August 2008: Crap, how did THAT happen?

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Oops - my friend brought me some last week for my birthday but I was a touch distracted DH and I bought 4 today - purely for the sake of research you understand

VG - tis a marvellous idea, if I only knew how to make the brownies that family oops kindly sent me us I'd be raking it in, they were utterly DIVINE! I feel I need to stop and take stock. The cafe thing has fallen by the way side due to the wankers committee and I was ok with that as long as I had the baby to concentrate on. Now we no longer have that I will be back to the drawing board as soon as I feel the need to plan/scheme/generally take over the world again

Red - thank you so much for your advice earlier, DH and I had a bit chat about it earlier and I have asked him to specifically keep an eye on my mood/energy level etc - I am desperate not to fall into the depression I suffered from the first time we lost a baby and yet I didn't notice until I realised how it was affecting him

Miamla - if it's that cheeeep at the end of bidding then go for it!

Well ours was 105 in John Lewis 6.5 years ago and is still flying it, so definitely worth it.

Sorry I have never had any of the Maclarens.

Thing about cupcakes and proliferation of shops etc is that everyone thinks oh cupcakes are cool and then they produce monstrosities, I had a box about a month ago and I swear the icing was 2 inches deep and my brain was singing against my skull with the sugar level. But there was really no taste to sponge or icing - just sweetness and vivid colouring. There is always a place for quality - will rise head & shoulders over others.

Yes I think the delivery website, accompanying blog and then book (written over the next few months but published next year when your celebrity looks like peaking).

Gosh 20 lids who cares what it's like???

and incase anyone is interested gower cottage brownies are what Family Oops sent and they were DIVINE - they're not daft enough to post their recipe online though for the likes of me to steal

miamla - never had a McLaren, we're so hard on buggies here that we need a 3 wheeler to use out and about from the house and have a cheapy one slung in the boot of the car for town etc

you're very funny red thank you so much for your pushchair review!
do you reckon the handles are high enough for a tall bird? and potentially her ridiculously tall husband?

6.5 yrs? blimey! they're built to last!

there's still two days to go LG and i'm sure it'll go for more but her photos are pretty rubbish so i'm hoping nobody else notices the grandma seldom used bit!

oh and dizz, thanks for the fb message (i noticed you even sneaked your fanny on there too!)

Dizzy - I know I went directly to recipes to see if they published it when I opened the page We had some brownies at a hotel/restaurant we stopped off at in the Gower. Would never send anything I did luuurve myself!

VG I shall take your plan for world domination into consideration and don't panic, my most requested cupcakes are the hummingbird ones which just have cream cheese frosting on top and not the 2inch thick stuff to dig your teeth into prior to getting some cake - I'm with you on that part. Do you think individually sized white choc cheesecakes would sell??

hmm, in order to be able to assist you on whether or not they'd sell, i'd have to taste them first

Not literally flying. That would make it more expensive.

Dizzy, I just had a chat with dh and he reckons 6 weeks is about right too. I'd had a 3rd degree tear too, and ds was born not breathing so it was very hard afterwards to separate out what was physical pain, exhaustion, distress or any of the other emotions that were attacking me.

I remember that at the end of the first week, I tried to walk to the end of the street and nearly collapsed. I felt very much as if I was watching things through a thick glass wall.

Might it help to keep a notebook to jot down how you are feeling and memories as they come to you? You'd have a way of stepping back and taking the temperature of the situation that way maybe).

I'm so sorry so many dreams have been broken for you in the last while. Time to take stock and recover your formidable strength sounds like a really sensible move.

Your career gained new wings while I was droning on there ...

YES YES YES to the cheesecakes - our local farmshop do them. DH says if you do make cheesecakes I quote: 'they need a biscuit crumb base none of this poncey pastry base crap'

Red - I find MN and the posts on here keep me right but thank you, I'll take on board your advice. I tried to explain it to DH as if I am permanently walking uphill in heavy boots but seeing as they do that at the college as part of his training I don't think he was too about it all

I'm very much of the opinion that if its meant for me it won't pass me by. It doesn't reduce the feeling of emptiness and loss over the baby but had I not lost our first I wouldn't have DD1 and that to me is inconceivable NOW, it wasn't at the time - it was just plain devastating. Maybe there is a reason that this baby couldn't be and the reason will come to light at some point in the future? I hope that doesn't sound flippant as right at this moment I feel empty and raw but I live in hope that there is some greater reason for him no longer being

oops please reassure DH that my cheesecakes are made with either digestive or, in the case of the white chocolate ones, oaty biscuits - no poncey pastry shall hail from here

Dizzy - he already has visiting you and your cakes on his summer holiday spreadsheet! Now he will just add a small cheesecake notation!

I know how you feel with regards to there being a reason why he isn't here and hopefully it will become clearer in time. I feel the same about DD now - If we hadn't lost the others she would not be here and imagine what we would be missing out on But at the time nothing in the world will make you feel that there could be any justification for what has happened. Nothing flippant about it your comments at all, I just wish I had had friends like the ones on here for support all that time ago.

I feel blessed each day that I stumbled across you bunchofhairyloons ladies, ESP when I should technically have been in the July 08 thread as well - these things all happen for a reason and we're here because we're meant to be I'm only sorry I didn't know you when you were going through it too as I don't know how I would have coped without you all

now, on another note - why didn't anyone remind me that I don't need salt on my salad when I've liberally sprinkled parmesean on it too

Salad Dizzy - what is this salad of which you speak?? Is it curry flavour??

no, tis actual salad - I cannot cope with any more red meat and as much as I adore DH I am starting to think that he may be using me as an excuse to gorge eat his fav foodstuffs he IS a red blooded irish male who believes that if it hasn't got something in it that moo'ed, baaa'ed or clucked then its not a meal he has however, in protest to my meal choice, just returned from the shop buying fresh orange to help with the iron tabs and mix with the spatone [meep] I'm going to smell like a rusty nail soon

AAhhh - I have a must have meat or it's not food man too! I make pasta nad pesto for DD and I and he has pasta, pesto and chicken

I have tried to explain that there is iron in spinach etc but I'm that frightened he's going to shove liver at me that I'm not going to make too much of a show of it [bleurgh]

nnoooo not liver [boak] tell him there is more iron in broccoli than liver!

dizz i know, we're both very lucky we got chucked off that July 08. although i was obviously doomed destined to always meet you

Feck me but you lot can't half chat