The Brave Babes Battle Bus - Players and Supporters Bus

[venusandmars]

Hi I am venus and I am an alcoholic.

Thanks to the first thread by Jesuswhatnow I have not had a drink for a long time.

There are lots of us on here, please lurk, post, whatever does it for you. If you are worried about how much you drink and your inability to stop when you want to, then someone on here can probably understand.

Morning Wasindie, will be thinking of you today!

Just done a quick skim-read, you are all so lovely babes. Hope you're ok noteven. I'm going to beating myself up today because I fell off last night and had a bottle of wine. Because I haven't been drinking for a couple of weeks it hit me like a train and I got high as a kite. Can't remember the end of the evening and woke up in bed at 1am with clothes on, lights on, cat not fed etc etc (insert icon for yawn). DD was with her dad so she wasn't involved luckily.

Was on a date with a guy I met off PoF (we'd been talking for ages and organised the meeting before I decided to give it another go with ex, see earlier post). At the last minute (about two hours before date) I decided to try and cancel him but he'd already left and I thought I'd better turn up as it would really mean not to. I told myself the only way I'd get through it would be to have a drink but of course I can't have just one. We had an interesting evening, he was good company and I fancied him but there was something about him I didn't like. Anyway (shudder) I ended up snogging him and I was the one who instigated it! I am bad bad bad. Can't remember anything about how it ended either. Feel awful about lovely soon-to-be not ex who texted me twice during evening but I was too pissed to check my phone. It's made me appreciate him all the more.

Despite deep shame I'm grateful in a way that this happened - I think I was getting complacent (believing that the Campral could protect me but it hasn't) and this has reminded me that I can't drink. Feel like shit today and have loads to do. Hey ho. Have a good one everyone.

Morning Dipso, don't feel bad about not seeing texts from ex, it's you yourself that you have to concentrate on, today is a new day:)
Mouse should be round soon with tea/coffee, painkillers and bacon sarnie if you are up to it:)

Ah cheers Desire, wish I could stay here all day but can't log on at work. Me and my sore head will be back later.

Talk this evening Dipso, look after yourself today!

Wasindie take really good care of yourself today. And decide - are you really going to let your response to your family be "I need to have a drink". Or might it be better if your response was "well bugger them. Me, and my dp and my dts and what I have chosen, what I want, and I am going home to enjoy being with them. Sober."

Morning lovely Babes!

wasindie I hope that everything goes OK today. Will be thinking of you.

noteven how are you now?

Sorry have not really had the chance to read thread in depth. I hope that everyone's OK.

Morning Red:)

MOrning everyone

Wasindie have a coffee as soon as you get on the train, may help to not go for the wine

Noteven hope your OK, just remember that when you feeling ill (and it does sound like fflu) then everything feels worse - especially in he night when your the only oone awake.

NOt had a reply to my text yet but on the plus side I have another date tonight :)

"Lesson learnt: keep my distance."

no offence, but I'd say that that's the wrong lesson - or, rather, that that lesson is incidental.

The lesson you need to learn more than any other is - whatever happens, don't drink.

Morning all.

Wasindie - just to let you know that I am in your left hand side coat pocket for the day, for HUGE moral support at the funeral. No matter what happens, I'll be in your pocket helping you get through the day.

Red - xx.

desire - how are you holding up? Not really had a chance to chat of late. Sorry.

Dipso - What was it about the date that you didn't like? You've clearly picked up on some sort of 'vibe'.

Do you think more than a kiss happened? Feel free to ignore that question. Did the fact that you instigated the kiss frighten you? And the fact you can't remember how the nigt ended?

noteven - I echo what Wasindie has said. You know what you have to do. You have to STOP drinking. Simple as that.

BUT.... I have said this so often on here.... YOU HAVE TO WANT TO STOP DRINKING.

There really is no point otherwise. You are not a person who can just cut down I'm afraid. You are from the 'Have To Stop Altogether School' of drinkers.

There is a huge amount of real life support at the end of your fingertips. And of course on here.

It's time to really think about your future and how you would like that future to pan out. It's time to kick drink's ass! Get tough and take back your life.

Morning Mouse:) Have some tough life changing decisions to make at minute so head all over the place at moment!
Knew we could rely on you for the sarnies and drinks (non-alcoholic of course):)
How are things with you today? And with Nemo?

Morning mouse, zany, desire and MIFLAW

Things a bit hectic here today but will try to keep an eye on things.

desire - as much as I am not going to pry, you know where I am if you want to talk or want any advice that you think I can help with, ok? xx

Re Nemo, he is a different little boy today. Much happier for 24hrs of Dioralyte (sp?). Clealry what his poor tummy needed.

He is very, very snotty still but ok in himself. I spoke with his nurse again last night and she just said keep going, I'm doing great, he'll be ok etc....

I know she's right but yesterday was the worst he has ever been with his reflux. Hence my flirting with thoughts of a bottle of vodka.

I didn't. But I did raise a glass of cheap fizz to Nemo, as it was the 1 year anniversary of his emergency open heart surgery. The rest went into DH!!

mouse congrats to Nemo and all the mouse family!

Ouch ... sore head for DH this morning Mouse or does he have the cheek not to have a hangover??
Will pm you in a bit Mouse

It was 7% stuff (as I was in control of the shopping, I got the meak and mild stuff!!) so no hangover. And DH rarely has hangovers, he just feels 'shabby'

Quite how shabby feels about that is another matter all together!!

Glad Nemo is doing better today Mouse and well done on only having the one after the day you had.

Ohhh just had a reply from my text last night. I was very good I got a friend to 'vet' the text first as I had had a few.

Response what you wanted Zany??

Yes Zany - do tell?!

Come on zany. Spill!

morning all!!, am off to meeting now but i expect my fellow babes to get the thumbscrews on zany till she gives us the gos!!

laters babes!!!

Well, there is a single dad who lives near me, my DD is friends with one of his DD. We went to the park with all the DC's and got on really well. I have kind of made it clear I just want to be friends (even though I want more) seen as our DD are friends and I know I have an entourage not baggage from last relationship.

Anyway..... I texted last night to see if he wanted to come for a bite to eat on Sunday with his DD's (make him fall for mr through his stomach. lol)

Got a lovely reply, unfortunately his parents are round but he is going to pop in.

Phew.. sorry so long