The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Players and Supporters Bus

[venusandmars]

Hi I am venus and I am an alcoholic.

Thanks to the first thread by Jesuswhatnow I have not had a drink for a long time.

There are lots of us on here, please lurk, post, whatever does it for you. If you are worried about how much you drink and your inability to stop when you want to, then someone on here can probably understand.

mouse saw XH for about 10 mins yesterday. Basically he just shouted at me so I left! It was lovely. Not.

zany be kind to yourself. Are you seeing your date again?

Noteven

A lot of us have been there. Morning drinking doesn't make you a bad person - but it probably makes you a drunk.

Also, if you're like me, then you typically "control" your drinking by falling asleep and/or soak it up with your evening meal.

Sleep and your evening meal are both a long way away when you start in the morning. Expect today to be IMMENSE in a bad way.

This will lead to a monumental hangover which stacks the odds in favour of another early start tomorrow.

The merry-go-round has started - what do you need to do to get off and stay off?

"a hangover won't kill me, but alcohol definitely might."

I'd probably rephrase that to "probably will" - just to be on the safe side, you understand.

Morning all!!

My dilema for today is sleep again I don't seem to be able to fall aseep in our bed.
Everyone is so noisy in their sleep, from dh's snoring, littlelegs shouting "red balloon" in her sleep & DD2 has now got a cough.
I have spent the last 2 nights cuddled up on the sofa with emmerdale farm on the tv - I can fall into a lovely sleep by about 1am this way.
Problem is it is giving dh the hump.
Surely I can't be made to feel guilty for NOT necking 2 bottles of wine a night & falling into a coma across the bed fully clothed?

mouse I am so sorry nemo is still feeling poorly, you are doing so well.

noteven My dd2 used to suffer with febrile's, I have never witnessed anything as scary. you take good care of yourself & remember you are doing your best x

Sorry for missing some BB hello's but I really need to stop -spending the day on this thread do some housework to justify my stay at home mum position.

Take care x

Thank you. Feel terrible not being in work.

DD is on my lap watching the snowman and I feel very very strange....

I bought her the DVD from "FC" last year with The Snowman and Father Christmas... which given what's happened the last 12 hours sounds fair?!!

Noteven

Just seen that your daughter has had a febrile convulsion.

My daughter had one at 11m. It came completely out of the blue, we had no idea what it was, and thought she was going to die. As an agnostic, I couldn't even pray for her (well, I could, obviously, but I knew I was lying even as I did it, so I stopped - I felt VERY alone then.)

But, luckily, I didn't have to drink over it. I can't tell you what a bonus that is.

Of course you feel strange noteven. You are battling a hangover by putting more poison into your body. Not judging you in the slightest as I have had my fair share of morning drinking - just topping up on the previous evening. I found it so tempting because I knew it would take me back to oblivion again. I understand why you're doing it but I wish I could run round and pour it all away

I wish it too.

I wish... I need to admit this...

Admit what noteven?

I'm Katie.
I definitely need to admit that I'm an alcoholic

But hungover and maybe drunk... help me. Kick me too.

Hello Katie

thank you

Katie well done lovely. Is this the first time you have used the 'A' word?

By the way, my names M and I'm an alcoholic.

Morning desire

It is and I'm in flood of tears that I really deserve.

Morning Red:) Sorry to hear ex shouted at you:(

Katie because it's bloody scary. I certainly cried the first time I admitted it to myself. But this is the first step and now you can move forward with this knowledge. And the best thing is that you're not alone - there's bloody loads of us!

desire no worries re XH! Water off a duck's back. How are you?

Noteven talk to us
Red been awake since 5 so am feeling a bit tired at minute! Need to get into "take action" mode and sort out stuff

Katie - hang in there. You are doing great by talking to us sweetheart.

I know how awful it is to have a poorly child in your arms. More than most. I have sat helplessly and watched my son's life hang in the balance three times so far in his 18 months of being here.

I know that in your heart you are strong enough to get through today. For your daughter as much for youself.

What can we do to help you Katie? xxx

noteven keep posting. You are going through on of the most difficult things possible and we want to support you. You are not alone.

desire I woke up at about 5am this morning too. Couldn't get back to sleep until it was time to get up - typically I could have slept for ages then.

Red - oh what a delight your X is

I'm guessing that he's not a fan of losing control over you then?

Shame. It's time for the Red show and he's NOT invited.

mouse I think that you're right re the control thing. I didn't see it when I was in the relationship but it's clear now.

Hey peeps, morning all.

katie Of course you are in floods in of tears, it is a really hard thing that you have admitted to yourself. I could hardly see through my tears on the first day that I posted on here. It will pass. You don't deserve to feel like this, you are a good person, trying to look after your DD, but the devil in your head says that a drink will make you feel better. It won't, please try, just for the next bit of the day to chuck it away, pour it down the sink, or tip it into a plant!
Did you start drinking last night when you got home from the hospital? It is so easy to do, to think that you just want to stop worrying for a couple of hours, just to get a respite from the huge responsibility and terrible anxiousness. But what if you need to take DD (God willing, hope not) back to the hospital? you will have two problems to deal with, and won't feel able to cope at all.
Please keep posting on here, and tip the bl**dy stuff away, even just for the next hour or so, and go from there.
I'm sorry if I've said too much, but I am really worried about you. Take care, keep posting [motherly hug]

The thought of support makes me cry even more. I don't deserve this.
My DD is playing in her playroom and I am crying.
I am so stupid - miflaw is right that I chose this for both her and me - I need to stop but all I can do is cry and be sick. She is sleeping on my knee. I am so stupid and hopeless.

Snuggling. Thank you.