Help help help.
I'm going through a seperation (another story for many many reasons), but during this process, my first ever boyfriend and first love and I got back in contact about this time last year.
He's also married with dc.
We've only chatted on line Skype and mobile (live other ends of the country) but we've both realised that we made some huge errors letting one another go, (we never argued or anything, was just a time of life thing, being young etc).
I'm in the middle of seperating from my husband, while he's living in the same house with his wife but in seperate bedrooms, and wondering if their latest kid is even his!
We half talked about the possibilities of getting together as neither would want to be unfaithful to our partners. i.e. if we were to take it further we'd both need to be single and available.
But as we have 5 kids between us, who are all young, even if we were both available tomorrow, we couldn't be together as his job, I can't unsettle my kids as have moved way too many times. So it's like a no go.
We're both hankering after each other big time, not because of 'just' reminising over the good old days but we totally click which has made us realise even more how wrong our marriages have been.
So don't know what to do on this one.
Write it off, it'll never be. Run after my true love, and make it happen!
Just continue to sit in turmoil (we daren't meet up as we fear for the repocusions) and crave each other from afar, staying unhappy and for what?
It's like someone has just given me the golden ticket and then I realise there's a glass screen in between!