Hand holding here too. As terrifying as it is, this too shall pass. You, baby and DH will have, God Willing, a lifetime to bond.
In April, my waters went, with a big bleed at 26 weeks. Baby was meant to be a rainbow baby, after multiple losses. In the heights of lockdown, in the middle of the night, I was blue lighted to hospital, with DH left at home with DD.
Steroid injections, magnesium sulphate drip and antibiotics later, and the tightenings/contract stopped. I then had 5 hospital admissions over the next 7 weeks, with increasing bad bleeds. Each time, DH was at home with DD, and neither were allowed to visit me in hospital. Each time, I was having contractions.
Finally, at 34w, with another big bleed, and a further, larger one seen in scan, lurking behind the placenta, my consultant said that enough was enough. The risk of catastrophic placental failure was too high. I was induced that evening, and DS arrived the next morning, at 34w 1d. DH managed to arrive in the room with about 3 mins to spare, DS crowned with just one push.
DS was crying well at birth, and was transferred to NICU with DH, whilst I had to get to theatre to remove the wretched placenta.
DS spent 15 days on NICU, came home exclusively breast fed, and is 3 months today, weighing 12lb and grinning like a loony!
It's hard, but keep strong. Every day baby is still inside is a bonus. Good luck!