Early pregnancy after IVF. Please come here to worry and support!

[NookNook]

Right then! Come here if you are 4-12 weeks and can't stop fretting. Didn't think anything could be worse than the 2WW? Think again!

Thanks Pram. I'm having some twinges but then I've had them the whole time so . Just at docs now. I think I'll go for a scan anyway but obviously hoping it will be free!!!

Thanks Prammy! And good luck with your interview.

Hope you got on well at the docs Nook

On the train now. Luckily I don't need to be I'm till 11.30 today. Has anyone else foud they have, ahem, loose bowels occasionally?!

Beetle! So lovely to see you!! We cannot wait to have you all over here x

Hello Beetle! I have been lurking on the egg buddies thread. Lovely of you to pop in here though. There are plumped up cushions ready for you all. Xxx

Seen doctor. He's sending me to the epu. He didnt seem concerned. Just on my way there now. Blood is now brown and is hitting the pad but still very light flow. Not sure what to think at this point but happy that I might get some answers.

prammy they got very dark and I can see todays in a darkened room. They are getting fainter though, but are not faint. If you see what I mean. A clear blue a fortnight ago did go to 2-3 weeks, but Saturdays was 1-2 again.

I think development has stopped. Googling isn't helping - I probably have enough evidence for both scenarios, good and bad.

Yes, a part of me deeply regrets the constant testing. But I think I would be panicking regardless. All of the coping strategies I learnt last year that saw me through the cycle itself have flown out of the window. I cannot stop trying to prepare myself for the worst and search for the worst and its driving me insane.

Poor DH is having his optimism clouded by my pessimism. He is also very worried about me as I broke down yet again today. I an probably cope if its bad - I just need to know.

I've now emailed the consellors as I haven't had a response yet.

Fish, my love, I absolutely believe in preparing for the worst. Don't feel bad about pessimism and melt-downs; there's time for rejoicing when your poor stressed-out head has been given peace from this torment. I am thinking of you. I will pray now for you and Nook xx

Good luck at the EPU Nook. I'm sure all will be well x

Fish I agree with Prammy. Preparing for the worst is my coping mechanism. I hope you hear back very soon

Thanks lovely peeps.

Fish I'm sure they'll respond as soon as they can.

In epu now just waiting to be seen. Cramps have stopped I think. Just want to know what's going on!

Thinking of you nook and fish Xx

I'm back already. The hospice manager really liked me and was thrilled about my IVF success and my life since The Thing Wot Caused My Epiphany. However, my worst fear was realised: she is putting me to work in a the hospice charity shop Now, I'm no snob but I have a thing about shop keepers. I don't like 'em. They think they rule the world. Old shop keepers are the worst. They are slow and smell of wee and talk utter shit all day long. Now, charity shops are staffed by old people who are super-imperious 'cos they think they're doing a Really Good Thing (when we all know they're just grabbing the best stuff as soon as it comes through the door and then passing them off as Christmas pressies. Bitches).

I've agreed to give it a go, primarily because my pregnancy trumps their ancientness which gives me the right to be bossy and I could end up with some really nice maternity clothes. The wittering bothers me though. Old people wittering about the war/their hips/their dying rellies/the weather/the price of tights. I won't put up with it

Nook, how're you doing?

Can I be nosy? What was said Thing?

No-one knows on mumsnet, Resipsa, because it would out me and people would be: 'oooh!' and 'hmmm' and and . You can, however, read my autobiography when it comes out next spring

I'm back! There was an embryo and a heartbeat. Phew! Thanks for the help you lot. You are amazing.

Pram I'm loving the image of you in a charity shop!

Yay for embrynook! Such a relief, eh? x

Th'expat! Hiya, cock! Please tell us what's in the pipeline for you. Th'egg Buddies are much missed over here

nooks thats wonderful!! You must be so relieved.
I'm over the moon for you

It's a massive relief. I honestly thought it was all over for a while there. Little bugger! DH now convinced it's a boy. He did think it was twin girls

Sorry to be so brief, but am at work, senior boss is here, etc.

nook thinking of you darling. Hope all is ok (I'm sure it will be).

Similarly fish. Are you going to hold out for scan Thursday?

I'm having a pretty hard time too, hence my lack of posting recently. It's part of the process it seems.

Hi to pram and maybe x

I'm really sorry some of you are worrying and anxious, it's horrid. Should those of us with symptoms shut up for a while? Would that help?

I'm off to the greengrocer's to protest about the price of Jazz apples. I also need some basil pesto, crѐme fraîche and 'spring greens' (what the hell are they??) to make Spring Chicken One-Pot

Erm...crѐme

Argh! It won't let me write 'creme' with a grave on the first 'e'!

That's great news nook - what a relief!