The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Joins The Foreign Legion In Their Quest For Sobriety.

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Hello, I'm Mouse and I have a very abusive relationship with alcohol.

I can't just have one glass of anything, I have to drink until I pass out or run out. Whichever comes first.

This Bus is a place of solace and safety, where drinkers, non-drinkers and those who aren't quite sure can come and post or just sit and 'be'.

No-one will judge you, no-one will think any the less of you because we all have the same thing in common.

Alcohol.

And for those who want to read the journey's so far and the original thread by JWN, the lady who very bravely started these journeys for us, HERE they are.

(PS - the title is just for you notevenamousie)

Or, going back to low cal comfort food, a huge bowl of goodness - home made vegetable soup, mmmm. Can you tell I haven't had my dinner yet? One track mind some people .

hmm, off to put the oven on for my ready meal dh is away

Well, lucky old you JWN

Mouse just xxxxx

I had a horrid day today, serves me right for being so joyous yesterday I suppose. Flipping budgets and red tape .

Then to cap it off DH just came in, and we're going to the theatre tomorrow, and I said "Gosh, the last time we went there was years ago". To which DH replied, "Yes, and you wore that really tight dress, charmed my chairman, and at the end of the end of the night, walked up the wrong drive"
Way to go Dh!!!!!!!

Hello everyone

I still haven't heard about the job but I'm trying to be philosophical about it. If it isn't mean to be etc etc... And I'm feeling a bit poorly so left the gym early.

((mouse))

Glad I'm welcome, don't want to seem smug...... I honestly am filled with admiration for all of you.

My friend displays so many of the common themes here, increased tolerance for alcohol, drinking every night, weight gain, justification of consumption levels because her bf drinks more than she does......

Happy to be a cheerleader for all that need it!

I'm drinking tonight, didn't yesterday but today was bad

Aww shake dya wanna talk about it?

What're you drinking?

Why not have a couple and tip the rest away if you can do that, so tough I know < sympathetic >

Have a big [hug] X

I'm on wine, have finished the bottle, of to get some chips and get even fatter How are you loopyloo ?

Shakes - talk to us x

Onemoring - look after yourself my love, if you're a bit wobbly could be your body telling you to slow down.

thurso oh lovely. I'm sorry that you are having a rubbish day. ((((x))))

JWN - I'm rubbish with ready meals, I bet yours is from M&S or Waitrose? xx

I'm not sad or anything, I'm taking care of Dh (he sprained his ankle), the place is tidy, the children are in bed, I didn't have strong excuses to get wine, I have been talking to Miflaw today and I'm going to look at aa meeting (again) around where I live, I want to go to a women one. I'm sorry I can't give you advice or support, you are so much more articulate than me. Please believe me I have been reading these threads almost since the beginning.

Thanks mouse, am going to have a nice early night tonight. I'm looking forward to my nice warm bed :)

Glad to hear you're doing ok shake

Im ok too, Im drinking cider, but Im not drunk.

Someone please tell me that Im doing better, at least Im not drinking half bottle of spirits and a bottle of wine like I would normally do.

Shake - you don't have to give anything back, not at all. It doesn't work like that.

I'm a huge believer in paying it forward..... so one day, when you are ready and without knowing it, you'll do something or give someone something back without even realising.

You will make it through this with the right support.

MIFLAW is an absolutely fantastic person in my book. I have a lot of respect for him. I really do. I don't go to AA but I know that it works for others and it works for him.

He tells it just like it is. I can handle that. The truth.

Anyway, just take care of yourself okay? Slowly and softly.

I'm off to nurse Nemo through the night in our bed, I can't risk him choking again for a third night.

Sleep well Babes xxxxxxxxxxx

loopy

You are doing great.

stick with it

Night Mouse

Thurso Ma - missed you babes xxx

Where's Isindie

faire - thank you

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SILLLLLLLLLVER!!

Thank you for the cheddar, keep posting no matter what please.

Love you lots xx

loopy you are doing well. keep at it.
shake hang in there.

Announcement - I am going to have to leave the bus, babes. this is very serious...

.....the change in my diet has inolved me eating lentils for lunch and red cabbage for dinner . It is playing havoc with my digestion and I could power my very own wind turbine. I love you all too much to put your lives at risk..I am seriously toxic. Either mouse had better hand round gas masks or I have to get off for a while.

Ma I know you wanted 'out with the old, in with the new' but that's taking it too far.

ma isn't the bus a bit like Hotel California? (Disclaimer: the Eagles was my parents' music. I'm not that old.)
loopy try it and see if it works. As an overthinker I want to define 'better'. Are you enjoying drinking cider, enjoying your day, is it messing with your head and how you feel?
thurso this, too shall pass. It's just today, hang in there, and tomorrow might feel better.
shake today wasn't good - how? Before or after you started drinking?
Agree w Silver, where's Isindie, and Zany too.

I had a great meeting - it was a lovely lady celebrating a year of sobriety, and very busy, and for the first time in my life I have a place I go and I feel at home and relaxed and loved for me, no need to be or do anything else. Am shattered and headachy so off to sleep now. Night all, Mouse hope Nemo's a bit better overnight and sAf that you get some rest from your head.

oops..... pardon me!!

I hope you don't mind me joining your thread? My name is positive and I have a very destructive relationship with alcohol. I recognise this so rarely drink now (both parents are alcoholics) but I still want to drink practically every second of every day and really, really struggle with self control. I'm going out with a friend tomorrow night and have been dreaming of how much we're going to drink. I wish I could go out, have 2 glasses of wine and be able to stop but no, I'm already thinking of the second bottle we'll order and aperitifs....

Good to off load that and feel slightly more resolve to drive tomorrow rather than allow myself to risk starting to drink again....

Have a lovely evening and thank you for being my sounding board!

The support network on here is fantastic - you always assume it's just you but it's reassuring how many others struggle with alcohol in the same way

Hello Positivechanges what a wonderful name. Sounds like you do want to make some changes so perhaps now is the time to decide what you want for your future self.

thanks faire
cork could be lethal at high velocity though...
think I'd better go to bed. should be able to repel DH tonight without too much effort.

Hi Faire - thank you! Now is definitely the time to start making changes and to try and be strong. I hate me when I drink. I would love to never drink again or to be someone who can stop after one drink. I so relate to mouse in that once wine is open I drink until there's no more left or I've passed out.

One morning good luck with your job.