I’m pregnant & have no one to talk to.

[MissBxxx]

Hello!
I’m new here. After doing a bit of googling this website came up so I decided to join.
I’m 24 years old & I’ve just found out im pregnant. I cried at first, I’m okay now.
I know 100% that I want a termination and have already booked with Marie Stopes however I’m having a hard time with whether I should tell anyone or not hence why I’m here.

My family are very much pro life, I made a joke last week about being pregnant to gauge my moms reaction and she asked me what I’d do if I was and I said I’d have an abortion, to which she said “I’d never forgive you for that you keep it” and we carried on as normal.

We spoke about it again and I mentioned what she said and she said she would support me and she said “it’s whether you can live with the decision” I have been feeling strange for weeks and kind of knew deep down why, but it wasn’t until today I got a test and it was clear as day positive.

I’m 8 weeks pregnant according to dates of my last period. I did cry for about 5 mins thinking “why now”, I’ve been careless and had unprotected sex a dozen of times and never been caught out until this time! This has really made me learn my lesson! I’ll be stocking up on condoms!

I literally have nobody to talk to because I don’t want to tell anyone and have them judge me for wanting a termination. I feel fine & I know I’ll be fine after, however I’m kind of scared of what comes with abortions, is there a lot of pain & blood? Could someone tell me please?

I intend to go to the clinic alone and will make an excuse for where I am, I know I’ll be fine after as I had absolutely no feeling of joy or “I want this baby” it’s not the right time. I’m unemployed, live at home with parents and I am not ready for a child.

To be honest I don’t even feel like I’m pregnant & I don’t think I’ll feel any different after the termination. I’m just scared of the pain! Even though I’d consider myself someone with a high pain tolerance. I usually get period pains anyway!

Some advice on what I should do would be great and I’d hope there would be no judgement on my decision that would be great. Thank you xx

Hi! Not sure why I’m saying Hi as I doing am home is reading this or is going to read this but I had an urge to find my account on here today as I was thinking about my abortion a few years ago.
I couldn’t remember my password but I remembered my email so I managed to get back in!

So it’s been a good few years! Do I regret my decision?! Not at all! It was the right one. Do I wish I had sex with someone else so I could keep the baby? Yes. But that’s life. I’m 28 now, will be 29 in the summer and I am single, I would love to have children in the next year or so.

What I did was right for me and I don’t regret it. I don’t know why I’m posting this, I guess for the past me who didn’t see many posts like this from people who had been what I had been through and had posted about their lives after.

So, as I said I’m 28, I lost my dad last February so my life is at a low point in that aspect, however I’m in a great place financially and mental health wise. If I got pregnant today I would keep it.

I wish my younger self could see me now and see how far I’ve grown as a woman and how my confidence has blossomed! I was such an anxious young girl who was a massive overthinker. I’m still an overthinker but I can control it. As strange as it sounds losing my Dad has made me so much stronger, it’s also made me more emotional.

Again I don’t know why I’m typing this I think I’m using it as a personal blog for me to look at later! But for anyone reading this, life has its rollcoasters all the time and you’ll never be off it, you’ll enjoy some and you’ll hate others so much that you went to throw yourself off. But in the end all you can do is live through it, and by living through it you will get stronger and it will get easier.

Abortions are not as bad as people make out and if you feel that is the right decision for you, go ahead and don’t make anyone tell you otherwise. X

Hi @MissBxxx
You should indeed be very proud of yourself. I also had an abortion in my 20s when life was unstable and definitely that allow me to grow into the woman who could be a great mum in her 30s
I amsure you will do great when time comes 🍀