Afternoon Babes, tis me, Mouse
Silver- if alcohol fucks you up so much why do you want to continue to drink?
That can be said about anyone. The very really simplicity is that if you want to stop drinking then STOP.
There are so many excuses aren't there? There's a reason for everything. Thing is, to me, it really is that black and white. Stop drinking or drink.
The problems seem to occur when we start to analyse it all. The ins and outs of drinking. What we like about it, what we love about it, what we hate about it, what we can't remember. What we can remember. 
If you really want to stop drinking then do it. Get help if you feel you need it, see your GP anyway, be honest, be open, it's not a rare condition, find a community team that will support you, go private, go to the Priory, whatever it takes, you will do if you genuinely want to stop drinking.
Even a physical addiction can be treated but you have to want it to be treated and you have to accept that your life will involve being so very honest with yourself and people you've not had any kind of relationship before. Plus your family, those close to you. Let them help. Let someone help you to stop.
You will have to do as you're told if you are put on a detox programme. No 'forgetting' to take the tablets so that you can drink. And please, don't drink whilst you are taking them.
I don't want to stop drinking. I want to be a moderate/normal drinker. An occasional drinker. An events drinker. So far so good which is why I've been posting more. And lurking more too.
I know that I can do that, be a controlled drinker, I've done it before. It's whether or not it will last. So I do it a day at a time.
Tonight, I may have a drink, I may not. It's a very personal journey to me. I decide if I want to drink or not that day, that hour, at the time it comes into my head.
And at a realistic time too. I don't drink in the day but that doesn't mean that those who do have any more of an 'issue' than me. You want a drink so you have a drink or more.
You have a sense of guilt and dread when in the supermarket down the wine/drinks aisle and the thought of there being nothing to drink in the house at 'craving o'clock' is so overwhelming, it almost eats you up.
How many of us can say that we've thought about going out to get drink late at night when the DC(s) are in bed, the shop's just down the road, you'll be minutes......
Or how many of us have gone through the house looking for a drink when there's nothing in the fridge but you want a drink, almost need a drink, Anything will do, warm white wine, cooking sherry, port, gin, home-brew. Any of those bottle in the back of the kitchen cupboard that you've been keeping for the school tombola.
It doesn't matter when that is, does it? Well, as long as you're not going to drive to pick the DC up. Or alone with the DC when you're pissed and out of control..........
There are so many inspirational posters on here who have stopped. Some a few days, some a few weeks, others so much longer, but one thing can be said for them all, they wanted to stop. For whatever reason(s), they stopped.
It doesn't mean that they will stay stopped, oh no. They know just how delicate sobriety can be. It's a precious thing to be treasured and cared for, not given easily.
If you want to stop, then for the next hour, just stop.
Sermon over.