So you like me are out the other side. Does it not make you recoil in horror at the thought of having to do the nappies, and the teething and the weaning etc ALL OVER AGAIN having decided the last one was your last one? I think thats my major issue. All the stuff I was SO pleased to see the back of - now am having to go and do all over again. Having said that, when you look back at it, its only really 2 and a half years of it and then you are out the other side again. I just have to get used to the thought. And having big boobs again, and a fat wobbly stomach and even saggier boobs afterwards, and the exhaustion of having to wake up at night and feed, and oh, must I go on - you know what I mean!!!!
I had a long chat with my parents yesterday, went to tell Mum to see what she would say and she said it was tough having four but wonderful now - 26 years on! - as we all get on so well but it was hard work, lack of money and holidays etc, and she is sure she shouted at us all the time. I always SWORE i would never have four as I found it so hard being number 1, I was always shouted at and in trouble, my fault or otherwise, and consequently didn't want to do that to my eldest, who I already shout at (and to the other two!) and would rather just be a cool young mum who is nice and up to date. Now I am going to be that knackered tired old rag who shouts a lot. Still that wee bit excited about having four though - quite cool to have such a huge family when I thought I wouldn't if you know what I mean! Dad, laughed when I told him! Not with happiness, but with shock I think! I know how he felt. He is one of five though and said he never considered getting rid of number 4 and said I should have it too. That made me feel much better as with his/their support i will be happier, but we will be so broke! Terrifying! Not sure if its that that I don't want more than the rest of the baby stuff. Hand me a 2/3 year old any day! Thanks though CODwidow (would love to know what that stands for but won't ask - I am sure its not the done thing to enquire as to how people came up with their names) for helping on that front, so helpful and I love that your last one is 3 so we both have the same gap between our last ones! Hubby still really not keen, but isn't pushing either way thankfully right now!
Trying hard to stop thinking that I can eat what I want as I want to keep some of this figure I have managed to work myself into, but seem to have eaten self out of house and home AGAIN today! So annoying, can feel self increasing in size daily! So cross. Still feel nothing, so weird. Maybe another ectopic?!? Although lots of you saying the same, and we are still so early in the first trimester! Bath time! Better go, thanks again for all help, will let you know when get more thoughts.