Brilliant news about your scan @jasmine88woo. I am also having a lot more dreams/nightmares at the moment!
@Chh0412 Sorry to hear about your bleed. Although your boss sounds incredibly supportive. Keeping everything crossed that all will be well tomorrow.
@Gabs234 I am with you on disappearing symptoms. I am 5 weeks today but last week I was knackered, had some cramping, sore boobs and a metallic taste in my mouth. The only thing I have this week is sore boobs. Hoping all is ok but it is very unnerving! Your response is very reassuring @camvt.
@Elsols93 Sorry to hear your sad news, the last thing you need whilst isolating. I totally get your anxiety, my husband sent me this because I have also been incredibly anxious about everything I feel (or don't feel).
Thoughts are not real,
it’s as simple as that.
Just thinking a thing,
doesn’t make it a fact.
I wish I was told this,
when I was your age,
but better to learn now,
then to stay in the cage.
Picture your mind
as a busy train station.
You’re alone on the platform,
you feel the vibration.
The train rattles through,
one carriage at a time,
each carriage a thought,
each thought in a line.
Temptation is there
to jump on a carriage,
those thoughts look appealing,
but they can do damage.
Alone on a carriage,
just you and your thought,
it’s hard to stop thinking,
it’s hard to feel naught.
Stuck with your thought,
it gathers up speed,
feelings takeover,
emotions stampede.
But here’s an idea
that turns this about.
“I don’t have to board”,
you say with a shout.
Stay on the platform,
observing the train,
the thoughts will pass by
and fade from your brain.
You may feel them a bit,
way less than before,
if you jumped on the train
and sat on the floor.
Now you’re more present,
not stuck in your head.
You’re enjoying your life,
thoughts not being misread.
Mindfulness is the name
of thought observation.
The more that you use this,
the less brain frustration.
So wherever you are,
and whatever you do,
with thoughts growing restless,
a mind starting to stew.
Just take a deep breath
and visit your station.
Watch the thoughts from the side,
ignore their temptation.
Don’t get on the train.
Stand still like you’re stone.
The thoughts will pass by
and leave you alone.
They won’t stop completely,
they will never reduce,
but learn to use mindfulness
and you won’t let them loose.
I had a strange thing happen today. I am a serial tester (I know!) and decided to do one last FRER today at 5 weeks exactly. In the last couple of tests the line has been darker than the control line. I did one this morning and the lines were the same. I completely panicked thinking this was the start of the end. But then I had heard about this hook effect and thought I might just try to dilute my wee and test again and see what happened. Luckily when I did this the line got darker. So it seems early for this to happen and I don't really get the science behind. Hoping this is all good news for going forward 🤞