Congratulations Titchy
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I remember everything you are describing so well. DH, eternally optimistic, happy to visit and leave until the next time and me not wanting to be anywhere other than sat by the incubator. Even the nurses used to tell me to leave.
It is the most natural thing in the world though, wanting to be with your baby.
I remember how frightening it is too, everything is alien, scary and new to parents, every alarm slightly terrifying. Not to the staff though.
The bad news chats too, we had three of them during our three month stay but thanks to modern medicine and the amazing staff DD came home healthy without any issues.
Now ten, you would never suspect she had such a rough start.
Make sure you eat, buy some hard core hand cream, mine were cracked and bleeding after 13 weeks of NICU scrubbing and took months to recover.
Hopefully you will get to hold her soon, I made DH do the first skin to skin session as I was absolutely terrified but I still remember feeling that that was my first bit of normality.
It is so tough on you Titchy, stay strong, you are doing really well.