Not being pathetic, not bad mother.
I did a variation of cc with d to get him to settle on his own again, 1st night i tried proper CC, 2nd night I just sat in the room with my hand on his tummy, he got very cross for a little while then all of a sudden fell asleep and he's been fine since There are variations on it you can try such as pick up put down and I keep reading something about shh but dont know what that is. Personally i found PUPD just enraged him every time I put him down so found it worked better to comfort him without picking him up. But it is a personal thing and varied from baby to baby.
But April is a long time away (please say it is, I dont want my baby to be 1!) so you have plenty of time. Maybe the timing just wasn't right? We're all only guessing as mothers though, even when we've done it all before as they are all so different. You try something, if it doesn't work you try something else or wait a while and try again.
Ok I've waffled on so much even I dont quite know what I'm trying to say anymore
Bloody school run time again , see you all later