A thread for elderberries who are hovering in the bfp helicopter

[barkingtreefrog]

All elderberry grads welcome and anyone who fills berry criteria: ttc #1 a long time now finally bagged that elusive bfp, over 30...

Come join the next stage of the journey and compare sickness reports!!

I can still do up all my trousers. My bloating is all higher up on my stomach- like a big beer belly. Very attractive...not.

No, noone's glanced at belly....yet!

Bleeding heavier, just soaked through another pad, now wearing two.... Cramping bad. Spoke to mate and she and DP both agreed after 4 days of bleeding and cramps it wasn't looking good and I probably needed to be honest with school. Decided to call the deputy. She's not answering the bloody phone! . I really don't want to speak to the head. I want to go into epu tomorrow and have someone look at me, I don't want to go to work. But what do I do?

Oh barking so horrible. You poor thing chick.

Definitely no school tomorrow. Leave a message if you can?

I'm glad DP is back to be with you and look after you. Get yourself to EPU, you definitely need to be well looked after.

Ha, no, you don't know the head. I doubt she could even manage to fake sympathy for my situation if she tried, she'd be too busy thinking about all the problems it would cause her at school. I sent the deputy a text asking her to call as soon as she got it, but that will probably be in the morning. Not much more I can do tonight, it's getting too late to keep calling people on a Sunday evening.

Just realised with everything that's been going on I've forgotten my Dad's birthday. It's tomorrow . I haven't told my mum what's happening so they won't even know why I've not sent anything. Can't call though, I'd just start crying.

Feeling utterly hopeless and quite scared.

Barking. One thing at a time.
Work - in the morning call the deputy, and if no luck call the head. It doesn't matter if the head is sympathetic or not, the only thing you need from her is to understand you will not be in work. If you can't face telling them what is happening you can say you are going to a and e with abdominal pain (which is what I said) and tell them more when/if you choose to. If you can't face talking to anyone just text saying you are on the way to the hospital and will call and update later.
Dad's birthday - text in the morning (and say you will call later in the day if you are expected to speak to him). Let DH take some flack and say he was supposed to post card and present on Friday but left it in his car and forget. That buys you or him some time to buy and post a pressie and card.
White lies to make tomorrow easier for you are probably for the best as what you are going through is hard enough without having to also tell other people.
Can DH get tomorrow off? he probably should.
However if the bleeding continues to get heavier I wouldn't put off going to a and e tonight, not for a scan but to ensure you are ok and you have everything you can have to help

Thanks merk. DP is calling work in the morning and telling them he's not coming in. I've just spoken briefly to my mum. I emailed my half finished lesson plans to school and explained that I didn't know what was happening but if I was still in pain in the morning I would not be in as I'd be on my way to the hospital.
I'll text the head in the morning.

Now in bed with my hot wheat bag and DP telling me everything will be ok in the end.

I know I keep saying it, but thanks merk and the rest of you berries, you're keeping me sane. ish.

Thinking of you barking

barking good- sorting work out like that is great. Worry about dads birthday later on- look after yourself for now. merk has some very wise words indeed.

Let us know how you're doing- we're all thinking of you x x

Been awake since 4.30. Still bleeding with clots, still cramping. Called epu and said it had been 5 days now and I was worried. They stuck by the 'there's nothing we can do unless it's heavy blood loss or you can't manage the pain'. She has booked me in for a scan at 9am tomorrow though.
I called my head and said I had severe abdominal pain and I would be going to the gp today. All set for yet another day on the sofa! DP is going into work but he's only 15 minutes away and will leave his phone on. He'll come to the scan with me tomorrow.
Trying not to think further ahead than today.

barking thinking of you, hope you manage to get to EPU this morning. So glad your DP is there for support, let us know how you are when you can xxx

I can't believe they won't see you today barking. You must be knackered as well as frazzled with it all. Try and sleep as well if you can.

Sorry barking crossed with you! Absolutely take up residence on the sofa and watch trashy escapist TV all day. I'm sorry the EPU won't see you today, they really can be so abrupt. Hang on on there; we're here for anything you need. Sending love xxx

barking so rubbish!
Glad you've sorted work out and are going to rest up. Annoying that the EPU won't see you today, but at least now it's tomorrow not Thursday.
Fx for a better day today. Take care of yourself.

Barking glad your scan has been moved forwards, hope some of the terrible daytime tv manages to be a little bit of a distraction today
I'm on my way to work and planning on telling the knob of a boss today. I'm pretty convince he will say something discriminatory so will keep you posted

Oooh Merk he sounds like a grade-A pillock! I'd tell him with someone else there who can back you up in case he says something you need to complain about TBH, I can't stand throwback cavemen who can't deal with treating women like equals (maybe I'm overreacting. But GGRRR)

I can't stand it/him either. There isn't really anyone else I can get there, I was contemplating recording the conversation just in case but figure it won't matter what he says in the grand scheme of things

Ooo good luck with the conversation merk. That's very brave of you! I can't really process the thought of telling work yet. I think I'm still in denial.

I'd probably record it, although then I'd be too chicken to do anything about it. You're right, probably won't make any difference - once an idiot, always an idiot. Good luck with it, let us know how it goes!

Thunder you really are in deep denial aren't you!? Maybe you should see how long you can leave it before your bump gives you away...!

Yeah I really think I am boom started feeling guilty for telling out family and close friends now.

Do I need a wang??!!

I think you're positively begging for a wang!

Thhhhhwwwwwaaaaaccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

Better?

YOUCH!