I phoned the MW this morning (a big step for me), explained that I was worried about not feeling any movements, said how I haven't grown for the last 4/5 weeks, and told her how it is all so so so different from my other pregnancies, and she said "we don't really monitor baby movements or growth until around 26 weeks, because, well there is nothing we can do before then, except deliver the baby if there was something wrong"
But, I can go for a AN appointment next week to listen to the HB. I have a doppler (for all my sins....) I know the HB is OK (though has been faster than usual the last few times I've done it) I also know that whilst hearing the HB is a good sign, it doesn't mean all is well.
I am just going round in circles, I go for a few days where I think everything is fine, and try not to even think about it all, and then I have a day like today where it is just staring me in the face all the time. And like I said, I don't even know what anyone could do to make it better, just need to rant I suppose!