ugh, the fear doesn't go does it? It feels to me like the stakes get a bit higher every week - further in, more invested, increasingly public, ever more to lose.
I think I am in a good frame of mind for my appointment later, I'm tearful and feeling fragile and frankly lousy too - rotten head, blocked nose, sore throat, slept badly dreaming of being murdered. Stressed and down.
Well done lynsey, yes to the wow wow wow placenta, that's exactly it! I have a Sonoline B 3MHz one I think - it's been in the cupboard for years so not 100% on the details. It's always been very good but I can't really be trusted to use it. I know I couldn't cope if I couldn't find the baby, so I only listened in the day before my scans so I didn't have long to wait to check if things were ok if I couldn't find it. Midwives take a very dim view of dopplers being used by the general public and if you call in a panic because you can't find a hb they will not organise a scan. They are both a blessing and a curse I feel! Though the thing that does annoy me is when people treat you like an idiot and say, you'll hear your own hb and think it's the baby - I have no difficulty distinguishing between me, placenta and baby, they are very different. But once the baby is moving regularly remember the doppler is just for fun - any concerns about movement, do NOT be reassured by a quick dopple, get checked out properly. Obv the hb is the last thing to go, the movements are the indicator of wellbeing, a hb with reduced movements can mean a baby in trouble.
Sorry, teaching you all to suck eggs!
Hope your results are good today purple.