The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start And With A Firm Resolution In Their Hearts.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have an ever changing relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a support thread for those who feel their drinking habits are not what they should be, or even those of another.

Sober, drinking or somewhere in between, come take a seat.

And for those who would like to know where this all started, HERE is a link to the threads before this one.

Make THIS year THE year that you change your life, for the better.

Have a Happy New Year, full of memories to treasure, not to forget.

Hi Silver don't you know it's dangerous to think

Hi Silly, I'm not going to have any, I'm just unreasonably irked. I think I'll go to bed soon (sober :)).

Good girl OneSunny! I would be upset/annoyed by that too, but if he has his own battle going on then it's not like he's doing it just to be cruel, or being thoughtless or anything. You're nearly at Day 3!

Silver, do you have any words of wisdom for us? How is your mum doing? Did she manage OK by herself last night?

Hello, back from a long afternoon and evening drinking... Elderflower cordial and mint tea! Turned down the cocktails. Ate what I wanted. Conversation felt a bt stilted at first but got into it by the end!

Good evening all! Venus I emailed you in the address I had from 18 months ago

Hope all well with all, I wanted a cocktail earlier, and it was the knowledge of you all, it was powerful. I gleaned strength from it! Thank you.

silver how you doing?

Night isinde

Trin -don't be beating yourself up,I would say tip it down the sink but being realistic,you'll probably finish off that bottle as you are enjoying it or maybe you have tipped it away and if you have-all power to you!.It's a bastard bittersweet thing that alcohol.

Get your bum in gear tomorrow and start all afresh again..take it moment by moment and work through those cravings.

Merlin- You want to talk? Fire away...I'm listening along with all the others here.Go it easy on yourself huh?

Silver-am glad you are thinking

Onesunnymorning-you are not drinking

Sending out some more positive vibes for all...

Heading to bed, end of Day 7 here, 1 week with no hangover, hope everyone has a restful sleep.

Goodnight Brave Babes:)

Morning everyone. I think I may have a little bit of this boing of which I hear you speak.

House still asleep but I am up with a hair treatment and plastic cap on my head (sexy) and writing a list for the day ahead. WTF?!

I was thinking about the desire we have when we have a hangover to bottle it and produce it when we next have the desire to drink. Oddly, I think that each day that passes since my last red-eye, rank tasting, tiring, guilt-inducing, sleep-wrecking hangover, the easier it is to conjure it up again. I hope this stays with me.

Also, I think I have realised and begun to accept that things just happen, whether you drink or not. And that drink has nothing to do with them, and certainly nothing provides a reason to drink.

So my DH depressive slump - drinking doesn't comfort me. In fact, not drinking helps me to be there for everyone

My friend's birthday - woo hoo cocktails! But other people weren't drinking. I had lovely chats, once I got into it, and the night got better as it went on not worse

Made a lovely lunch - made a lovely lunch. Tastes good without wine too!

It's the weekend! Time for a drink? - no, time for a lovely rest and to get some energy at last

My mother calling in her loan that was for 10 years to help us buy house 9 years and six months early because She was in a bad mood with me - well, drinking won't help, and certainly I can't afford it!

This is probably a very personal log it just helps me to stay motivated and say 'eff off' to the drink 'you help with NOTHING'!!

that speaks to me cristiane
power to us all

still thinking........................................x

Morning trin and silver x

Morning everyone x

Morning all

Cristiane if I remember correctly, I read some of your posts way back on this bus, over a year ago? You seem much more positive and your last post makes so much sense, a good reminder of how we cannot drink like 'normal' drinkers.

I went past a betting shop yesterday and there were quite a few people in there. I thought to myself, why on earth do they want to sit in there wasting their money . I am so glad I am not addicted to gambling, I feel for those poor people who are compelled to keep doing it. We have a lot in common really.

SAF SAF SAF are you ok my luverly? Give us a sign willya?

Morning everyone.

Great post, Christiane

I was just thinking we hasn't heard from Saf for a while. Hope all is well. If you can't post just give us a number...x

Day 7. Who'd a thunk it?

Addiction comes in many forms fairy,those people in the betting shop are no different to addicts pacing the alcohol section of the supermarket.

Addiction is addiction.

Morning all btw

If you told me a month ago I would be getting excited about watching Sherlock on a Sunday evening with a bottle of fizzy water (and a bag of haribos) I think I would of laughed in your face (drunkenly)...

Catch you guys later,after Sherlock of course .

..............and thinking........................x

BTW you are all doing amazingly xxxx

Silver come and talk to us

What are you thinking about? Are you struggling with not drinking? You know you haven't failed until you stop trying. Every day is a new opportunity. How is your mum, my lovely, did she manage her night on her own ok?

Afternoon:) going to visit my mother in nursing home today, she has dementia, and after a visit I usually console (if that's the right word) myself with a bottle of wine! Hoping to stay strong today

Day 4 and difficult. My second start has been fine so far, but today I am struggling. There is beer and wine and a bottle of fizz still left from Christmas, and many bottles of sloe gin and the like.

Have put it all out in the garage, and off to village shop to buy some chocolate to distract myself. Today I am bloody well not going to be beaten by a bottle of wine!

Hope we all have happy evenings and a good night.

Well done Mary, that sounds like a good idea.

Am feeling really down, think it's the usual post-Xmas downer plus sitting with my feelings instead of drowning the bastards. I'm hoping the AD's will have a chance to kick in now I'm not drinking.

Just lost long post ffs

Try again - thanks for the concern about Mum- she is getting physically stronger by the day which is a joy to see.

My thoughts

I am seem incapable of exercising any control

I seem incapapble of exerting any will power

I am pathetic.

The Plan

I truly believe that the naltrexone would have worked had I taken it properly. Unfortunately I had a choice whether to take the pill or not. So being me I just skipped one if I wanted to get pissed which completely defeated the object

So with the support of my GP I am going to have a naltrexone implant in my abdomen that lasts for 6 months.

I will have to pay around £1500 for it and all the associated tests but hey that's why God created credit cards didn't she.

Then I will reduce my drinking over time and eventually reach a point where I no longer drink.

This has been proved by medical trials and on the Sinclair method website.

I am very aware how much of a cop out that sounds but, for me, it is that or a long agonising death from alcohol related disease

To me that's a no-brainer.

Comments welcomed xxxx

Hello hello. Just marking my place on the thread as off to make dinner.

I wonder if some of the regulars are not posting as much because of an influx of newbs like me? Will happily go back to lurking if so.