The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start And With A Firm Resolution In Their Hearts.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have an ever changing relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a support thread for those who feel their drinking habits are not what they should be, or even those of another.

Sober, drinking or somewhere in between, come take a seat.

And for those who would like to know where this all started, HERE is a link to the threads before this one.

Make THIS year THE year that you change your life, for the better.

Have a Happy New Year, full of memories to treasure, not to forget.

Oooh, I forgot to say, I have completed a whole week without booze, stuck to my diet, got some exercise and I have lost 5lb !! So pretty chuffed with that . Now just got to do it all again this week . . .

Well done you!!! I bet you feel great and so you should xx

Glad you're getting the help you need, Mouse. And well done Fairenuff (and others) for doing so well.

I had to go into work today, but have told the boss I'll be in late as I have to go to the dr. I've googled my symptoms, and among the things google says I have are cancer, IBS, liver failure, kidney failure... I'm still very uncomfortable but not as anxious as I was, I'll get the doctor to tell me what's up and proceed accordingly.

I've been avoiding telling her about my drinking.

faire well done you
Thurso don't be silly. you made me laugh
New boss isn't remotely shaggable, but seems ok. He's a bit dull, but might lighten up as he settles in.
sorry not to name check all, am bloody knackerd.

you did great my friend. xxx

I'm off to bed now. Been a loooooooooooooooong day and tomorrow will be even longer as I'm sans DH for the day. Just me and Nemo and a load of housework to do.

Night all

Be back tomorrow xxxx

Evening.

Just checking in. Have been reading all the posts as usual. Am in dire need of an early night though so will say hello properly tomorrow. Day 15 for me! No, I can't believe it either Sat here with a mug of Ovaltine watching rubbish TV. Rock and roll.

DS has returned to his habit of waking on the night. Was up for a couple of hours around 2am last night. Again! I used to be able to handle this but it's flooring me now. Getting old I guess. Anyway, must go to bed soon.

Well done Faire for the amazing weight loss (you really are in the zone!). And great news about your treatment, Mouse. About bloody time!

Sleep well everyone.

Hi
for the first time ever I have put a pic on my profile page.
DD2 and our friend Harry.

Just popping in to mark my place on the thread. I'm not a frequent enough visitor to post a lot, but I still find reading and lurking tremendously helpful. I did write a huge long post the other day about mouse's disastrous hospital appointment but it got lost in one of mn's increasingly frequent offline moments! grrrrr. And we have had visitors all weekend so wasn't able to log on at all.

I have stuck to no alcohol Monday - Thursday for two weeks running (whoop de doo!), but am beating myself up over the fact that I drank a whole bottle of wine on Friday night! Woke up at 4am with headache and raging thirst and was so annoyed with myself.

Still, onwards and upwards and will do better this week. Wishing the same for all other travellers on this brilliant battle bus!

P.S. great picture of your dd and Harry, ma. How old was he? I lost my ddad to cancer in May. He was 81 but suffered so much (lung cancer) that in the end my overwhelming feeling was one of relief for him, even above grief.

Crikey, Ma DD is very beautiful, and your friend Harry looks like one of a kind, what a fab, happy photo.

DH has just gone to bed, and I have had the most horrible evening with him, I did so much work this afternoon that I was really tired after doing dinner, but, if I don't talk, then he doesn't, sounds very petty, but this morning when I rang him (he was working from home) to text me a number that I needed for a meeting at 8.45, he didn't reply, and when I rang him later he said that I hadn't told him it was urgent! Well, I hadn't, but it would have taken him about 3 minutes to do it, and if it had been his work he would've done it like a shot! It would have taken him less time than going round clonking all the bins tonight because I'd forgotten the binmen were coming tomorrow!!

Sorry, petty rant....over
xxxxx

P.s Mousemiss! I'm so glad that something is happening with your pain relief, I am still on the case with my sister, still nothing being done there.
xxx

Ma your dd is beautiful

Hello thanks for all your support and input during the day

ma that is a lovely photo

venus I totally get what you are saying about your gp friend and the losing weight thing - it is a bit like you have to suffer a bit in order to achieve what you wAnt

I have had quite a tiring day, not sue where the boing has gone...

Sleep well. Can't believe tomorrow marks day 18...!

onesunny beware of googling symptoms - my friend did and the conclusion was that SHE had testicular cancer

ma I wonder whether your new boss is on BossNet posting: "New colleague isn't remotely shaggable, but seems ok. She's a bit dull, but might lighten up as I settle in." I bet you'll be good friend in no time .

And I was moved by your lovely photo of dd and Harry. What a lucky man he was to have people like you around him.

Hi venus, I ended up making myself laugh at google. One of my options was prostate cancer

Morning everyone! Hope all well. venus that's hilarious

Morning all

Just in case you're wondering, today I will not be drinking

Anyone care to join me?

S/SMum 15 days is fantastic! Really well done! Although you are tired due to DS it is so much better that you are sober in the night and caring for him. Keep going, you are doing great my friend.

Lovely picture ma.

Nice to see you Bibbity/Baubley. What's your plan for this week? What about taking it one day at a time?

Good morning, tis me, Mouse

Well, so far, no further visits from MrHouseMouse he was the cutest little thing ever but I know they can chew through wires etc........ will see how we get on and if things start to 'happen' we'll we'll get the cat on the job.

18 days Christi - well done you! xx

Ma - your DD2 is stunningly pretty. Harry was a very lucky man to have you all in his life. I imagine that you touched the very heart of him by the way he is smiling. xx

Hi Bibbity - great to see you here again.

Thurso - keep on fighting for your sister. I asked my CPC (chronic pain cons) why he had requested to see me, and he said he'd ha d a letter from my neurologist. So the GP mystery remains. There is no record of any contact between the GP's receptionists and myself.

He kept asking if I wanted to make a formal complaint but I just cba. I'm getting my treatment now so why stir things up? I'm not well enough to start a fight. Far too tired these days.

Re DH, well, now the bins are empty................

BProud - fab to see you x

SSSM - sorry that you are up on night shifts again with DS. I feel your pain there! Nemo has started waking at 1.30 again. You could almost time him. Yet another pattern that we have to work out!

It's beautiful here today, absolutely stunning with white powdered trees, dusted with twinkly frost, the grass is covered in a blanket of frost which is so sharp, it's making the strands stand on end!

I'll try and take a pic and get it on here, the sun makes such a lovely addition, dancing between the trees and roof tops.

So, today is day two of my OneWeekDiet, I was 11.4stone when I weighed myself yesterday morning. I was and but guess Christmas, NY and a Birthday are going to do that to a girl!

Kcik ass day today, only eating when I'm hungry and lots of water.

I have my chest x-ray later today. I'm going to get a season ticket at this hospital!

Saf - are you okay? xx

Morning.

What a lovely, lovely photo, Ma. You can tell that Harry was a special man. And your daughter is beautiful. It's so nice when a photo manages to capture personalities/relationships. Hope you and the new Chief Exec are getting on OK. Got your gaffer tape on today? :o

Bibbity hi. This thread is amazing, isn't it? Not a chance I'd be on Day 16 without it. It sounds like you're doing really well. I know what you mean about the poor sleep after drinking. I can't believe how well I am sleeping now. When I was drinking I, too, would wake up around 4am, if not before, with an unquenchable thirst and sweats and all sorts of negative thoughts going around my head. Last night (praise the lord, my DS slept through!!!!) I slept for eight hours. Until the last couple of weeks, I had 'slept through' about twice in nine years. No exaggeration. The sleep thing is a huge motivator for me. Anyway, I hope you slept well last night! Keep up the good fight!

Theala, well it sounds like you're glad to get the drinking weekend behind you! That's interesting to hear that it wasn't as much fun as you'd thought it might be (although obviously I'm not pleased that you didn't have that much fun... :o). Please keep telling us how you're getting on with your training and all-round healthy living. I really must do some exercise at some point...

Silver your post struck a chord with me regarding the excuses and getting DP to pick the DC up in the, ahem, 'evenings' (anything from 5pm here, and sometimes earlier...). Sounds like you're making progress! Hope the treatment's going well.

Bproud thanks for your comments. If it wasn't for you guys I wouldn't be not drinking. Fact. I remember you saying a few days ago about the treats. I do feel like I'm regressing to toddler-type mentality as I do respond well to chocolate and a reward chart :o. I was in town the other day and I went to buy a friend some posh chocolates from one of those fancy, uber-expensive chocolate shops. In the olden days, I would never, ever have bought myself even a single chocolate from there. I didn't deserve it. What an extravagance etc. (All the time spending a good £5-8 every single day on wine.) Well I decided that I was entitled to a treat, and bought myself a few small boxes of different things. (They were drastically reduced as they were all in the shape of penguins and reindeers etc - can't resist a bargain!). Actually, aside from the cost factor, I wouldn't have been able to justify the calories of something like that before. But cutting out the empty calories of the evil wine has let me be able to enjoy chocolate, cake, biscuits etc without any guilt. And I've actually lost over a stone! This whole journey is quite liberating and is about so much more than just drinking. If there are any lurkers out there (I doubt anyone's got this far!) then please give it a go. Try it. See how different your life could be. Bloody hell, I've gone off on one again :o

Have good days y'all. Today I will not be drinking.

Hello Mouse!

Wow, it sounds beautiful where you are. Looking forward to seeing the photo :) I love days like that! Bright, crisp and frosty. Lovely.

The sleep thing's a killer isn't it? I used to cope with this almost every night a while back (all my DC have been poor sleepers, bless them). I seem to be struggling more with the tiredness after having a bit of decent sleep, although that makes no sense really. I hope Nemo's cold has gone? We all have lingering colds here. Tis the season for it I guess. I hope your x-ray goes OK. Do let us know what they say. Your CPC sounds great. Hopefully he'll be the one to get you sorted and pain-free. You'd think so given his title! I think you're right about the complaint. You've now got the most important thing - the appointments, the treatment plan, someone who is making it their business to do all they can to relieve the pain. You could waste valuable time and energy making a complaint and all you would get is an apology. There should be an apology (what a mystery) but is it worth it?? You have to pick your battles and let the principles go sometimes (something I do struggle with, the number of times I've ranted about principles...:o) Anyway, I hope you have a good day (hospital visit allowing).

Yes, where is Saf? Hope all is well.

Wow, SSSM, what an inspiration you are! Well done on Day 16, losing a stone, and buying yourself chocolate! :o You are right; this journey is actually very liberating, once you realise it is actually possible to live - and live well - without wine.

Mouse, I'm so very glad that things are finally getting sorted for you lovely.

I have actually started a version of the Dukan Diet today, as I'm getting fed up watching the scales creepingup ever higher. This morning I was 79.5 kilos, which is the heaviest I've been in at least ten years, so it has to stop now. Hopefully the diet, the lack of alcohol and the training will sort it out.

I am a bit freaked out at the moment, as I'm driving this afternoon. I actually passed my driving test two years ago (I started really late) but I haven't driven much since as I'm terrified. I have to just force me to do it now, however. I've been using the fact that I'm hungover and shouldn't drive as an excuse for far too long, but now I'm not hungover, so I can't use that excuse anymore.
I've taken a half day off work, and I'm going to take it really easy and do my best not to freak myself out. So. :o
I shall have a look in later if I'm still alive.

Hi Theala

Can I just clarify that I have lost the weight since early November, not the last 16 days! Sorry, I didn't mean to make false claims . A stone in 16 days would be brilliant! Sounds like Faire's heading that way... I've heard about the Dukan diet. Is that another meaty one, like Atkins? I'm veggie so I might struggle with that. Cutting out carbs helps me . I'm sure your weight will fall off, with no alcohol and all that running.

How exciting going driving today! Try not to panic, think how much freedom it will give you, and what a sense of achievement of overcoming your fear. Have you got any Rescue Remedy? Camomile tea? Stay off the coffee! You'll be fine. You'll almost certainly survive . Hope you manage to enjoy it.

Christi how are you getting on? How is DH? DD better?

I really should do some tidying up...

hi all - thanks for nice comments about photo. I'll take it down in a bit, just wanted to share .
I think DD is very pretty but I'm slightly biased. hate it when she straightens her hair like that as usually it is wild and wavy and tumbling!
@ venus. Gaffer tape fell off today when i told him a particular proposal was a load of Bollocks. Fortunately he grinned and said that was what he was thinking! think we'll be ok
thurso are you oK, my friend. DH being ok here but thinking of you.

Heh...a stone in 16 days would be more worrying than praiseworthy, SSSM. But it's a fabulous achievement in a couple of months. You should be very proud of yourself.

Dukan is very like Atkins in that it's high-protein also. Which is why I'm only doing ' a version' of it. I'm allergic to fish and shellfish, so just meat and eggs gets very boring very quickly (not to mention expensive and enviromentally unsound), so after the inital phase, I'm going to allow myself to eat lentils, chick peas and whatever veg I like (except potatoes) just because I like them, and I can't believe they're actually bad for you. So not Dukan at all really. :)

Right, I am off. For a drive. In my car. I just need to keep reminding myself that I'm doing this because I am sick and tired of being too scared to do things. So I'm going to start kicking ass, even if it is just my own I'm kicking. :o