My son is 12. I tried to conceive another child 18 months after having him; my husband refused. A year or so later, he agreed to try. No baby. A couple of years after that I had an investigation, turns out I had chlamydia. I did not have sex with anyone else after I met my husband, neither did I want to. i had a messy and difficult birth with my son, ending up with an emergency C-section - could it be that I became infected that way rather than my husband's infidelity? He swears he has been faithful and I believe him. We were both treated, but I didn't conceive again. I had IVF twice after that, no luck. Assuming I couldn't get pregnant, we haven't used contraception for the last nine years or so. I desperately wanted a brother or sister for my son all that time. Now it seems very likely that I am actually pregnant - very regular 26 day cycle, now 35 days, emotional, funny taste in mouth etc. I was thinking it might be the beginning of the menopause but why would it be so sudden? Surely there would be other signs. Anyhow, if I am pregnant it seems so cruelly ironic; the despair of not being able to conceive for so long, now I think I am too old to have the energy for a baby and things are not going well in our marriage. My husband is a good man but we are so different and his attitude to money is partly what is damaging our relationship. But we live in a beautiful place, and have moved around so much. Our son is happy here and I don't want to upset his happiness or stability, that's why I'm holding on. Another problem is my work, I am working as a consultant but this work will finish next year and finding work for me where we live (not in UK) has been really difficult. I have bought a test and will take it tomorrow to confirm, but I'm pretty sure. Just wanted to get some other perspectives on this difficult decision.