Waters gone, waiting for everything else to catch up...

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Yes, another live labour thread. I'm bored and DH is napping (made sense whilst he can and there's not much he can do for me atm).

Waters started trickling at about 5.30 this morning, MW confirmed, sent me home, told me I needed good regular contractions by 7.30am tomorrow or it's off to the hospital to be induced instead of my hippy-dippy natural birth at the MWLU like I had hoped for...

I've been for a walk, done housework, got DH to do light touch massage and have bought some clary sage which will be used this afternoon...

I'm getting some tight squeezy feelings, but not enough for me to confidently call them up and say - yup, got contractions...

So. Anyone want to entertain me whilst DH sleeps? Or discuss the pros/cons of nipple stimulation etc...?

Cakes Well done

You've done an amazing thing, and you gave yourself and Leo every possible and safe chance to do this without help. Please don't be scared, it's hard enough looking after yourself and a newborn on an awful, hot PN ward without a CS wound and all the paraphernalia and mobility issues to deal with, never mind when you do, and on top if that is the disappointment of not getting the birth that you would have liked and that others seem to get. Hope that you get transferred to the MLU soon - is there any possibility of going home ASAP? It might be easier emotionally to get home and just be the three of you if it's safe (ie no post op complications?)

cakes many congratulations! and welcome to the world Leo

As others have said, you did exactly the right things for you and Leo. Not what you wanted, but he's safe and you're ok. Give yourself time.

Congratulations on the birth of Leo - well done to both of you.

I echo what others say, you did your very best and he arrived safely. You have done an amazing thing, bringing him into the world.

Congratulations first & foremost.

Secondly, I was in a similar position to you with DS2; had HB with DS1, planned HB with DS2, until he was found to be an undiagnosed breech = emc-s. I spent most of the first few days of his life crying if we're honest.
I also worried about bonding to start with but it all was fine.
He's nearly 4 now and I have my head around it, having talked it through with lots of people.
I have since had another HB with DD, so don't let anyone put you off with doom and gloom about future babies (I know it's early days but I was told when DS2 was less than a day old 'no more HBs for you' & file slammed shut by some obnoxious consultant i'd never met before. didn't help my emotional state).

If you feel like it - look up some VBAC/HBAC info. There's lots out there. PLus i was lent a fab hypno cd about letting go of your fears/worries/anger/upset about having had a c-s. It did help.

For now, really try and snuggle Leo as much as possible, get your happy-love hormones going and try and enjoy every second, they grow so fast :)

Congratulations, what a beautiful name! Hope you feel a bit more rested today xx

Home today at last. Everything feels more disappointing being back here where I had so many dreams

:( Sorry to hear you are still disappointed but just try to focus on what you do have now. X

Is it a bit of a come down cakes ? it must be so overwhelming x Hope Leo is settling in well

Sympathies, I know that feeling, come home and look around at stuff you hoped to use/eat/listen to/etc during labour.
Or the bottle of bubbly in the fridge you were planning to open.

Let the thoughts come I say, allow yourself a bit of a wallow, then chin up and cuddle that baby, get the love hormones going.
It will get better

i burst into a million tears on getting home with DS cakes it was all a bit weird. It didn't last. You are exhausted and very hormonal. Don't forget the baby blues kick in about now too. Give it a couple of days and you will be soooo happy to be home and really start to enjoy Leo, i promise xx

Many congrats, so sorry your birth didnt go as you wanted but you got the end result, so try and focus on that.

Big hugs xxx

and now we seem to have colic - all the signs are pointing that way, anyhow Is any of this going to be enjoyable? Or bearable, at the very least.

try infacol cakes, worked for us

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cakes it will get better. you will start to enjoy your little man. your still in the early days of getting to know him, dont put too much pressure on yourself. try infacol its quite good (gripe water is another, but i think the bottle says not until 3 months, but it always (and still does) bought dds wind out within minutes of using it)

Colic might not just be wind - I think the definition is 'unexplained crying' - it does get better, eventually. I found sitting on my rocking chair in my bedroom, in the dark, having a bloody good cry too was very helpful. It didn't stop DD any sooner but I felt a damn sight better for it.

Swaddling is good for colic,as it loud white noise,I used to put mine babies in front of the washing machine. There are white noise Apps and CD's also.

Congratulations!

I had an emcs with my first and second baby. You can certainly try for a vaginal delivery next time.