Jammy, I have similar worries about my mum. She was really ill throughout my pregnancy with anaemia and also after I was born and spent time in hospital and my oldest sister did lots of my day to day care (to the extent that I used to have a mother fixation on her!!). I often wonder if she had PND as a result of her illness and what impact it had on our relationship, as we certainly didn't have a great bond throughout my life, but of course I can't ask her about it now
I am determined not to let my kids feel as unwanted as I was made to feel when I was growing up (it was the family joke that I was a mistake , but I found out after DS1 was born that my parents had never used contraception so I was inevitable rather than an accident) but I often feel like I've failed in that , and that makes me feel even shittier......god that sounds really sand and screwed up doesn't it?
got my CMH referral letter....bring on the counselling!!
Natty, sounds like you are having a tough time with the wee fella. Just remember "this too shall pass". Enjoy your day out. FB photos are lovely
Happy Birthday JBM
Had an awful night here last night with DD and bumble playing wake mum up tag again. bumble is teething, all four front top at the same time and is just inconsolable. I think his lip tie is making it more painful for him. He has been miserable all day as well and un put downable. We did manage to go swimming this morning for the first time en famille since CP in February. Much fun was had by all, although bumble wasn't keen on the showers afterwards.
My doula came over this afternoon to pick up DD's cot that we sold to her daughter and she has a new venture on the go that is a mum and baby cafe where they have regular talks from HCPs or BFCs or people with things to sell, and she is keen to get me on board, both as a peer supporter and doing nappy demos. they only do one a week at the minute, but it is proving qwuite successful so they are looking to do more. could be a good business opportunity for me. Must get the nappy stuff off the ground, or at the very least get my demo kit sorted!