it is not impossible that i have completed fk'd up...htf do i break the news to dp

[MrsSausage]

OBVIOUSLY I have changed my name.

We have 2 kids. Dp does not want more. Our second child in particular was a bloody hard baby.

I don't especially want more

dp really really really doesn't want any more.

period has not arrived today.

Very very faint line on all the seven tests I have done so far.

crappola. PLEASE be nice, don't tell me I am a fool and an eegit.

I had plans for my life, I am not THAT young and I need to get on with them if I am to Make Something Of Myself.

Crap.

why can't you?

ooooo, you have family members on MN? that narrows it down

i will give you a clue, i am a weaver of lentils

i do need to get my head round this though

i have RL friends who blatantly lurk because they start conversations about the threads

Oh great! Congratulations!

[nosily] Will you out yourself now?

Well Congratulations are in order then, glad he appears to be getting his head around things may I recommend the Xsara Picasso they're not too bad on the 2nd hand market these days.

Email me then. I need to know! Do you begin with A?

Sauasage,please please read this I posted this a couple of years ago ,it has just made me cry again but i was in your situation with a wonderful dp who I thought just couldnt cope ,i wish we had given ourselves more time,we may have made the same decision but it might have been easier in the end ,who knows

"I have been following this thread for the last couple of days but have found it difficult to post as even now my experience is painful,have changed name for this. I was in exactely your situation 7 years ago this week,I had an 8 month old baby and a 4 year old .We had recently moved and dh was in new job and I had an awful pregnancy with ds2.Also had fantastic marriage to my best friend .When I told him I was pregnant the look on his face said it all,sheer panic I love him so much and stupidly it was me that mentioned the termination first hoping that would shock him into it but instead he was so relieved,deep down I wanted that baby so much but I just didn't have the confidence to stick it out ,I felt that having the baby would make me the selfish one ,especially as he pointed out that ds1 would have to be taken away from the private school where he had just started and we would have to stay in our rented house etc...I had never seen him like this he was always the calm one keeping things together.He didn't force me in fact he did say on the day that I could back out at any time but I didn't and there is never a day that goes past that I don't think about the baby and wonder about them,I planted a peony in the garden to remember them. We BOTH regret it now and have talked about it ,in retrospect it would have been pretty difficult;that year dh worked every weekend but 4 and ds2 is borderline special needs and didn't walk until 20 months and it would have been very difficult for him to have another only 16 months younger and overtaking him but those are all head things and my heart will never forgive myself. 3 years later my gorgeous ds3 was born who we all adore ,he was planned and although dh did need a little persuading I think he knew that it was the only way I would ever be able to cope,he also confessed to being scared that he wouldn't have enough love for another as he loved the two eldest so much.I know he also regrets his actions and worries about the emotional blackmail,but we all make mistakes . He is a fantasic dad and dh but I just wish we had taken more time to make the decision I can't help feeling that we rushed into things in a panic Give him and youself time ,don't rush into things I will never forgive myself the grief took me by surprise.If you want the baby stick to your guns he will come round ,we got through it but the sadness will always be there the only compensation is that if things had worked out differently I would not have my wonderful ds3 and I can't imagine life without him. My thoughts are with you and your dh. "

Sorry cross posted ,fantastic news whata fantastic marriage yu have there!!

OH and I recommend the renault scenic, so spacious and very safe.

and

CONGRATULATIONS weaver of the lentils

well it's not Franny as she has one child

lentils eh?

filly?

oh god onwards, how awful for you

tbh i know myuself too well to do anything ELSE really

I know that the only things i regret are the things i didn't do, IYKWIM. So if i do this and its awful i will cope but if i don't i will wonder, and that is 400 times worse

no i don't begin with A btw

Excellent news!

.

ok i can't out myself quite yet because of my RL friends. they will be grumpy with me and not lend me their baby equipement which i so sorely need (well i don't really, i have a sling and some clothes...)

let me think of a MN clue that a lurker would probably not get but a regular would

She begins with an I

I'm not outing Mrs S, she said so on the other thread!

Right well to sort your money situation out, you need to stop buying Pregnancy Tests and put all that money into a savings account instead...

Good luck Mrs S x

MP!

WHat? I? What? Someone email me

she tried to out herself on another thread