Abortion

[Anamae1223]

I’m currently 15 weeks, I’m scheduled for an abortion tomorrow.
I have an 18 months old already, I already feel guilty about what’s about to happen but I know it’s the best decision for myself and my child. We would struggle financially, I struggle to cope with 1 child most days, I’m absolutely terrified of birth and recovery all over again, I know my current living child would suffer.
The thing that’s making me feel the worse is that the father wants me to have the child, however he doesn’t have to birth it or stay home with it daily. I’m currently going through a lot of mental stress and I just know a baby will make it worse, there’s just so many reasons not to go ahead with the pregnancy but I feel like such a awful person.

Has anyone ever had an abortion at 15 weeks? Has anyone had an abortion and not regretted it?

@Lunamoon28

I’m currently 5 weeks pregnant, and I’m so sad about it.

My back story is a little complicated; I have stage 4 endo - my chances of getting pregnant where pretty slim; then in 2018 I was blessed with a beautiful baby. - although I hated being pregnant - it was rough; after the birth I got PND and I still struggle with it to this day: but I was happy, content with one; happy and complete.

My partner and I have talked about more children - however it’s not something I have always been a fan of; I am happy with one - I was content and just happy with my boy - and that’s what I see when I look into my future.

However; we decided that if it happens then it happens - my endo returned with a vengeance and for 3 years; I never got pregnant; and I was happy and ok with that.

Until now; and I’m pregnant, and I really don’t want to be. I’ve cried and cried and cried; and I feel so selfish - but this is something I just didn’t think would ever happen; and I know what people are thinking; well, what did you expect?

I’ve spoken to my partner; and he is really supportive and said he understands how I’m feeling and that it’s me going through it and he will support me either way.

I know I’m selfish and should never ever have let it get this far - but it has and I need to deal with it.

My mental health is in the toilet and I’m so sad - I maybe need some perspective and to be honest someone to tell me that any decision I make is ok - I know I can’t put it on anyone else but myself; and validation from strangers shouldn’t be the deciding factor; but has anyone else ever felt this way?

Thank you, and I’m happy to receive the judgement; I know I’m putting myself out there to be shot at.

There are certain times in life when being selfish is the absolute right thing to do, and the situation you are in now is one of those times. You've suffered with poor physical and mental health and you need to put yourself first. It's great that you have a partner to support whichever decision you make, they will remember how you suffered with PND and really won't want you to go through that again. Please be kind to yourself.

Thank you, thank you, thank you ❤️ Sometimes just having other people; and seeing that other people feel this way - just helps ❤️