The best shit place to be grads - Early pregnancy after miscarriage - hopes and fears

[Gr33dyeggs]

So heres a thread. Hope you all find it!

Congrats we've made it this far

My worry at 5 weeks is I just feel apathetic and numb. Not excited, not looking forward. Not even fear. Just.... nothing. Constant knicker watch.

Plus wondering whether to push for an early scan and if so when? Losses were 9 and 11 weeks.

Same fears here greedy.
Scan in 10 days. Am 5 weeks today.. plenty of symptoms but daily I don't feel pregnant unless I'm thinking about it- I.e I notice how dry my tongue is/hard and sore my Nipples are etc.

It can't truly be that I'd be so unlucky again surely? Life just can't be that cruel no?

One word: dairy

I saw my GP today to get in the system. She was very understanding and said she would request an early scan both because of the mc and the uncertainty with dates so we will have to see what happens.

my swab results came back and I've been prescribed metronidazole. I'm guessing it BV or similar again. The dr I saw after the mc recommended swab next pg saying the antibiotics are 'perfectly safe'. Pharmacist not so convinced so I've researched. The majority of evidence suggests no risk but an old study found association with mid face defects - cleft palate and lip.

Stupid body. I'll take the antibiotics and have an additional worry now too.

Morning all! Nice to see everyone over here.

I'm not even 4 weeks yet and feeling The Fear. How did you all get to where you are and remain sane?!

Hello everyone!

girl unfortunately i have not remained sane! Impossible!! But just try to take one day at a time :)

Greedy sorry you have had to go on antibiotics :( i think you should be ok if you have only found one bad study and its an oldie. But i understand you will be worrying

MsJ good news in the early scan! Do you have a date yet?

5+3 here and i think morning sickness may have quicked in a little. Queasy and retching! On the other hand could be due to barely any sleep last night as our dog is ill again and had sickness and diahorrea every couple of hours bless her :( oh and back to dreaded work after a 4 day weekend :(

Oh no definitely not sane. Some days are better than others though.

5+1 today and dd woke for the loo at 3am, and my silly body computed this as awake> morning> nausea.

No matter what position I led in it wouldn't go. Eventually I nodded back off but was the same when woke up. . And the smell of cheerios this morning.. yuck.

Morning all.

Definitely not sane here. At the moment I'm trying to focus on one day at a time. 5+3 here too and apart from slight nausea not really got any symptoms. It has really helped having this thread - knowing that there are others feeling the same.

Work is also doing my head in at the moment!

No sanity here either, just the illusion created by sheer denial.

I don't know when I'll get a scan through or even if I will get an early one but the Dr has recommended it in her referral. I was so vague in the appt and didn't ask any questions I had meant to. I am pretty sure in the aftermath of the mc someone told me I had group b strep and to let someone know in case of future pregnancy, but I feel almost like I imagined that. Is group b something you either carry or don't? Should I go back & tell the Dr? Or just wait till I hear from the hospital? I don't think it was related to the mc, but it can be an issue during birth I think. But maybe I've misunderstood. Any experience?

Gr33dy sorry about the abs but at least the infection will be treated, which would be more of a worry. Like others said there would be more info online if it were a likely issue.

Has anyone else seen the thread by gingerbreadma about some bleeding she has had? I hope she is ok, thinking of you if you're lurking gbm.

At least I'm not alone in the madness this gives me hope that I am doing a better impression of sanity than I think!

Gr33dy sorry to hear that you're on antibiotics, hope they don't make you feel too rotten.

Hope you do get an early scan MrsJ and looking forward to hear about yours Reverse

I had a proper panic this morning as I suddenly felt really sick. I'm feeling a lot worse than I did last time, which I would take as a good sign if the morning I went to the epu after getting spotting the day before I felt the sickest I had been, and I thought that was promising. Must try to calm down. Hopefully when I'm passed the stage I had my mc last time this particular madness will subside. Totally irrational of course, but maybe it will make me feel better.

Oh no I haven't seen the thread from gingerbread :( Is she ok? She was a bit further on than us wasn't she? Hope you are ok if you are reading this gingerbread

MsJ I would tell you doctor as soon as you can. The only knowledge I have of Strep B is a girl I knew who had it when pregnant with her son but it hadn't been detected until he was born and he was a little poorly at first but fine now. I think its fine as long as they know and can control/treat it. But I don't really know much about it so definitely contact GP or midwife.

Well I have been a total doofus! I signed up to Emma's diary with last pg for the vouchers and freebies, but when the mmc happened I threw everything away. I thought there would be an option to advise them of mmc and start new pg with them for vouchers etc but I couldn't find one. I had to set up a new account and had to use my work's email address. The confirmation came through and I clicked the 'unsubscribe' option... but that clearly didn't work seen as though I had an email come through when I was off work saying 'YOU ARE 5 WEEKS PREGNANT' in the subject ... they have also been on my emails while have been off... but no one has mentioned it. I have swiftly deleted all evidence however its a bit late isn't it! Damn! Oh well.. I'm not going to mention it to them until I either have to or they bring it up! kicking ones' self

I have group b strep too. Don't worry about it, it just means you may need antibiotics in labour to stop baby catching it x

This sounds weird but I miss ttc. When I was ttc, I felt quite positive and relaxed and like good things were coming. Now I'm pg I just feel like I'm waiting for something terrible to happen.

How much nausea should I be having at 5+3?

Guy some people are very lucky like my sister and never so much as have a whiff of nausea. Then you get the opposite end of the scale me

With dd I had bad nausea but wasn't actually sick. It started between 6 and 7 weeks and only lasted until 9 weeks. My sense of smell was the worst thing- all food and the smell of my husband made me feel sick.
I had mild nausea during my mc pregnancy but never as bad. Didn't get the increased sense of smell.
I'm worried that this pregnancy is more like the mc one.

Guy try not to worry. . They are all sooo different. I'm really surprised at how different this one is compared to both mc and dd. I keep comparing to mc by default but I must stop. for you.

I know. I'm analysing everything like a crazy person. DH doesn't want to talk about it until we know because he is scared of getting hurt again. But it's different for him because he can go to work and forget about it. I have to live in my body all the time. I feel very alone and frightened.

me too. I find my brain constantly saying "oh I feel x... did I feel like this last time"? .. but it feels like I'm rummaging through fuzzy memories and I can barely remember. I was living in shock for 5 days and then I started bleeding (v long cycles. . Couldn't understand my constant pos opks..) ..but I didn't once feel positive about it. Even when I tried to get excited and share the news it felt fake. That I remember clearly. . And how I felt physically the hour before I started bleeding. So really not a lot to compare to. It's a very scary time. I'm at work and every day I'm here I'm exhausted and achey and just wish I could get home and look after myself. X

See with mine, I felt pregnant. Not really strong symptoms, but definitely there. It wasn't until 9 weeks that I knew it wasn't developing.

I've just spent 20 minutes ignoring dd and looking through my posts on here last October during the 5 weeks that I was pregnant to compare the symptoms I wrote about with how I feel now.
I need to stop.

Same worries here, comparing my 2 other pregnancies to this one. I am sure I felt more bloated in the mc pregnancy, like my organs started getting pushed up quite early on. Also nausea. I didn't have much sickness in either pg but I felt more sick in the first I'm sure. As I don't know dates though it's hard to compare exactly. And of course memory plays tricks on you. I think my breasts hurt more than last time. But of course it doesn't really mean anything, all pregnancies are different. It's just so hard not to think about it all the time. It's like I'm operating on two wavelengths, one is in complete denial and the other is obsessing over every detail.

I'm glad we are all going through this together, although obviously would rather no-one had to go through it at all.

I think everyone I know in real life who has had a mc has gone on to have a successful next pregnancy. Although it feels impossible, I know it isn't.

Symptoms today - awful taste in my mouth and heartburn. No nausea or sickness (thankfully coz I need to keep the antibiotics down). Bloating - yep look about 4 months.

I compared the mc pg with my successful one, but this one is very similar to mc. I'm not looking at the pregnancy diary this time or even considering writing one yet.

Thinking of gingerbread & northdown with scans tomorrow.

Ive got stomach cramps now. Scared. I only recall this at point of loss in the past. Not from my successful pregnancy. Today I am pregnant. I hope I can say the same tomorrow. Good night ladies.

Fingers crossed for you all. Hope you wake up feeling better Gr33dy

Could the cramps be related to the infection Gr33dy? Hopefully the abs are helping your body fight it off. I have everything crossed for you.

My sister started losing loads of blood this evening and is now in hospital on a drip. They were talking about surgery but it looks like they are going to wait until the morning. If it all passes naturally then I guess it is a 'better' outcome than having to wait for 2 weeks but possibly she may need the ERPC anyway. So desperately sad. She was seen in the same room I was and is now on the same ward I was. My mum said it was so surreal reliving the experience she had with me. She has had no cramps or labour pains, just gushing blood and clots. My poor little sis.