Totally's GRADS...lets handhold thru this....

[boodleboot]

Ok girls....time to get started....

lee stressy amyboo totally

and of course any other ladies who have recently had a Big Scary Fat Positive and will now literally be counting the days to healthy babe in arms, welcome y'all

i have no idea how i am going to make it but i know that i will need handholding....and knowing lots of you already i know you will too ha ha

{Totally's conception thread got me thus far with lots of handholding and i love them for that....}

BRING ON THE BABIES.....

Hi everyone,

Totally We didn't ever really meet but I knew from the thread that you were due to be induced last week. Congratulations, you must be delighted, it really gives me hope that I might end up with a baby at the end of all this. Faith is such a lovely name too!

Sarahlou I'm doing fine. I feel sick when I haven't eaten for a while so first thing and often mid afternoon. Eating does seem to be working for me, but it is getting harder to force food down now as the nausea is getting worse. I did have my hair higlighed today, the hairdresser was really good and used different products. I felt confident that she knew what she was doing. I spent half the day in London though and later on I started to get a bit of a tummy ache. Not low down, but quite high up on the left. It has passed but I am still aware of where it was. I am hoping it was wind but I feel a little bit worried. When I got home I just had to lie down and sleep, just couldn't stay awake any longer. Ooof. Next week back at school will be interesting.

TFLS I really hope that the spotting has stopped. It is so worrying - I am thinking of you. Try to take it easy and put your feet up - did you say that you called your EPU? Fx that it doesn't continue. Don't some people get spotting at the time that they would be missing further periods? Are you at that sort of time?

I am wondering if I should pay for a private scan in the next couple of weeks to reassure me that there is a baby with a heartbeat in there. I don't know what DH thinks, he's working away at the moment and I didn't want to talk about it on the phone. I don't think it's that real for him at the moment; he was working away when I got the BFP and has been at home for 4 days since then - in nearly two weeks. I've only had one mc and my GP didn't think that I would get an early scan. Anyone have any advice?

Hope all else well, SB x

Totally...huge congrats..and wow what a big girl..thank goodness you didnt go to term!!
Glad to hear that her HB stabilised when she was born..its often the case...Enjoy these precious early days snuggling your newborn

TFLS..try not to panic as I bled very heavily on many occasions with this baby..but so far..fingers crossed..everything has been fine.I became a regular at EPU..so much so that whilst in hospital the other week..the lady who scanned me was from the EPU and was chuffed to be scanning me at this stage of my pregnancy

Big congrats TOTALLY

Soo with you TFLS fingers crossed its just a blip and all is well,Thinking of you, much love xx

SAMB could your ring your EPU and tell them you ve experienced some symptons ?, thats what i ll be doing to get an early scan.Last time i did that and they scanned me the next day [mind you i did have symptons and had miscarried] but......

I feel the same as you sick,sick,sick if i go longer than a couple of hours without eating having to be careful about what i m eating though...as don t want to MC and have put weight on.

TFLS what about A&E ?? see if they can perform a scan?

Hi to everyone else soo nice to be off work soo tired....

back home ... finally

Big Congrats to totally great names!

tfls any news, have been thinking of you since read your post at Gretna! Hope it has subsided. Much love going straight to you hon. xxxxx

totally that is absolutely awesome news. Welcom little Faith....i cannot believe we have had our first baby.....amazing stuff to hear.

TFLS - try not to panic too much i was told about spotting unless accompanied by pain and clots....so difficult i am sure but try and keep calm hun....praying like mad for you....

short post from me as off to teach sunday school...lots of love to all

xxxx

afternoon ladies, have done some of the laundry but there is a ways to go. at least there is now food in the house.

did a CB Digi today and finally got to see one with the word 'Pregnant' on it. 3+ weeks so 5+ in doctor speak which is where I thought - either 5+2 or 5+4 depending on whether from first day of mc bleed or ovulation date. Had mc last summer on 5+3 so am telling myself it is the latter as then would be past it!! the things we do

have a head full of muscus and ears hurt, chest is sore too and lots of coughing fits which can't be good, would murder for a double shot vente skinny latte but am consoling myself with roiboss - not the same at all

tfls have been thinking of you all day. hope you are doing ok and that everything is fine. xx

hope everyone else is having a good weekend

totally massive congratulations to your new arrival! A big welcome to little (well...) Faith. I wish you all the best of times in getting to know each other!

TFLS So sorry to hear about your spotting. I have everything crossed for you that being worried sick is the worst that's happening to you. I wish I could make your bean extra sticky.

Sorry for being quiet lately... have been busy and trying to get stuff done, which usually doesn't harmonise well with MNing. Things are fine on Meita-side, I just wish everybody could have such eventless pregnancies... (Fx that this will continue, of course). I think I'm starting to show, more than I ought to at this time, but probably it's just my imagination and all that food I'm eating lately.

Will probably not be posting much in the coming week, as have a final final final deadline coming up... I just hope I can get it all done in time!
But will defo. be checking in for news.

Huge congrats totally. So glad everything went well for you, and what a beautiful name your little girl has. Was it OK having a c-section? I'm currently looking at one of those, as baby is still breech (am 34+2 today).

tfls hope everything is OK and you've managed to see someone.

TFLS u ok???? X

Hi to others...More snow whats that about????? X

louisesh Where I am, if you are referred for an early scan you don't get offered the routine 12 week one as well (unless of course there are further problems). This was disastrous for me as my 9 week scan showed a healthy baby. My missed scan at 12 weeks would have shown baby had gone, without me waiting until week 15 completely unaware of what had happened.

This has made me very very nervous of having to have an early scan again. It depends on the system where you live I suppose. I would love to have a private one around week 9 to put my mind at rest but I won't compromise the 12 week one this time.

How are you today TFLS?

Hi all, first time posting on here, have been lurking for a few days tho. Can I say congratulations to totally
Hope everything has settled down now TFLS
SamanthaB im also thinking of going for a private scan in a couple of weeks, the EPU wont scan ladies where I am unless you are having problems, even if you have had several mc, and I cant face the long wait until the routine 12wk one. I need to know whats going on in there sooner rather than later.
Sarahlou8 so sorry to hear what happened to you, that would have been devastating, and I think thats the the same routine here, if you have an early scan, you dont get the 12 wk one, which is ridiculous, for reasons such as yours, alone.

You guys are absolutely fantastic. Thanks for all the lovely messages of support. Sorry for not posting earlier - I woke up feeling really guilty.

Basically the spotting stopped Saturday. But Sunday all my symptoms disappeared and I had about 5 minutes of really painful cramps so DH and I were gearing up for the worst. But when I got up to make dinner - wham the ms was back . And felt quite sick this morning - never thought I'd be so pleased to feel sick.

Sorry for loosing the plot so completely but I was so convinced over the weekend that I had lost the baby - now feeling like a complete fraud .

Contacted my midwife this morning as the doctor had suggested I get an early scan at 10 weeks. But was told no - you can only have an early scan if you have a previous etopic history or more than 3 m/cs.

Hard to type this message with all my fingers crossed! But will try to stop being such a pathetic doom and gloom merchant and take some inspiration from totally's choice of name for her little girl!

Effilump - lovely to have you on board. Hope i haven't scared you off

TFLS SOOOO glad. I had been becoming more and more convinced that in this case, no news must be bad news. So good to hear that it was just a scare Don't feel like a fraud - instead, enjoy the relief that your intuition was wrong!

It IS worrying business, though, isn't it? This pregnancy malarky. I still tend to notice every tweak and get a panic moment and the urgent need to knicker-check whenever I feel some discharge.

I decided against a private early scan, and also against a Doppler to hear the heartbeat. I just think I would end up more worried rather than less. Yes, it would be a temporary reprieve, but knowing me, it wouldn't last long. Instead I might just worry all the more at all other times. Mostly, if something were to go wrong, there is nothing I could do about it anyway. I figured I'd rather learn to have some faith ( at Totally) - and if things go wrong, I'll deal with them then, rather than mentally preparing myself for things going wrong all the time.
Have to admit that I'm only half succeeding though .

I hope everyone is ok. Haven't heard from Lee for ages... hope everything is alright.

Welcome Effilump, glad you found your way here It's a seriously paranoid corner at times, but don't worry, we're all here to help each other through the wobbly times.

Meita - your message is interesting. DH and I had a conversation about how I was feeling about being pregnant. I felt like I would look silly if I told people that I was pregnant and I miscarried, so rather than celebrating getting this far I had been preparing myself for it all to go wrong and spotting all the negative symtpoms. I know that this sounds daft, but it was like I needed permission to be excited and joyful. I feel like a weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I am pregnant and my tiny lentil of a baby has a heart that is soon to beat and is probably nearly perfect already. Should something go wrong later, well, later is the time to deal with it...I had been dealing with it now and it wasn't actually even happening. Since that conversation I feel really happy that I'm having a baby, I needed a little faith too...SB

TFLS OH THANK GOD!!!! So pleased (and relieved for you) xxxxx

meita I have the same thing every time there is any discharge t all I am hot footing it to the loo to check, its rubbish isn't it!

Have checked diary and Wednesday is looking like a good day to go to the doctors so will be trying for an appointment then

Otherwise feeling ok and trying not to fret

SamB I hear that, but for me at the moment I can't be too happy just yet as mentally its too hard to let go of the recent experience. I am just hoping each day passes with everything intact. I am sure I will relax a little more once I have had a scan and I am past the 6 week milestone - 80% of mc's happen before 6 weeks so chances are much better after that.

fab news totally, our first grads baby, welcome to the world little Faith Juliet

amyboo mini hoops has turned back to being transverse, found out today so might be joining you on the c-section front!!

sounds like everyone is doing fab

Oh TFLS soo relieved for you....[grin[ i can t loose my "same day worry wart/wort" !!!!

Is that right *CHEEPZ" 80 % of mcs happen in the first 6 weeks? My first was a mmc happened about 8 weeks, my 2nd at 7weeks, 4 days.

I m having a crap time convinicing myself i ve had another mmc, much less nausea since last week feel the abscence of signs and syptoms indicate the worst...its driving me mad all this.I m going to ring the EPU tomorrow to see if i can get a scan but on the other hand don t want to go for a scan......Its horrible why can t we enjoy what should be a nice time?????

This feeling is nearly the same as not being pg....Keep thinking its good i ve no bleeding or pain etc....But on the other hand i had no signs with my mmc....ARH.....

Streesed today....

See can t even spell stressed!!!!

Sorry tfls I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts there I didn't say how delighted I was that things look better for you. The percentage of healthy pregnancies that experience bleeding is surprisingly high. Never was ms so welcome .

cheepz I hope I didn't offend...I didn't mean to be insensitive. You must be nearly six weeks now too.

louise I hope you feel a little better tomorrow, I'm really sorry that you are so worried and stressed.

samb god no!! was actually wishing I could be in a more positive frame of mind about it all, I think your approach is far more healthy! I am struggling to allow myself the freedom to feel happy is all - I think its a self protection mechanism..

lou thats what the doctor said '1 in 5 pregnancies (20%) end in mc and the vast majority of those (c.80%) occure before 6 weeks, then its something like 15% before 12 and 5% after that. But those may not be exact figures - more order of magnitude, either way, after 6 weeks should be a 'safer' place. Sorry you are having a shit day, hang in there, I won't make any platitudes like -'I am sure everything will be fine' because all of us know thats not always the case but be strong and positive and thats all you can do (hark at me after what I just wrote to Sam - pot - kettle - black

Morning all....

i am full of doom and gloom this morning, really hating going into work as not been in since last tuesday as had a bit of leave for the half term. As i work in local government and we are coming up to election time there is a lot of job justifying going on and silly amounts of unecessary reporting which just adds time to our days....too hormonal to deal with it all really....grr.

i am starting to dread the scan next week instead of being happy about it. I still have all my symptoms and have had no pain or blood but keep thinking that i had no idea anything was wrong when i went for my scan last april that turned out to be MMC...

That coupled with the fact that nothing fits me clotheswise, i refuse to go into maternity trousers til scan is ok and basically i just feel FAT means this is going to be a LLLOOOOONNNNNGGGGGG day....

awww bless you boo its a tough time, in soem ways i am feeling laid back because I haven't gone to the doctor yet!! I am sure it will all start to get abit more real then! that will be tomorrow then.

I am not in local government but we are having alot of restructure going on because of changes at the director level so I am in a constant state of anxiety about job security - especially because we are planning to move house to a bigger more expensive one - which means we need my income more than ever. It also means I need to try and stay thin as long as possible so noone susses it out at work!

hope the day is not too long xx

tfls - glad that everything is OK. Your bean is obviously getting nice and comfy.

Sorry to hear that minihoops is back to being transverse hoops. Miniamyboo is definitely still head up - I've got another scan in a week to re-check his position. It's actually quite cool in a way though, as I can see loads of movement becuase of where his hands/one foot are moving about up high on my tummy. I was just in a meeting at work and two of my colleagues ended up watching him wiggle around, as my tummy was moving so much!

Still, it would be nice to avoid a caesarean if possible...

Glad to hear things are ok tfls and dont worry you havnt scared me off!
And as for this being a paranoid corner meita, looks like im in the right place then.

Arh BOO roght with you there!!! See earlier post!!!! Still don t feel any less stressed rung EPU [who were lovely] got appt tomorrow for scan at 14.55 [keep telling work i ll be in theatre on thurs ] thats crap but how i feel......

Like you BOO i ve had a MMC and its that thought thats driving me insane if i didn t know before how would i know now?????

Love to you is all i can say...I m also on my long day at work, but i enjoy my work and work with a fab bunch of people who i can have a laugh with soo don t mind apart from the 9-8.30 shift today!!!!