Is it normal to miss my pre-baby life this much?

[Jade2022]

I’m just wondering if how I’m feeling is a normal phase for a FTM….

My LO is coming up to 9mo & she was very much planned. It took me a while to bond but by about 3-4mo I felt I really loved her & was enjoying my mat leave. We still go to baby classes most days & swimming every week, however as time goes on I find myself grieving my pre-baby life more & more. I’ve started to really resent LO for taking away my ‘freedom’ & I feel absolutely awful for saying this but I’ve recently started thinking if I could go back in time I would never have had her.

I do have a lot of support & my MIL has started having her once a week ready for when I go back to work. I find as pick up time approaches, rather than looking forward to seeing her I start to dread it. I feel like I’m enjoying spending time with her less & less and do everything I can to avoid it. This is starting to cause arguments with my OH as I’m always in such a bad mood.

I really hate feeling like this & wish I could go back to enjoying my time with her. Has anyone else been through a phase like this? How can I help myself?

@MissKittyFantastico84 I like that advice, I need to remember it. I've been saying something similar to myself in the last 5weeks since I became a mum.

I've been having such a hard time, I feel like I was never realistic about how it is having a child, like I was only thinking about nice moments, cuddles, giggles, etc. Now I sometimes think, have I made a mistake? Will I be able to do this and howww do people end up having more than 1??

I haven't had a very exciting life before but I miss being able to do stuff and go places, do nothing, be with my dogs, chilling with my husband

But hopefully things will get better once this horrible phase is over..😬 I want to be a parent whose life doesn't end after having kids but finds a way for all of us to enjoy