Good morning All
Tea, hope your car is just really cold and thats why it's not starting for you and i love the name change :o
Also my DS2 & DS3 are 13 months apart and DD and DS3 are 17 months apart so i definately can relate re sibling rivalry, they are all a BIG handful and utterly exhausting and some days all i can hear from the moment i open my eyes is screaming and arguing, which is why i am such a stickler on the bedtime but i definately shout alot more than i would like so i feel for your sore throat, hope you feel better soon
Getting, One day you will look back at all the times you have asked yourself why he didnt love you ect or felt bad because your XH belittled you and made you feel not worthy and will ask yourself why again.....why the hell did i care what he thought?, he is the one who is not worthy and quite frankly didn't deserve your love, none of our X's on this thread are worthy or deserving of our love and in some cases even our time, if they couldn't appreciate what they had then they are the ones losing out as we are all wonderful strong women who have our wonderful DC's and what do they have? a relationship built on lies? (if their still with OW),a bit of freedom to do whatever they want? well what happens when the novelty of that wears off? and they have a greatly reduced relationship with their DC where they see them for only a few hours a week or not at all they will never have the kind of bond with their DC that we have as primary carers and if they can give that up and walk away from it all then they are no more worthy of our headspace than what we scrape off our shoes
Patience, a cup of hot chocolate and a sit by the window for half an hour watching the blizzard would be heaven for me, so if you get a chance take 5 and watch the beauty of the snow and think of me while doing it :o
Also havent watched Eastenders this week but will watch the catch up today and bring you up to date later 
Googoomama, welcome to our thread, you will find everything you need right here and we will all help you
When my X first left i had bad panic attacks, i actually had one in church whilst kneeling before holy communion, it scared the c out of me all i could think was, i'm 30 yrs old with 4 DC, 3 of whom are under 3, with hardly any support to go out and work, meet someone or anything at all and if my partner of 11yrs can leave me then what am i going to do, im going to be alone forever, i cant do this on my own, im not strong enough s, s, s, about 3 weeks later after a huge meltdown i found this thread and very slowly i am getting stronger, dont get me wrong it's still hard and i have my moments of doubt but i just shake them off and tell myself i CAN do this, even if i never meet anyone again i have my DC thats all that i need (oh and batteries for my RR lol)Try and remember how you were after relationship with your XH ended, did you feel the same panic? if you didthen think how far you have come and how much you have achieved from then and tell yourself you will do it again and you will succeed at it too and get yourself a facemask and some bubble bath and a razor, run yourself a bubble bath, shave your legs and use said facemask while having a good soak with a bit of music playing and just relax, simply for you, no one else
Also delte him from FB, you don't need to feel that paticular pain, i had to do it with my X as i couldnt stand to see what he was up to
Maybee, i repeat to myself "i loved you once but not anymore sorry" over and over again to myself because thats the text he sent me 2 weeks after we split, i was very down and he stuck the boot in with that, thats the thing that hurt me the most out of everything
How old is your DS? i only ask as your XH may have said that to him then in light of your anger denied it and let you think DS is wishful thinking but i wouldnt be surprised if he did say it to him as he may not have accepted this time it's done for good
And sod what anyone says about having 4 DC just tell them you are very blessed :o
Citydoll, hope your doing ok and remember this is your life now and you can do whatever you want to do without taking anyone else into consideration, have you thought about treating yourself to a break away to shake off the last few months? think about it and maybe go and visit that old friend you kept meaning to visit and never got round to (i know you havent mentioned anything like that but am assuming as i have many old friends that i keep promising to visit and havent got around to yet)
Minmin, i hope everything goes well with your move and it will be great to be reunited with your other DS am so 
of you, wish i could even visit aus let alone live there
WQ, glad you managed to go on your date even if he wasnt for you and i hope LDM works out for you
LC, I hope your drive back is ok and am that you have been away alone but i do hope you had a wonderful time and are relaxed and ready to battle on :o
Starting, hope your ok and your XH is sick IMO be thankful that you are no longer tangled up in his mess of a life
Pink, I too regarded my X as my best friend and soul mate and cant believe that he has changed so much and let our DC down in the way that he has but as someone said to me the other day friends dont treat each other in that way and would never hurt you like that which is why i felt i had to let the friendship that he wanted to carry on go. He's not my friend and if he's not my soulmate either that means he must still be out there somewhere
Queencat, well done on not cutting, have you found something else to do instead when you feel the urge?
Mumfun, did you enjoy the MN Meet up?
GARDENGLORY, the book i'm reading is called.....It's called a break up because it's broken, i got it off ebay for £3 delivered
Ecumenist, How are you doing? you've gone quiet, set yourself one goal a day and eventually you will be able to look more to the future and plan ahead, babysteps for now ((hugs))
Happy, Music :o what more can i say
Rom, where are you?, how are you?
Hope everyone is doing ok and if not it shall pass and (((HUGS)) for all :o