Pregnancy after Miscarriage Part IX - Knicker Checkers etc

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New one! Thought I would make my mark!

Flappy I honestly write this through clouded eyes... I really hope that you get all the care and love that you need from all of those around you. It really has been lovely to have you here and I am very sorry to see you go. I send my love and hugs to you and your family and should you feel it is right, I hope to see you here again.

Look after yourself Flappy and enjoy the lovely little family that you have. xx

Flappy I am so sorry that this hasn't worked out for you and am in awe of your strength and resolution with the hand that life has dealt you. You are quite inspiring.
Hope that the erpc gets done soon so that you can at least know that the physical side has been dealt with.
Enjoy each day with your dd - she is very lucky to have a strong mum like you.

Hopefully we'll see you back here again sometime.

Off to get a tissue now to wipe my tears.

Flappy I am SO sorry to hear your news. I'd second every word of Scarlotti's post, you are dealing with it amazingly well. I hope you get all the support you need and that next time things work out better for you.

Sorry to bring the thread down but it looks like I may be losing too. I had some brownish goo when I wiped yesterday and more of the same this morning which is exactly how my last mc started off, although I'm further along this time (8+4 today). Our EPU helpfully closes at one o'clock so have got an appointment tomorrow morning. No pains so far but I fear its only a matter of time. Am gutted . It's particularly galling as I'd had what I thought was morning sickness yesterday, felt really queasy all morning and was like "yay" proper pregnancy symptoms at last - only to then get a nasty shock when I wiped and the fear of going through another mc.

Hope everyone else is doing rather better...

sorry to read this blondieminx. Maybe a bit of cautious protective pessimism is ok but don't give up just yet. I had what you described throughout my pg with ds (he has no chromo issues)

am hoping for you

sorry to have made a few tears. Was meant to be uplifting. But if I do bob up on this thread any time soon with pg news I want to be beaten off it with big sticks! Going to get another coil and hope it stays in

best wishes

thanks btut I really don't have a good feeling about this now

and I could never beat another MNer with a big stick Good luck to you.

blondieminx sorry to hear what you're going through - I had that at 6 weeks and had a scan at 6+3 that showed bean and a heartbeat. Am now 18 weeks so it's not always the end.

Keeping everything crossed for you.

flappy good luck with the next coil and am so glad you're staying upbeat and strong.

thanks Scarlotti actually it the spotting does seem to be easing off now... please god let it all be alright this time.

Hi Blondie

I was actually just reading through my first posts on Knickercheckers earlier, and my 2nd post was around 8 weeks 1 day, I joined in because i was spotting... and on that particular day i had a flash of red blood... I assumed the worst was happening, managed to get in for a scan and we saw our little one bouncing around.. 1.1 cms.. I am still here 20 weeks and 1 day later.. hang on in there.

Flappy I wish you all the best in the future. And I am also glad you're staying upbeat and strong.

xx

Flappy I am so so sorry and sad to hear your news. I agree with all who have mentioned your strength and inspiring words. be kind to yourself over the next few weeks and let all the feelings come, however contradictory they may be.

Blondieminx I'm another Knicker Checker who bled during the early days - brown spotting from Weeks 5 to 7, then a big bleed. LittleSyd is still hanging on in here at 25 weeks now - don't give up hope yet, although I can understand you feel the need to self-preserve. Be thnking of you tomorrow morning - what time will your scan be?

(((((((((big hugs))))))))))) to you both and >> to everyone else

Rainbow sorry to hear you're going through this agony of uncertainty too. When is your next scan?

have just popped back in, not even been lurking recently over half-term as household in chaos with 3 ds.

congrats to the new arrivals since - cece, sparky, ses and crunch, hope things are going well

flappy, sorry to hear what you've been going through, blondie, I had brownish loss with 2 of my successful pg, one involved a 48hr wait for a scan. I got into bed and waited for the worst to happen, only it didn't, bleeding stopped, scan showed healthy 9 week bean - so don't give up yet

finally got all three ds in bed and dh is out so have celebrated by eating the kid's chocolates and have finally uploaded some photos of Seth

Flappy - sorry to hear that you are losing another one. It is always bit sad even if understandable. I am glad that you can find a positive from it, with having to make no choices as it is already made. I hope you get a bit of rest and recuperation time with your family over the next few days.

Blondie - hope it is a false alarm with your bleeding being only old blood. It is tough to be on knicker-watch all the time.

syndey- my next scan is next tueday, feels a long time away still at the moment.

tsom - Seth is a handsome chap!

I think my bleeding is ending today, definitely much less anyway. But my test today was fainter than previously so I am now fairly certain that I have m/c'd. At least it happened naturally and once Tuesday's scan is over I can move on mentally. I will come back and confirm the scan result with you on Tuesday. But I guess it is goodbye for now.

Oh Rainbow I'm so sorry to hear your news . Please do take great care of yourself and indulge over the weekend - stay in bed, watch Jane Austen marathons (as a wise Knicker Checker pointed out a couple of months ago, almost NO-ONE ever gets pregnant in Jane Austen...), eat chocolate and let people look after you. Let us know how Tuesday's scan goes.

tsom Seth is gorgeous - lovely pics. And 3 boys must be great - they can all be each others' best mates and get up to no end of mischief together

Scarlotti well done on your efforts to have that results letter changed - sounds v.comfusing to me and if all duffed women are as easily confused / alarmed / stunned as I am then a letter like that would be like lighting a touch paper!

Ashleigh congrats on getting to the 3rd trimester!!!!! Yay ! Agree with others that 2cm in the fundal height thing must be normal variation. Sigh, yet more things for us to fret about eh? Well, as Lola says, you may even get another sneaky peek scan out of it

Hope everyone's doing ok today - I'm shirking from home so obviously that means mumsnet . LittleSyd still wriggling away although seemingly a bit less the last couple of days - surely nothing to panic about though? I'm almost 26 weeks, but have also been really busy at work so maybe just not noticing. MrSyd is still off in Greenland and confused me no end with a text that said ' hunters shot huge real dogs will eat well tonight '. Was just reeling from the horror of thinking they were all about to tuck into the huskies but realised he must have meant a Seal for the dogs to eat. Still very grim but somehow better than the image I had .

rainbow fingers crossed for you that the outcome is positive and as sydney says, take good care this weekend and be kind to yourself.

tsom gorgeous pics

sydney lol at the seal and dinner! I'd stick with your interpretation and not ask anymore just in case! Hope you're not missing dh too much and he's home soon. Enjoy your quiet home working day

All good here. Got some super strength cream from the doc as have had thrush on and off for ages, and it seems to have worked. Thankfully! Have been noticing more movement too these last few days so presume baby must be growing a bit more or has mastered swimming to the top of my tummy!
Hoping soon that it will be felt from outside so ds can feel, he keeps saying hello to my tummy now as I've told him the baby can now hear - bless.

Hi all rainbowdays thanks for your note and really sorry about what's happened. "See" you on Tuesday and I hope you get lots of looking after this weekend and all the support you need while you recover. It's pants isn't it

Thanks ladies tsom ash and scarlotti too for being so supportive, it's really good to know that some others have had the same and still have their lo's, it's made me feel much more optimistic. As did the fact that I felt really sick this morning

Sydneysuze ...and the mental image of dogs scoffing seal really didn't help the queasiness how grim! How are the narwhals coming along, dh must be due home next week or is it the week after? That's a good point about JA's books actually. And an afternoon with Mr Darcy would be good for all us ladies eh

Scarlotti oh that's so sweet about your ds talking to your tummy, aaaah!

Have great and uneventful weekends all, I've got first midwift appt on Sunday and then my appointment with the EPU on Monday now (when they rang back with an appointment, it was to apologise that they had no appts for today but things seem to be settling down, and with any luck they might scan me again on Monday so I can see things are progressing ok).

Morning All

I just wanted to share with you all something small but amazing that happened last night. I was lying in bed reading (Rose Tremain, The Road Home, shaping up to be a great book) with the dog snoring gently beside me, DH still off on the frozen North as we all know. Having said yesterday I hadn't been feeling as much movement I was pleased that quite a bit of midnight wriggling was going on when thump ! A proper wallop! So I laid my arm across my bump, carried on reading and within a couple of minutes, there it was again!!! I finally felt LittleSyd move from the outside

A real shame DH was not here to feel it too as the dog was just not impressed enough for my liking when I woke her up crying and demanding hugs. This really is starting to feel like a possible baby to me now. I guess I'd better start buying some things now eh? So far we have a lot of lovely toys etc that friends have given us, but I have not been able to tempt fate enough to buy essentials like babygros or nappies. Plus the spare room is still completely un-ready. Guess I might have to be brave now ...

Hope you all have a lovely weekend, my fingers are still crossed for all of you who are spotting or bleeding, especially as it took me 2 early miscarriages and one late loss to get to this stage - please keep us posted.

Hi

Well I took a test this morning and it said 'pregnant'. I really don't know how I feel. I want to be happy but given what happened last time I feel so scared and anxious about it happening again.

I guess I need to book to see the midwife and take things from there.

sydney what fabulous news!! hooray for littlesyd! How many weeks are you now? I've started to feel more movement at times but it's still from inside.

blondieminx good luck for your appointments and hope you get another scan on Monday - am sure you will.

rubyf welcome and hope your stay with us is a long one - congratulations on your bfp!

Hi all

Back from walking in the lake district - didn't do Bowfell with DH as thought it might be a bit much at 2960 feet (keep telling him it doesn't qualify as a mountain though).

Felt on Thursday like my period was coming - crampts backache etc. Got a bit upset thinking it was going to be another mc.
However saw midwife yesterday - first appointment - now at 8 weeks - and said that was perfectly normal. DH and I couldn't talk about breastfeedling or anything like that with her - we said need to get past 12 weeks first after mmc last time. I'm still totally convinced this is going to be another mmc or mc though.

Midwife said that was understandable and try not to worry too much - she seemed very nice. Got given far too much junk though and adverts

DH is now terrified as Midwife said there is a very high risk of twins - considering my and his family history - and Midwife told him th cost of a double push chair can be nearly £1000!

Hello girls

Good to hear of kickings, squirmings and general signs of internal life. But sorry about rainbowdays and flappy - it really is the shittest thing ever.

Unbelievably, I am now 37 weeks. Started maternity leave, and have packed my labour bag. Though with lots of things still missing, natch. It still feels like doing anything properly is tempting fate... Cromwell squirming and bashing away inside, and creating a HUGE belly on the outside.

Still utterly unprepared, mentally or organisationally, to have a baby though. Struggled for so long to get pregnant (five MCs + failed adoption, for those who don't know) and now I'm thinking 'Oh Fark, I'm going to have an actual BABY who is going to be my responsibility for EVER. And I don't know what I'm doing.'

So, yes. That's me!

Hi everyone

I'm currently 11 weeks pregnant with hopefully my first baby.

I had a mmc in Feb, I didn't have any pain it just showed up at my 12 week scan that the baby had stopped growing at approx 8 weeks.
This time I had an early scan at 6 weeks as I had a sharp pain in my lower tummy but the scan showed the baby has a heart beat so I was reassured for a while For the last few days I have had pain, it's not like a cramp more like a sharp pain behind my pelvic bone. I am booked in for my 12 week scan on Tuesday 16th. Has anyone else had pain like this? Not sure if it's normal or if I should ring the midwife, any help would be really really appreciated.

Thanks and wishing you all wonderfully sucessful pregnancies

Julia85 xx

Oh Herb! You're almost there!!!! It's been such a mammoth journey for you my heart goes out to you.

And you'll be a brilliant mum, all the better for everything you've gone through to get Cromwell I'd be willing to bet. How lovely to be on Mat Leave too - are you nesting?

Welcome Julia no experience of that exact pain I'm afraid - I'd phone the midwife if I were you, just to put your mind at rest. The early weeks can be angst-ridden for anyone who's miscarried before. Also welcome Ruby, fingers crossed for you too.

Hi Liskey, gladyour break was good - just take it easy with all that climbing!

Scarlotti I'll be 26 weeks on Tues. Glad to hear your lady-garden is calming down and that the thrush has flown

Blondie good luck with EPU tomorrow and so sorry to add to your nausea! No more hideous Eskimo food foibles to report but the narwhals still have not been seen. This worries me as DH is due back a week on Tues and we are meant to go to Cornwall for a min-break plus wedding the following weekend. I will not take kindly to this being called off at the last minute ...

to everyone else - hang on in there spotters.....

Julia I had some odd sharp pains at the 10-12 week mark (and then some spotting but that stopped after about 3 weeks) which felt a bit like ligament pain, only that's usually at the side. No idea what it was, and it passed - hope the same happens for you.

Sydney lovely to hear about LittleSyd and reminded me I am supposed to be reading The Road Home this month. Perhaps it will get my little one moving a bit too

Good afternoon ladies.

Welcome Julia & Ruby, I hope you both have long stays with us. Julia, i would phone the midwife if i was you, at least that way your mind can be put at ease.

HERB you're so close now, I cant believe it... it seems to have gone so quickly since i joined..

Sydney I am getting the pom poms out and cheering for the narwhals to appear!!!!!!! and I love love love that you've had movement on the outside... I can see shapes now - not like distinctive enough to tell what part of his little body it is but i can see bumps sticking out. I L-O-V-E it! Littlesyd hellooooooo can you heeeeear meeeeee... keep on moving and a shaking for when your daddy gets back - mum's tummy is a partyyyy zone from now on

Scarlotti how are you??? How lovely that your DS is making friends with your little one from outside & also v.pleased you've had the thrush treated...

Lola How's the insurance claim coming along? Effing theiving little so and so's, I hope you're at least lurking out there and all is okay with you and your little pink lady!

Blondie how did it go at the EPU?

Sorry to those that i have missed!

Thinking of all of those that are experiencing wobbly first trimesters and beyond. We only have to look at our graduates list to know that there's a big fat blinding light at the end of that tunnel...

I am feeling a bit overwhelmed, this time next week I'll be in the single figure weeks - I will only have 9 weeks and 6 days to go!!!!! I know I am probably getting a little bit ahead of myself but i cannot believe that i am 29 weeks pregnant!! Yesterday had a big fat teary moment about going back to work next year, leaving the little baby we're creating with a nursery/childminder... I cant believe i am thinking about that when i still have the rest of the pregnancy to worry/think about! I already feel like i have been on such a massive journey already, I cant seem to get my head around the thought that its not going to end at 40 weeks but really just begin.

So a bit of an emotional Ashleighbeee today..

xx

Hello everyone

Flappy I'm so sorry to hear your news. Thinking of you.

Ashleigh I can't believe you're almost there! Hurray! How time does fly (in a really, painfully slow, blink of an eye).

Herb you're about to have a baby! (Says Mrs States-the-obvious) Can't wait to see your announcement.

Hope you have a long and uneventful stay with us.

Blondie I've got my fingers crossed for you (and my toes too)

I've only had a chance to skim through, so I hope I haven't missed anyone's news.

Polly is still doing really well - I can't believe she's a month old today! She's very smiley now and even slept for 5 hours straight last night (long may that continue - and increase!). Things with H are still up and down, but better on the whole and he's about to start CBT this week, so hopefully it'll help him sort himself out. Pol is definitely good for him.

I'm finally feeling a bit more human.

I miss you all, oddly enough. Much as I do like how busy I am, I really miss coming on here and chatting to you all, keeping up with where everyone is (both emotionally and physically) and offering and receiving support.

Ok, sentimental moment over!

Sending out strong pregnancy vibes to everyone.

x