Sept '07... I'm forever blowing raspberries and my cheeks ache from smiling so much....

[PurpleLostPrincess]

Here we go! (or should I say here wii go!?). I'll try doing a link too...

Incidentally, I had a dream last night that Cerys suddenly learnt how to blow proper raspberries! Don't know where it came from but it could be that she has been trying since she was about 4 weeks old and did it entirely by accident yesterday!

PLP xxx

he's upstairs MrsFish

Try and compose yourself and go and tell him how awful he has made you feel. Please don't go to bed all angry and upset.

So he doesn't realise how upset or angry you are about tonight yet? [passes hopey a tissue, and refills her glass]

Nimah is with me, STRAPPED IN to her car seat in the kitchen

I;ve NEVER said to him how frustrated/upset/unfair I feel the whole bike situation is. I KNOW that if it wasn;t for the accident, we wouldn;t have NIamh, and for that I'm INCREDICBLY grateful, but I HATE it, I wish it could be all fixed

And recently, I've been bumping into the wife of the man who knocjed Graeme off, and she acts like she hasn;t seen me. She's all covered in mlipstick, that's not fair

Have you made that cup of tea yet?

If not do it, are you any calmer?

i agree with mrs fish - compose yourself, shout at us a bit more if you like first, then go upstairs and talk about how you feel - then get a good nights sleep as you dream of all the great things you've got such as your dc

just wan't to ball.

But I will make that cup of tea

Sounds like a good time to go and tell him how you are feeling then. Put Niamh to bed and go see him, it sounds like it has all built up over the months for the both of you, now this catalyst has happened you may as well use it to tell him how you feel xxx

He won't have any time for me now, I know that, because he's being all self rightious about not drinking, becauase he;s trainign for the London Marathon and all he can see is that I'vre had some wine, thereofre it's the wine that's making me all emotional, so there's no point

and I KNOW wine makes you more emotional, but I guess it makes you more in touch with what you are actually feeling

But if you leave it till the morning, do you think you can still discuss it?

Bloody men tsk!

he's still upstairs, I don't know what he's doing

No, def won;t be able to leave it until the morning, but at the same time I can't admit to him that \I feel incredibly resentful nof his decision to learn how to ride a bike

Hopefully he is realising what an idiot he has been

How;s he goign to react to that? And ultimately what will it achieve? I've kept my mouth shut for years

I get what you're saying - i know my dp would say it was the wine talking and not listen!

He is an AMAZING man, and I love him SO SO SO dearly, BUT he can be SUCH a grumpy bastafd at times

if you need to get it off your chest/have been bottling it up for too long - then blurt it all out and tommorrow - blame it on the wine!

You don't need to mention that bit, just tell him how horrible he has made you feel tonight due to his comment and you are so upset because of everything else that has happened and it as all gotten on top of you. He needs to apologise for having a go at you over nothing.

I'm not being a moaning bastard am I?

I've decided I'm definitely going to win the lottery tonight, it's only fair

DH is STILL upstairs

i second that mrs fish - very eloquently put by the way

no you're not a moaning bastard

NO YOU ARE NOT - after everything you have been through and the fact that you have said you have been bottling it up, it needs to come out at some point, and tonight may as well be it. Try and clear the air a bit.