The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Sweeping Into Autumn With A One Way Ticket To Sobriety.

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Phew, just in time!

I'm mouse and I love a few to drink. I love all things cheese and I love MrMouse

Welcome to the Bus. We are a collection of drinkers, non-drinkers, and those who are somewhere in between but we all have the same thing in common, we can't just have 1 drink and then stop.

Come say hi, we don't bite .

Here are the other threads to date, if you have a spare hour or seven to kill.

OUR HISTORY

Thanks for posting about wantto

Sorry to hear that DT is crying IsinDe, teething?

Faire - I'd smash the tv to pieces if I watched that! Outnumbered is on BBC1 at 9pm. I'm watching that and then I'm going to bed.

Pint of water and meds at the ready. I can honestly say that I feel better now I've eaten again.

KEEP GOING BABES!!

Hello all,

Dh couldn't make my Graduation, but, DC1 came [I love him so much icon!]. I'm a Graduate!, many years too late!!

DC1 leaves home for London tomorrow .

We have had a lovely barbecue this evening, mostly in the dark!, with the outside lights on, it all seems a bit weirdly weird!!

I am struggling, struggling, not to drink one and then drink myself to sleep, but I do know that I want to be OK and not too tearful to see DC off.

I send my love to everyone tonight, and aplogise for the me, me msg, I just needed you.
xxxx

Many, many congrats thurso, so many milestones for you at the moment. Do join us in a pj, tv,

I've recorded Outnumbered and also Miranda

Feeling better now but very tired. Don't think the owl will be up late tonight. Thanks for being around this evening babes x

Are we all still on the bus? Not long till bedtime. We can do this.

I'm clinging on to the back of Silver's driving seat, but I'm still here!

Thurso - did you say it was your graduation today? I'm so sorry if I missed it . WELL DONE YOU!!! Sending you love and giant hugs for tomorrow. xxxxxxx

At least when DC1 comes home, you can spoil him rotten! Plus you get to go to London now and see him, plus have lunch whenever you fancy! Maybe meet a Brave Babe for lunch?

Who's in London? I'm not otherwise I'd go with you!

Heading to bed, but just wanted to say a huge well done to those who have struggled through this evening, hope you have a good sleep and wake up feeling bouncy (or at least sober)!

Hi, sorry for lack of posts. Have read everything and as always this place amazes me.

mouse am thinking if you and you know where i am. Having flashbacks means you might need help. Can I send you a book? I read it and it convinced me to have therapy to deal with childhood abuse. A few sessions changed my life. Anyway it about a safe type of therapy to deal with trauma. Or I can pm you website?

Am drinking tonight. Meeting with consultant was shit. He was honest that they can't tell me ttc is risk free. Tests and medication could mean I get back to normal population risk - 1 in 3 for mc and 1 in 300 for abnormalities (based on my age). Given that so far I've have one successful pregnancy in four I'm not reassured. The saddest thing is that I realised nothing can change how I feel about ttc - another child was what I wanted most in the world and now I am terrified of pg.

Anyway will we back tmrw. Keep going ladies. Be strong.

MsGee - I'll PM you my address if that's okay? I'd love the book xx

I'm so, so, so sorry that you feel so scared to try. I was the same with Nemo, scared to death that we'd lose him too. I was convinced that he'd be disabled, die whilst I carried him etc.... maybe it was a mini premonition?

I told myself that we'd suffered enough, he'd be fine, I was just being silly, we'd done nothing wrong to deserve this, strange, it's like I knew he'd be born with additional needs.

It doesn't mean that you will lose the next baby, but honestly, it doesn't mean that you won't sweets. Life is bloody cruel. No rhyme or reason to it. It's shit.

Have the tests sweetheart, see what they can do to help and try to give your body a rest for a few months. Why not see if you can go a few cycles without TTC?

You know where I am, I'm happy to listen to you for as long as you need me to, you have my number.

Make sure you have some water before bed. Give yourself a break. Give yourself some love. You are very raw right now.

Please, just take your time and try to get your head around all of this. Massive hugs to you xxxxxxx

MsGee how tough the truth is sometimes

All you want to hear is that things will be OK, but actually none of us never know that that is the case, and for you, maybe more so. Is another child really what you want most, or is it a 'complete family'? I can totally understand if your idea of a complete family included another child, but can you modify that so that your family is just exactly what you have now?

Anyway, take care sweetheart x

Hey mouseymouse, I'm still waiting for Outnumbered - here in the North we've had some other crap on TV for the last hour and we have to wait till 10.30 for Outnumbered to appear.

How have you done tonight mouse? Have you survived?

Right, bed! I amde it. Thank you all so very much for the love and support today. The kindness of 'strangers' blows me away.

See you in the morning.

I hope you all have peaceful nights. xx

IsinDe - I hope DT is okay? xx

Hi all have been drinking but am not drunk. Dh looking disapproving at glass 3of 3 but said nothing which helped; have just had large berocca and water so hopefully hangover will be minimised. Not sure if I enjoyed wine or just had it because I was allowed. Food for thought.

Lots of interesting posts this pm which I want to reply to but will do so in am when not next to snoring dh. Msgee offer to discuss genetics drama stands.

Hullo

Sorry it's taken me a couple of days to get back, please don't worry about me if I go AWOL.

Do I want to stop drinking? that's a tricky one. I thought I did, but I have an alcoholic brain that regularly tells me that I don't.

I had a very AA day today, I spent the afternoon with a very lovely AA woman (same length of AA time as me - 6 months-ish) came round and we had a good old moan about aspects of it that we don't like, which interestingly were different in the extreme. Then we went to a meeting together this evening which was a disaster from start to finish and culminated in the pair of us in hysterical giggles, tears 'n all, at the end. I should have known it wasn't going to be good when I saw the bloke jacking up heroin into his groin in the park right next to where the meeting was . It just went from bad to worse from then on. Who the bloody bollocks sets up a meeting right next to a bar (with only a roll down hatch between them) where there will be people whooping, laughing like drains and vigorously throwing empties into the recycling bin, right next to it?

I was coping ok, in that I didn't walk out (!) until right at the end, when during announcements the bloke next to us said that someone was giving a talk , then followed it up with 'he's an old mate of mine, the CUNT>

That's when I couldn't stop myself and I dissolved into uncontrollable giggles, with tears streaming down my face. What a bloody fiasco. I'm so glad that wasn't my first ever meeting because I'd never have gone back. EVER.

So, anyway, friday nights can still hold some excellent and hysterical laughter even when sober.

Welcome to Tawdry Love your name, I'm strangely drawn to it ! one of the best around on MN. Just keep posting and learning on here, if that's what you need. There are all kinds of alcohol issues on this thread, but most importantly it's that people have admitted that they have a problem, and really that's all you need to know you're in the right place. x

Oh and ps obviously have free bed for Thurso when she comes to spy on visit her ds. (suppresses desire to know where he is in london)

Well done tawdry

Well done tawdry! I have a horrible hangover. Seems I can't drink like I used to- think I might give drinking a miss today!

actually have had a big glass of water and a cup of tea and don't feel that bad - just not used to it! Am going to friends' for dinner tonight so my aim will be not to drink beforehand and to stick to a couple of glasses of wine.

Morning!

Hello babes. I did it too. On day 5 now. The fog is lifting slightly, and I'm feeling good today. We have lots of plans for today which I can now join in with as not puking my guts up/asleep all day.

Hope you have a good day too babes.

And sending healing vibes to any hungover babes. Be kind to yourselves.

Morning all,

Well done Tawdry

I managed to fight the beast as well, so it will just be the normal amount of rivers of tears when DC goes, not hungover ones!

I hope you feel better soon legal, a meet up would be great sometime.

Golly what an experience! Well done for staying sober at the end of it.

Isindie and Mouse I hope you both had some restorative sleep.

Righto, up to take snoro DH some tea. He is obviously very affected by what's happening today .

Speak later lovely Babes
xxxxx

Morning All
Well done to everyone to managed a successful night!!

I am away for a swim in the hotel health suite, as opposed to being the person who was last at the bar last night! Although I didn't sleep well, the bed is not great .

Hope everyone has a really good day.

Bafana