We don't live together, but spend many nights together. However, we only seem to have sex at the weekends, as my partner says he's always tired (accept on the odd occassion). They work long hours in a factory, so this is more then understandable. What I can't get my head around however, and am rather upset about is that they masturbate on the nights I don't stay, despite being to tired when I stay (unless it's the weekend).
I know this sounds ridiculas, and I honestly hate myself for feeling the way I do. I mean, I understand that what a person does with their genitles in their own time is their own business. But, I have long suffered with self esteem issues, and really feel upset that he feels too tired to sleep with me, yet when I'm not there isn't to tired to masturbate.
I find myself becoming sad over this, to the point I can't bare to be in the company of my partner with out seeming off. I hate the fact this bothers me, and for the life of me wish it didn't. But no matter how much I say to myself it's not a problem and to get over it, I can't.