Im so overwhelmed right now. Im only 17, i live alone and the father to my baby has bail conditions to stay away because he was extremely abusive, especially when i fell pregnant, my mum moved country a couple days before christmas when we had plans to spend it together, she moved with some guy she met over the internet that she cheated on my dad with ( i caught her in the act, traumatic much ) and she blames me for absolutely everything and now she never talks to me and when she does it just ends in me getting abuse off her, i just wanted my mum to help me but she always makes empty promises and lets me down, i dont have any friends i have anxiety and depression and ptsd, i have gained more hope with this wee baby boy im carrying and he already fills me with so much joy but sometimes i just sit down and cry my eyes out because im truly alone in all of this, i dont know how to do any of this, im trying to learn but its so hard lately, i can hardly sleep at night because i worry about if im going to be a good mum, i stay positive alot and i try keep myself active but like i said some days i just feel so stuck, sorry for the rant i just needed to vent somewhere where my mother isnt going to completely belittle me like always.
I hope your all doing well 