bus and the people around them.

See where we've been so far by following this ---> LINK TO PREVIOUS THREADS HERE

Thanks, Silly, well said, now it's time to go to bed

A strange feeling this morning- I've gor a cracking headache, but I'm feeling smug!

Because it's not self inflicted and not mixed with guilt. Wake up, ouch was my default setting for a long time, and although the headache is not nice, it's just a headache, not a symptom of a whole lot of chaos.

Hi to you all? Please can I join your thread? Sober since 2004 through AA, but got a downer on it it mo - I know I sound ungrateful....

Been lurking around, and looking for this thread, knew there would be one somewhere!

Someone (from AA) coming round any minute, but will come back later....looking forward to getting to know you all....

boing!!!

hi duck! blimey! you are guru material on here you know! sober since 2004!! im in awe! for gods sake dont let the fucker get you now! please come back and get to know us all!

btw twoteens, me and dd are fine now, unfortuantly the worst of my drinking occured when she was around the 16/17 age, not helpful to a hormental teenager, she was very hurt, confused and frightened by it but we are very close again now (not living in the same house does help though! ) and have what i would describe as a fairly typical mother-daughter relationship ie, i pay for everything! seriously, we are fine!

boin....zzzz

Woe is me post. I am ILL. I have slept all morning. I am cross and grumpy and sniffly. I don't do ill. I hate it. I have far too great a sense of my own importance to think the world can survive without me for a few hours

That said, being ill is v good for not drinking. Day 3. Too poorly to drink. Hurrah.

Lets not fight
About who is right
When it comes to poetry

Isindie is back
I know this poem is cack
But I'm doing the best that I can

INDIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

ha ha!! well done faire!!! that flushed her out!

you all right then old bird? (punches indi on the arm)

Hi all, back again.

Thank you for the welcome jesuswhatnext.

A Guru? :)

Little un asleep after overdosing on Nick Jr. Done a half hearted bathroom clean, and put a load of washing in.

AA person has departed.

Struggling with the meetings in my new area. Well its not even that new been here over two years. Lost my "AA is the holy grail" feeling.

I don't feel comfy there any more. I know all the AA speak about "its not them its me" "Its my disease trying to isolate me" etc etc bloody etc. Sick of hearing it all. I go to a meeting and feel worse when I leave, thats not whats supposed to happen - I should feel better!

Sick of all the touchy feely "my head is in a bad place" stuff. Just wanna get on with life!

Bit of a Rant over.

AA is wonderful, when it works but it just isn't doing it for me at the moment. (I said it!) I don't know whats happened

But oh goodness, if you are a newbie, don't be put of by me....it was the only thing left for me and it did work.

I can't help myself, I will sing its praises from the rooftops for stopping me drinking, but I hate it at the same time.

Mind you, its said that you should take what you want and leave the rest...maybe I should just do that.

I've lost my shine, and I want it back!

Isinde I have been meaning to email you for some time ... with a renewed description of LittleMissGee - she is now so confident and funny, its like she is a different child. I took her to a party a few weeks ago and she was the life and soul ... so different to how she was 6 months ago. I have no idea what has changed but But ... they Diva-esque behaviour continues. I am afraid that it does not get better .

Duckety I don't have any experience of AA - but if it its not for you right now, then perhaps don't fight it. What is important is that you have some support - so either other people, or this thread might need to fill that gap. Sober since 04 is an amazing acheivement but if you are feeling vulnerable at the moment you need something. Just a thought ... is feeling vulnerable and no love for AA connected? I sometimes push away the things that I do need ... just to make it easier on me? Sorry if that doesn't make sense.

MsGee

Thank you for that. I will give it some thought.

Glad I stopped lurking and agonising.

XX

duck - i am VERY selfish when it comes to the way i use AA - (i do help and give my number etc etc) however, there are certain things i cannot agree with, i cannot stand the 'step nazis', there are certain people i activily avoid, i often find 'putting principles before personalitys' a near impossibility, we are only human and cannot agree with and like all of the people all of the time, i take what i need and leave the rest - to me, AA should be looked on as a tool to soberity, not a subsitute for living a 'real life' iyswim?, i know people who seem to have no existance outside of AA and i cannot see the point, the whole point of me getting sober was so i could resume 'proper' living, so that i could still work and stay married and look after my family.

perhaps you need to try a different meeting?, i know that moving to different rooms has helped me when i have felt cynical!

Jwn - thats absolutely the way I was taught and how I see it. I like factory floor AA, which to me is all about keeping it simple and a bridge to normal living.

I am in an area don't want to be any more specific where there are far too many meetings a week, and too few people to attend them. The "norm" seems to be that it becomes your whole existance, and if you don't like a meeting just set up another one! Is just all abit weird. They all know each other abit TOO well! I keep thinking of that banjo music in that film oh whats it called is it Redemption? The one where some blokes go off on a jolly and the locals turn abit nasty on them.

Lucky with the Step Nazi's, they have their own very evangelical meetings and are very selective about who gets to stay at them! They will drive you away with evangelical pitchforks if you can't quote the Big Book backwards standing on your head. I was also at abit of a loss finding the hidden messages in the Big Book. Its. not. the. bible.

Posting is good.

Maybe when the weather and my finances improves, I can get a car and venture abit further. For now, think I will keep lurking and posting online for abit of sanity.

I seriously feel better already.

< picks self off floors and checks for bruises thank you very much ma >

Dammit, just when I had more bad poetry to share, guess who turns up? . Great to see you back Isinde. You know, if you weren't such a jetsetter and lived a more hermit-like existence (like me) you would have no trouble avoiding the booze. Lovely to hear the DTs are developing strong little personalities. Fascinating isn't it.

Ducky welcome to the bus and well done on, what, nearly 8 years sober? You will have so much to share with us and I think we might have something you need. We don't always talk about booze and sobriety. We talk about everything and anything. Some faces stay the same but there are always new people joining us on our journey and others popping in and out. Make yourself comfortable .

Mouse are you ok lovely?

MsGee hope you feel better soon. I'm over it now, thank goodness, but I did rest a lot. Hose has had a cold for about two weeks now but he is manfully struggling on instead of being sensible and taking better care of himself. So be good to yourself. Let LittleMissGee nurse you better. She will love it! (I bet she's quite a bossy confident little nurse).

could you go to a meeting further away? or are there any daytime meetings you could catch the bus too, maybe at a weekend?

sorry this is my first post here I really need to give up too, the thrall of alcohol has always been too much and my associations with it are far more negative than positive, so if you don't mind can i be in?

sorry my questions were to ducky great first post eh?

Hello all

Agincourt welcome to the bus.

Ducky I went to meetings for years and stopped. I am an atheist, and found it progressively more uncomfortable to be around the rooms, which in my area were full of 'step nazis' and people telling others how to live.

I'm a bit up and down at the moment, I keep drinking and overeating. I think it's partly extreme tiredness (hectic job plus commute) and partly down to stress. Whatever it is, it's not doing me any good.

I've been thinking a lot about needing to go towards something, rather than away. So for me, good goals would be based on more / better: more energy, better mental health etc, and then consider how I can achieve those goals.

Agincourt - thanks for your concern, I am glad my "its all about me" post got you to speak up - glad you found this thread too.

You can be a newbie to the thread with me XX

Fairenuff - wise words. I will share anything anyone wants to to know if it helps so far I have shared more honestly than I have in a while with anyone.

This is what I have missed - normality with a bit of bonkers thrown in!

onesunny, the drinking-hangover-overeating-self loathing-drinking-hangover-overeating-self loathing thing is me as well. I lost 3 1/2 stone last year but still manged to fit drinking into that and now I am slowly putting it back on (since christmas really) actually I had about almost 6 months of not drinking and then I had a very stressful summer and started again, and then i just always slowly get back into back habits and then make any excuse to have a drink, because 'I am stressed' and I am stressed, i have a stressful life but I need to get control of it back and find better coping mechanisms

Ducky, I could relate to your post as I don't believe in God either and the talk of God and higher powers makes me really claustrophobic.

Babes, please stop peddling half truths about AA.

Its not perfect, but you don't have top believe in God there are plenty of atheists in AA. This is a support, not a knocking thread.

sorry but I wasn't knocking anything, i was offering support :(

nobody was peddling half truths or talking of anything other than their experience of aa in their area as far as i can see helpyourself. i read it as even those who couldn't get along with all of it found positives within it. i don't think it was knocking. please don't take it personally as i'm sure everyone agrees that whatever does work for you is great for you but that will vary from person to person.

welcome to newcomers and welcome back isindie