Abortion guilt

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Hi everyone - just looking for some overall support. I found out I was pregnant on Monday and instantly knew it wasn't what I wanted. It's brought up lots of past trauma and greif that I'm suddenly battling at once - along with this and deciding we are not going to continue with the pregnancy I am completely absorbed by guilt and I havent even ended the pregnancy yet. I have a really supportive long term partner and gorgeous little girl. I have already been prescribed antidepressants because I felt like i couldnt cope already.. I told my partner yesterday him and my daughter would be better off without me as I truly felt that. I feel like i am suffering a loss even though I'm creating a loss. I definately want to have another child in the future but it isn't the right time now. Can anyone relate..

@BaaHumbugg thanks I really hope I can overcome some of these feelings, the guilt I’m feeling is enormous, I feel like I’m the only person who’s terminated a pregnancy and I’m starting to feel like I don’t deserve to be alive after what I’ve done 😢 x

As someone who had an abortion over 44 years ago, you never really get over the guilt, although you know it was the right thing to have done in your particular circumstances. I still feel guilt that I let my parents down as my doctor wouldn’t recommend me to have the procedure on the NHS, my Dad had to pay private care.

I still believe it was right for me what I did looking back, but each year on the anniversary I have a little cry but I think that’s perfectly normal.

@Mummyto3GBG hello, I hope you dont mind me messaging. I just wondered how you are coping now? And whether anything has changed in the time since? I was in a similar situation and I'm really really struggling. Thanks. X

Hey @Spirtualmumma3 so sorry you’re going through this! I hope you are ok. Yes I can say things have got a lot easier since I wrote this, it does get easier. Don’t get me wrong I still have my doubts whether I made the right decision and wish I didn’t have so much anxiety surrounding the pregnancy so I could of continued and had the baby as I did want to but I was just so worried I didn’t feel there was another option...I can say I am more at peace with having had a termination and don’t feel so bad about myself anymore but whether or not it was the right decision I don’t think I’ll ever be able to say for sure it was. Feel free to message me, a lot of ladies helped me on here (the OP to this post included) and some other lovely ladies so do reach out, if I can repay the favour I will try my best xxx

Glad to hear you are feeling better @mummyto3GBG. I have been off the site for a while but if anyone needs to message please do. Xx

Hi @Mummyto3GBG
i am in a similar poisition. My baby is 15 months old and I feel like it’s too soon to have another baby. I also suffered from post natal depression as I had a traumatic birth and other things. So now I’m very worried to go through those feelings again. I am also a carer for my parents as well as working part time in a professional job. I don’t want to leave my job, the job where I studied for years… but I have no option. Either I have the baby or the job

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