Finding it very hard to love my baby because his so difficult

[sophie269]

Please don't judge. My son is 3 weeks old and has really bad GERD. I know this is such an awful thing to feel and I hate myself for it but I am finding it so hard to love him because his so difficult. His never ever happy, never sleeps, cries all the time. Having a baby that is always like this is nothing like I imagined and it's making me feel like I wish I hadn't had a baby as I'm so stressed and feel like I can't cope with it. I then feel awful for feeling this way and feel like he deserves a better mum. I just really don't think I can do this for much longer

How are you getting on OP?

Totally not judging. I found it hard to love mine, and she was a relatively easy baby. I don't know how friends with babies with GERD managed those first few weeks.

But they did manage, as did I. It gets easier. And love grows over time. Get what support you can, and hang in there.

@Nannylp

How are you getting on OP?

Still not good. I feel so trapped. He won't go in his car seat. Cries until our goes blue and stops breathing. Won't go in his pram, does the same. Won't go in a baby carrier or sling. Hates all his chairs. Won't sleep on his back so won't go in his cot. His just not a normal baby. He won't do anything and is always screaming. His such an unhappy baby.