Mifepristone and major regret !!

[FrankieBB]

This post may be a little sensitive and I do appolagise ! I’m 16 weeks 2 days pregnant And allready have 3 children was not getting on with partner for quite a while and depression spiralling out of control I took the mifepristone on Saturday as I was going to go ahead with a termination after I taken the tablet in the hospital I immediately felt sick with the thought of doing this to a 16 week fetus ! When I left the hospital a hour or so I made myself throw up and called the hospital telling them I cannot proceed with the vaginal tablets in 2 days to expel the fetus . The hospital said come Tuesday for a scan to see if it’s still alive but I can still feel it wriggling and then go ahead from there .. I’m petrified I feel disgusted in myself as anybody gone through this and not gone through with second medications I’m a disgusting horrible person 😭😭😭😭

This thread has just made me cry happy tears and given me so much hope

Im 15 weeks and 5 days, I kind of felt pressured into taking the first tablet as I was more concerned about other people's feelings than my own. The second I swallowed the tablet it hit my like a brick and for the first time my head wasnt clouded by others. I knew I wanted to go ahead but I thought it was too late. I tried to make myself sick but it didnt work. I immediately rang the clinic and they just told me its a matter of waiting it out for the next 72hrs. Im praying I don't miscarry

I'll be praying for you, babynothreee. Be gentle with yourself, and hope for the best. You did what you felt you had to do. It's the hardest decision in the world.

Fingers crossed for you ❤️❤️❤️

Hey hun I’m sorry you’re going through this, upon research I did discover the later your gestation is the likeliness of the first pill having an affect is significantly lower. I know exactly how you feel, follow your heart I pray that you return back with good news ❤️❤️❤️

Thank you for the prayers. Sadly its not good news for everyone. I lost the baby today at 16 weeks. My mucus plug came away saturday night so I came to maternity assesment. They checked my cervix and it was long and thick. However earlier today my waters went and I started getting mild contractions. They examined me again and there was nothing they could do as I was in labour. had to give birth to him he is so beautiful. I will never forgive myself and wish I listened to my heart all along and not my head and other peoples opinions.

Oh dear, oh no, I'm so so sorry. You did everything you could. So many times in life we realize too late the path we should have taken. But it doesn't mean life won't hold many good things for you going forward. There's a website called abortion changes you if you'd like to post your story there and read those of others who are also hurting. I hope you'll be okay- let yourself grieve your loss, and accept help from people. I'll be keeping you in prayer.

Thank you, this means a lot. However I cant help but feel heartbroken, I cant shake the guilt of thr fact I did this to my own baby. I dont know how I am meant to live with that, its really hurting me. My 2 children that I already have are the only things keeping me going, but I can't help but look at them and feel sad, I feel like I don't even deserve them.

We had a gender scan on Sunday ( just out of the 72hr period the abortion clinic said I was most likely to miscarry ) to check everytbing was ok. He was perfectly healthy and had a strong heartbeat. My body jusy wasnt strong enough to fight off the first tablet, but I did also have an infection so I was told that could have contributed

I'm so sorry dear. You are not alone, there are millions of women and men grieving in the same way. It's okay to grieve your loss and forgive yourself. You're still a good person and a good mum. I'll be praying for you. hugs to you

@babynothreee I'm so sorry. I wish there was more support out there. I terminated at 8 weeks. Took first pill and after an hour I thought wtf have I done. I just needed sleep and sleep deprived me took that pill because I was vomiting lots. Took 2nd pills out of fear and regretted it ever since 3-4 months later I got pregnant again and now have a beautiful baby girl. I do think about my terminated beautiful baby too but having baby girl here has distracted me a bit. Your pain or grief doesn't go out of love but it does heal slowly. Forgive yourself.

I've done the same but I'm expierenceng blood and cramping, did u get blood at all?