I've namechanged for this, obviously.
So, we were foreplaying last night, all going fine. Then dp accidently pulled my hair. It was really sore and totally killed the mood for me so we stopped for a minute. Then I started masturbating both of us, lying on our backs. We do that quite regularly and I was happy to finish the job. But then dp sat up and kneeled perpendicular to me and removed my hand from his penis. I could sense things were heading a way I wasnt comfortable with but I was close to orgasm, so was distracted. He shoved one hand inside me and masturbated himself with the other. I came very quickly but then he just came all over my chest. I found it really demeaning and felt used. He handed me a tissue but it was all over the place. He knows that I haven't liked this in the past and now I feel quite resentful that he pushed my boundaries/broke my trust. I said he was a pervert and turned the duvet to give him the yukey bit.
I'm now thinking I probably wont do the mutual masturbation thing again because I cant trust him not to take it too far. I dont give him blow jobs anymore because I cant trust him to be clean and not thrust into my mouth.
The thing is, though, I'm not some prude! I've had dozens of one night stands, threesomes, anal, bondage, outdoor fun, allsorts. Dp is the 'vanilla' one in our relationship. He refuses to try several things I'd like, which I accept as being a compromise for being in the relationship (6yrs). I suppose I feel that it is unfair that sex seems so much on his terms and under his control.
He is like a brick wall to talk to so I have no idea how to address these issues, MNers help me!