Things have taken turn for worse and going to go to A and E. My GP can't see me til Thursday and I feel so close to losing my mind that I can't think what else to do. I've managed to get an appt with the GP for first thing Thursday and also the psychiatrist again so just need to keep self going til then. Can't go to parents again as they are getting on and this is so so distressing for them am frightened of the impact I'm having on their health, can't keep leaning on friends and so so guilty already for impact on husband so going to go to hospital as I've started having really serious thoughts that everyone would be far far better without me. One of my friends I spoke to the other week was very against being too open with NHS in case there were long term consequences but honestly don't think I should be the one to take care of my child if this continues nor do I think I would be able to do my job anymore so think is just a desperate but needed move to go to A and E rather than a rash one. Planning on just being totally honest about everything that's happening in my mind and seeing what they say as no longer feel can manage at all or put this on anyone else. I know this website is up and down at the moment so not relying on this really, just don't want to feel totally alone when I go in, not telling anyone where I'm going, and wondered if others thought this sounded like ok plan. Thank you xxxx