I am 13 weeks pregnant with my second child, I already have a boy, but I am worried about being pregnant again with another boy. Dont get me wrong I love my little boy very much, but I have always wanted girls. when I found out I was having a boy first time a round I was so dissapointed even though I already had a feeling I was having a boy, But when i was born i was happy. All my friends are having girls and showing off abit and I feel like I am the only one who's body doesnt want me to conceive a girl and I am so jealous. At the beginning of this pregnancy I was sure I was having a girl because I started my sickness at 5 weeks and was really bad with it, my belly seems to have got bigger so very soon I look 6 months pregnant, and I have put loads of weight on already round my hips and bum, ive gotten more emotional and angry and have spots everywere, were with my boy I had none off that(apart from the sickness started at 12weeks and I wasnt really poorly as much). But now people keep putting in my head its a boy,and friends assume just because there having girls, so and now I feel like i am having a boy. I am so upset with myself for feeling like this but I cant help it, my family would be ideal with a boy and a girl. My husband wanted a girl too but he says he is happy with whatever happens,weres am getting myself worked up over it.
What do you guys think? Am I being stupid and selfish? How will I cope when I find out I am having a boy again?