[quote Anonymom31]@Mrs1989 it is helpful to know others feel the same way i do. It doesn't make me feel so alone. Im so sorry to hear about your miscarriage and with your first pregnancy as well it must have been so hard for you and your husband.
We told a lot if people too. My nan, mom, best friends. We were overjoyed. We didn't think about the worst. This time we havnt told a soul. Not even my boss. Luckily all my appointment have fallen on my days off work.
I obsess over the lack of symptoms daily and I dream about bleeding and wake up shaken and rush to the toilet. I even did a pregnancy test this morning to see if it was still positive. It was. But then i kept telling myself that means nothing at all. My body still produced the hormones for weeks after my previous pregnancy had stopped growing. It just didn't get the memo at all.
I'm glad you have a private scan booked. My partner hasn't been able to come to any of our scans and the hospital rang to confirm my appointment today and told me no partners allowed still. Hopefully all will be well and we can book a private gender scan for 17 weeks like we did with my little boy.
I hope all goes well for you and your anxiety eases too. The waiting is the worst part isnt it for the scans. I have always had early scans so I honestly have no idea how people go for the full 12 weeks without going to one. I would drive myself mad.[/quote]
@Anonymom31 thank you, yes it was very hard with it being my first pregnancy. I am quite an anxious person anyway so of course it’s set me up for being in a bit of a state now, but I’m trying to just take it easy and one day at a time. I will actually be 9+5 when I have my private scan but hoping I’ve left it long enough to see more and also in line with the statistics suggesting a much lower chance of something going wrong. NHS scan is a little over two weeks later so at least there are two things now I can focus on to break up the weeks. I also have no idea how anybody waits until 12 weeks and sometimes longer! It feels like I’ve been hanging on for months and months but I found out I was pregnant on 23 July!
How far along are you and when is your scan? Hopefully it’s not much longer to go now until we can feel a bit better about everything xxx