I think somethings happened to the baby and I have to wait until Monday to find out.

[TippyTinkleTrousers]

14+3 weeks.

I've been getting heartbeat on a doppler easily since 9 weeks.

I've had a bad feeling the last few days, something I never got with my other kids. So I tried the doppler today and found nothing. I've been trying since 11am.

I've tried all the tricks in the right places, laying this way and that, pointing it down etc etc and there's absolutely nothing there.

I spoke to EPU but being Friday they can't see me until Monday morning.

It's going to be a long weekend.

Wish I never bought that bloody doppler. I never did with my other pregnancies.

Nothing helpful to add, so just want to say sorry for your loss.

Be kind to yourself and do what you feel will be best for you in this painful process.

So sorry op x

Thank you.

I'm currently in hospital waiting to be induced. I'm sporting a nice pink nighty. The staff are so nice. A nurse just came into me to introduce herself and she said she's been in my position twice. The last time was in the bed next to me.

They want to give me a side room but there's a woman already there. If things change then it's mine, but I don't really mind being in a shared ward.

I'm just worried about the pain. In labour I welcome the pain but not this time. I'm dreading it. I wasn't to be numb to it.

They said they can send the baby off for testing but then I can get him back (very clear boy nub on the scan). So my husband and I can bury him ourselves which feels important.

Oh tippy, again really sorry. At least they're nice and supportive. Hope you get through today as best you can, will be thinking of you

I'm so sorry op

I am glad they are looking after you.

I'm so sorry Tippy. They'll give you plenty of painkillers I'm sure - they gave me something they don't usually use in labour and it really worked. Began with a P. I'm glad the nurses are being kind and that you can have your little baby back afterwards. Xxx

Sending you hugs and strength Tippy. I hope that in the days and weeks to come you get some answers and support, in all the heartache.

You are in my thoughts, and I hope that today goes as well as it can in these sad circumstances.

💐 xxx

Just wanted to say I am so so sorry for your loss.
I hope the hospital manage things well for you and your needs and wishes are respected.
Thinking of you

I'm glad they're looking after you well. They will give you lots of pain meds. Thinking of you Tippy

OP I'm so sorry for your loss and hope you have lots of support

Just wanted to say I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you have got through today ok so far and you have had good support.

I lost my third child (third DS as it turned out) at 16 weeks two years ago and so I imagine your experience today may have been similar to mine. I hope the worst of the physical side of it is over for you but I'm aware you may still be in the throes of it.

I didn't know whether I wanted to see or hold my baby initially, so I asked the nurses to bear that in mind and they explained where the baby would be taken and that he could be brought to me anytime during my time in hospital. In the end it took until 11.30pm for me to have him having been admitted first thing (mismanagement basically, a nurse didn't spot the signs that I'd 'had' him probably after about 4 hours but he was sat for ages in the birth canal causing lots of bleeding but no pain) so it was the next day when I decided to see and hold my baby. This was something I'm very glad I did, of course it's a very personal decision but it's helped me enormously and I can't believe i almost didn't do it. The hospital also has a book of remembrance and we had our baby entered in that. We didn't name him and I still think maybe we should have done. Many people on here said on various threads 'take your time to grieve, and whatever decisions you make about how to do it will be right for you' and that's very true.

I hope you're getting well looked after. I should say that apart from that one nurse who let me down a bit the staff were great, I will never forget one nurse who came into reassure me as I started freaking out about my temperature going up and why on earth I'd been in labour for 10 hours. Such kindness made a difference.

Wishing you and your family loads of strength to get through this. It's awful but you will be ok.

I am so sorry that your worst fears have been confirmed

Wishing you strength and that it all goes as well as these things can go.

Fwiw, I have had 4 (earlier) MMCs and they are never anything less than devastating. I still ended up with the size of family I had hoped for.

Thinking of you

So so sorry to read this, so sorry for your loss

Thank you.

DH is coming to pic me and the baby up now.
I'm going to get him cremated so I can have his ashes back.

I appreciate your support. Thank you.

I'm so sorry for your loss. RIP little one.

Rest in peace beautiful and innocent little one

I bet he had the gorgeous lips his lovely Mother thinks of him. Lovely scan photo from before.

Thinking of you OP

I'm so sorry Tippy, how horrific for you all. I'm thinking of you and really hope you find a way to get through this x

Oh @TippyTinkleTrousers I'm so sorry.
How awful...
thinking of you

So sorry for your loss, take care