The Brave Babes Battle Bus - New Year, New Start And With A Firm Resolution In Their Hearts.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have an ever changing relationship with alcohol.

This is the Brave Babes Battle Bus, it's a support thread for those who feel their drinking habits are not what they should be, or even those of another.

Sober, drinking or somewhere in between, come take a seat.

And for those who would like to know where this all started, HERE is a link to the threads before this one.

Make THIS year THE year that you change your life, for the better.

Have a Happy New Year, full of memories to treasure, not to forget.

evening all

I'm struggling because its just so damn unfair that I can't have a drink
I want to be able to do what the fuck I like
I'm sorry, having a bad moment

oh and mouse, yes had a good christmas, just us, didn't go anywhere

wes nice and cosy but I drank a lot

Evening Babes, old and new!
Hope you are all well. Lots of lovely positive vibes on here at the moment &i'm liking it.

48hours of D&V here, not pleasant but absolutely no desire for a drink, which is a bonus. Was hoping I may have lost a few pounds but no such luck.

Well done with that baileys obrigada, that would have tripped me up good and proper, I drank 1 1/2 litres of the stuff between boxing day and new year, it's very addictive!

grip you and your DH sound like me and mine. We have always been drinking buddies, he was well impressed when we first met that I could drink him under the table and we tend to enable each other and he has a tendency to sabotage my plans to stop............only 'cos I let him, of course. It was actually DH who announced he was giving up drinking this time so we are doing it together this time, I think this is the first weekend I've ever spent with him not drinking! He's not doing it completely, he plans to only drink at social occasions, whereas I'm not planning that far ahead. We're out at a birthday party next Sat, I am planning on driving.

ma keep it up lady, you are doing so well, I'm well proud of you. Last night I poured a bottle of champagne down the sink that we ot as a present, just so I couldn't be tempted.

Great to see some old faces returning, sorry I can't name check everyone, I lose track easily, but it's good to be aboard and heading in the right direction for now.

Off to make tea, chorizo & bean soup and crusty bread. Yum!

Day 7 nearly done and today I will not be drinking x

Trinity - where are you up to in terms of being supported? I know that you've struggled my love with the demon drink. When you say you can't have a drink, is this something that has been 'ordered' of you, or is this you kicking ass my friend?

I'm glad you had a cosy Christmas.

I too love Bear sniffing at the screen, DD used to squirm and giggle. Nemo just kissed the screen when Bear came close to it.

Ma - yes it is, I'm pretty sure that there was three of us last year but can't remember who? One of my friends can make the Spa so we're both going.

And then when I get back (picked up and dropped off so we can have some fizz) DH is going to cook something lush for dinner. I am one very, very lucky lady.

Do you think you'll manage not to stab your DH with your steak knife Ma? Or put rat poison in his drink?

Seriously, if you want a strong sleeping tablet for him so you can go out alone, just yell!!

I'm sorry to read that DD is going back soon. I know you'll miss her so very much. Is she due to come back any time soon after she goes? Can she come back at holidays like Easter? xx

Munky - when I had that D&V bug I lost a stone! Just goes to show you how much waste I had built up due to my pain meds. I know that if I had some sort of irrigation, I'd be as light as a feather!

How are you feeling now? Sorry you've been poorly.

IsinDe - you okay? that was a very short sneaky in there.

How are you doing now Trinity, has the moment passed!

Honestly need a kick in the butt re housework, hate it with a passion . . Much prefer to be on the kindle reading!

Aren't Kindles amazing? I love mine. Gone are the days of me turning pages, juggling the light, or dodging the sun.

Right, time for dinner with DH.

Be back tomorrow Babes, stay safe and strong tonight xx

silly there is only benefits to be had from not drinking for a month,it's still early days for me but so far...

I've lost nearly a stone in wine fat (love handles,muffin top and wobbly wine belly is fading fast!)
No more headaches
No more pain under the ribs,heartburn,indigestion
No more waking at 4am panicking and dreading getting up and trying to function
No more night sweats
No more horredous skin breakouts (well not so many and certainly 98% better!)
NO blackouts
NO more waking up with bruises and panicking over how I got them
I have MONEY!
Sluggish,exhausted feelings have gone
Palpitations have disappeared.
I have energy!
Dh & I talk in the evenings now instead of just drinking and ignoring each other.
I don't lay in bed in the day sleeping a hangover off.
No more constant mint munching on the morning school run incase I may stink of booze.
No more showing myself up with friends and family (my mouth would run off with drink)
I can read books in bed and remember what I read in the morning.

There is so many benefits the list is endless.

Do I miss drinking ? Yup,some nights I feel like I've lost an best mate,I have a scratch I can't reach but I have to remind myself that best mate that I relied on for years is a poison and does me no good.I could never stop at one drink,I'd have to finish the bottle,case,crate (unless I drank myself unconscious before then).

How do I get through the night? I drink shit loads of sparkling water and occupy myself.Moment by moment and minute by minute.YOU ALL can achieve sobriety!

Anyway enough of me

I'm off to sink a few bottles of water and watch a French film.

Strength to you all tonight xx

Night Mouse
What a brilliant post Thing:)

For the record, I only had 10 alcohol free days in 2011 so was very much alcohol dependent (or a alcoholic ) hence my community detox.

I never drank in the day and White wine was my drink of choice -1 bottle nightly and 2 of a weekend night if funds allowed.

When I started my detox my blood pressure was through the roof,something I hadn't ever worried about or even considered whilst drinking.Thankfully my LFT's were in normal limits but they sure wouldn't of been if I continued with the levels of my drinking.

I will say please do go to your GP if you cannot keep a lid on sobriety or keeping your drinking levels within normal levels-I spent years trying to curb mine and I just couldn't .My detox gave me the proper platform to start my sobriety.

Please do ask for professional help,I wish I had 15 drinking years ago.

Feeling very full up and stretched out on the sofa to rest my big tum

trinity in reality you (and any of us) CAN do whatever we like, we can drink and drink and drink. What we CAN'T do, is escape from the consequences - stupid behaviour, sick head, unwanted and un-needed calories, fat tummy, hard working liver, crap relationships, depresssion, horrid memories, poor sleep, wasted money.

But that's not just us, there's nothing special about us. It's not unfair. Those things would happen to anybody who wanted to drink lots and lots. What is unfair is that many of us have backed ourselves into a corner where having lots to drink felt like our only solution, our source of relaxation, our source of fun.

But what is EXCELLENT, is that here - at last - there are a group of people who've been the same, felt the same, unfairly been backed into that corner. And we're fighting out of there together. Each of us in our own battle, but able to support and help each other. And people who can really show how much better it is to be out of that corner, dancing and twirling in our own happy space

thingumy - great posts.

merlin what's the problem? What kind of help do you need?

Merlin, hi. Are you OK? Want to talk?

I'm really hearing you venus

cept I'm half a bottle of wine down now

except right at this moment I'm not sad, dp and I are having a nice cosy chat on the couch, he's just gone for a shower so I'm on here

but I told myself I wasn't going to have a drink and I fucked up

what is wrong in my head that makes me feel that having a drink IS THE WAY to relax and if I don't I won't relax, WTF is that about?

hi merlin, whats up?
do you want to tell us?

Hello again

I'm feeling like shit because I got absolutely hammered on Thursday and I went in to work with a hangover. It's a new job. It's dawned on me (and from reading tweets from the people I was out with) that my drinking is a) out of hand and b) noticeably so.

I'm feeling very down and a bit overwhelmed, and am trying to keep it all together. It's day 2 of not having had alcohol. Physically, I still feel rough and I'm frightened I've damaged myself.

Faire, bless you. All good with you? You always seem so calm, happy and just generally sorted. Long may it continue!

*Mouse^, your spa weekend sounds fab. Just what the doctor ordered. Good for you. And Nemo sounds even more adorable - kissing the screen

Thingumy, thank you so much for that fantastic post. That will motivate me so much, thanks for doing it. The night sweats, I'd completely forgotten about them! I used to have a river running between my bazookas And the waking in the night panicking - horrible, horrible, horrible. Not sure I'm ready to swap my chocolate for sparkling water yet but maybe one day!

Venus, another inspiring, insightful post from you, as per usual Hope all is well with you and your DD

Hope everyone is OK tonight. I have eaten my body weight in truffles tonight but I am NOT drinking! Day 7 tomorrow...come on then

Hello OneSunnyMorning, sorry you're feeling so rubbish. The regrets and embarrassment of social drinking to excess can be excruciating. People forget though (it'll be someone else doing something embarrassing soon, tonight probably!).

You're doing the right thing by not drinking now, and by coming on here. You can't change the past, just the future, so put your energy into staying sober

Do you have a DP/DH? Hope you have some support at home.

Hi Sillystroke, DH has gone to get some beer . He's got his own battles with booze, and is cutting down. I'm trying not to let it affect me.

Are you going to have some, OneSunny? Sorry to hear DH struggles too. It is hard when one of you is drinking and the other doesn't want to. You need extra willpower then when it is under your nose

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