The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Players and Supporters Bus

[venusandmars]

Hi I am venus and I am an alcoholic.

Thanks to the first thread by Jesuswhatnow I have not had a drink for a long time.

There are lots of us on here, please lurk, post, whatever does it for you. If you are worried about how much you drink and your inability to stop when you want to, then someone on here can probably understand.

noteven

Welcome to you new and improved version of your life.

WELL DONE YOU!!! You have taken charge. YOU.

I really, really hope that you find the help you need there tonight. And here. xx

Welcome to 'the' not you. Sorry.

Hi all
nothing much to report. dad a bit brighter today but has surgery scheduled for Wednesday which is so risky given various health problems that he has had to sign an indemnity in case he doens't make it. Twould be for the best, in all honesty....
watching the rugby and trying to resist beating the crap out of Ds for using his scooter in the house

Thank you. This is it. Crisis point. They said I can take DD. I am so frightened and I really want help.

Thank you. Am feeling rough and it's going to get worse, right. It's been the worst 4 days but now it's going to change. I have a choice and I am going to take it, for DD if not for me.

Good on you noteven You are so brave. You can do this.

You have done the hardest part. You have asked for help.

It's great that you can take DD. Is your DP not around later?

Even if this is not for you 8noteven8, you are doing it. You are taking control away from the booze.

Be brave. x

ma - So sorry that things are so tough at the moment. Is there anything we can do to help?

Well done noteven. AA will make you feel so welcome, you'll be amongst people who really understand you. And you're doing the right thing appreciating that you have to do it for yourself.

I'm trying to fight an overwhelming craving at the moment. Waiting for family to arrive, doing the cooking. Always accompanied by a glass of red in the past that leads to one or maybe two bottles. The desire is almost over-whelming and I'm trying to focus very hard on the consequences of picking up the first drink. If anyone's out there to remind me of them, I'd be most grateful.

ps am drinking literally gallons of coffee at the moment. But I suppose that's better than booze...

Hi Dipso

You and me both, darling.

I've been on my own a bit too much lately, and today, now, I really, really want to go to the shops and come back and pour out a glass of wine.

DH out, all today and tomorrow, but DC in, and really don't want to go down the old road. I feel very, very low today, goodness knows why, haven't got any problems like others on here. Sorry for the whinge.

Dipso I am going to think that you are around :) we will remember that we don't want to not remember what we said tonight, don't want to wake up feeling that we have let ourselves, and everyone else down, and don't want tomorrow to be a right off, for us and our families. I can't have one tonight, I know what will happen. How about you?

Hang in there Dipso. If I can then you can.

I phoned the Samaritans but now have run out of credit. I just needed someone to talk to and I just don't have anyone.

DD seems ok and I can't go out and buy credit so I don't buy alcohol.

I meant write off

noteven - you have us here online with you.

Gallons of water here. Did coffee this morning and it made me a bit shakey!

Come on Brave Babes, stay on the bus!

thurso - whinge away and let it all out!

My DH is currently watching rugby drinking lots of beer. I know that in a while, he'll call me from Twickenham and try his level best to act sober.

I will chuckle to myself on the other end of the phone (because I'm mean like that) knowing that in the morning, when he comes round with the mother of all hangovers, I will be cooking breakfast, doing jobs around the house all fresh faced and sober.

I DO NOT MISS HANGOVERS!!!!

Samaritans were wonderful. I feel wobbly. I should tell my DP. I need a bath. I am so worried.

You should tell you DP yes.

Where is he now? Can he come to see you?

noteven please just take it a minute at a time. Each minute that passes is another minute that you have managed to stay sober. I know it will feel like a long time, but honestly, honestly it DOES get better, and you and your dd are worth each extra minute that you can hang on.

Go to AA, weep, cry, shake - they will have seen it all before (and often in the mirror). I expect someone would come to the shop with you to get phone credit and make sure you don't but a bottle. they have all been on that edge where you are now. I have been on that edge, and I am willing you with everything that I have to get through the next minute and the one after and the one after.

Thank you. I need some money for the taxi too. So I guess I have to go out. Definitely surviving a minute at a time. I am going to do this, for today.

thurso and dipso keep posting, keep your hands occupied.

Do you remember HALT? Are you hungry? Angry? Lonely? Tired? Try, really try to satisfy those needs, you may be surprised by how you feel afterwards. the physical addiction to alcohol does not last long - what you are experiencing is a mental confusion, You feel hungry and you think you want a drink, you feel tired and you think that need can be satisfied with a drink. You know that is not right. What can you so to satisfy the real need? Thurso you say you've been on your own too much lately - anyone you can phone for a chat?

If you are going to the cashpoint to get money, then count the number of steps it takes to get there (DO NOT GO PAST the SHOP on your way there, then make sure that you get back home in exactly the same number of steps.

Can you survive without phone credit until someone is there that can help you?

Noteven you have survived several minutes already. I understand that it is painful and horrid. I understand the longing you have, but you have survived. It does not get worse. This is as bad as it gets. And it gets better real soon.

Thurso am with you totally. Holding out, going out now with my mum to buy some wood for the fire. I hope you get through. Noteven you have us all to talk to here.
Dad has brought a bottle of wine with him, I intend not to share it.

Thanks for looking after us all Venus.

noteven you are an inspiration, you have offered dipso your support even though you have been through the mill over the last few days, but you are dealing with your own situation. As you said, this is for you and in doing it for yourself you are being the best mummy that you can to DD. I hope that your DP is able to support you. Every best wish that AA is another step to help you.

thurso and dipso hope that you are hanging in there - how about a cup of tea and a biscuit?

Ma sounds like a difficult few days for you. Hope they pass calmly. We are all here if needs be.

clearandpresent - all well with you?

mouse hope Nemo is brighter. How is DD enjoying her new school?

Settling in for the evening here - dark now and a bit misty. DH cooking a Jamie's 30 min meal (about an hour) and even the clearing up takes longer than 30 mins (!) but a treat to be cooked for so I will enjoy.

Hey WNT

She has her ups and downs. Currently, she is on an up.

It's dark here now too. Just been out for a walk with Nemo (yes in the dark) and gone past the little village chippy.

(not the of the woodcraft kind) The waft of curry sauce is tempting me to go back out and get chips with curry sauce. Only me to feed as DD will be on pasta.

I may treat myself.

A minute at a time. I feel sick. What if I'm vomiting by the time it's time to go out to AA? Is it really ok to take DD do you think?

noteven YES it is fine to take your dd, and it is fine to be vomiting, even while you are there - just take a bucket with you.