Hi,i recently found out im 5 weeks pregnant. Im only 22 dont have a full time job, still live at home and am terrified. My partner of only 3 months is dead set on aborting it, he has made me feel pressured into an abortion because it suits his needs not because its was best for me or the future baby. Instead of being emotionally supported he has made me feel worse, and only is ever invovled if its about the abortion despite him convincing me were in this together i've never felt so alone. He has debt and addiction problems, and was barely responsible in our relationship let alone as a dad. He is more worried about his youth being taken aka cant do drugs cant go out with his friends rather than my emotional state or the future. I feel like i dont know him anymore. Im so worried about how he feels and how he is coping that no one has stopped to ask how i am. We both work together so its hard. My mum and sister are both unhappy with my situation and me, they have both verablised how they think im not ready and its best i abort despite then going on to tell me it is however my decision. It doesnt feel that way at all. I dont want to make my mind up on others, when i am the one that would be affected. Im scared to go through with this abortion to always wonder how my life and baby would of been, although my partner tells me i'll get over it and its nothing compared to the pratical issues we have. I know theres truth behind everyones words, but its hurtful and i feel like especially on my bfs behalf it comes from a selfish standpoint rather than a considerate one. Ive been questioning my relationship and who he is, but cant bare to lose my bf and my baby all at the same time. Ontop of that my parents have newly split, my house is for sale and i would need to support my mum not the other way round. Some days i cant bare to think about abortion other days it seems like the only doomed solution. Everyone around me is so negative on this and i dont know what to do or who to turn to. I've already been to the abortion clinic but the further i get into the process the more something tells me its not right. I dont like kids. If i was ever to have them i wished for it to be with my future husband who i loved when im secure. I know the timing is something we dont all get to choose, but as my mum says i have barely done anything with my life and im scared at the thought of the child will be me basically signing my life away. Thanks for reading this. I just need some where to turn in this hard time. I've given myself till next week to make a decision as to whether i should make a follow up appointment with the termination clinic. I need some sort of guidance i feel so so alone. All i want to do is make sure i dont make the wrong choice and be haunted with the regret. Im so scared of every outcome.