I feel sitting here writing this is so unnecessary but I am so angry. I am currently 38wks with DC2 and still working fulltime (last week, yay).
Yesterday I was done - had been awake since 3am the night before because of general discomfort, had done washing before work, had a stressful day at work trying to close things off, cooked dinner, picked up DC1 from nursery + took him to the park (was sunny and park is right across nursery) and admittedly, I was in a sour mood. I was even tearful. Was just feeling overwhelmed.
Anyway, then came bedtime and DC1 (2YO) does this thing every night where he reads with his dad in his bed and then comes running to our bed wanting me to get out of my own bed and go to his until he falls asleep, which can take about 30mins and this was at 9pm yesterday. I was reluctant to get out my bed and asked DC1 to go back to his room with his DH. Naturally he had a meltdown (I am totally OK with meltdowns, understand their normal etc) but DH gets flustered so he grabbed him and said to him ‘Right, let’s go, mummy doesn’t want you’. At that point I was fuming - I don’t want my son, or I am at almost fullterm and completely knackered by everything I am still keeping afloat? Was I being unreasonable in wanting to sleep at 9pm yesterday and not do bedtime for once?
anyway, I didn’t say anything back and just slept. Had a good night’s sleep finally and had a word with DH this morning. He told me he is fed up of my complaining and always being grumpy but when I asked him what he expected from me last night, he wasn’t able to reply. I also said it’s surely time better spent for him to do bedtime and have his wife rest than have his wife do bedtime while he relaxes doing stuff he likes???
Feeling miserable and just want to run away from everything 😂 not sure how to move forward from here without massively resenting DH atm 😅