Feb '06 - Christmas trees and toddlers

[Jas]

CAMERON, 6th Jan, born to Teuch, DC1
PEYIA, 23rd Jan, Born to TicTac, DC1
ALEXANDER, 24th Jan, Born to Yeahbut, DC3
MAISIE, 26th Jan, Born to ellenrose, DC3
JESSICA HELEN, Birthdate 30th Jan, Born to JuA, Twin 1, DC2.
EMILY ROSE, Birthdate 30th Jan, Born to JuA, Twin 2, DC3
T, Birthdate late Jan, Born to ChasingSquirrels, DC2
ASTRID, Birthdate 4th Feb, Born to EachPeachPearMum, DC1
LAUREN EMMA, Birthdate 6th Feb, Born to Morgan, DC2
PIPPA, Birthdate 8th Feb, Born to CSWS, DC1
LEWIS, Birthdate 9th Feb, , Born to Phoenix, DC1
EVIE HARRIET, Birthdate 10th Feb, Born to Hotmama, DC2
RHUARIDH GEORGE, Birthdate 11th Feb, Born to MrsDoolittle, DC2
BEN, Birthdate 12th Feb, Born to Kelbelle, DC1
OSCAR, Birthdate 12th Feb, Born to Chloe55, DC1
OSCAR, Birthdate 13th Feb, Born to JoFan, DC
LUTHER, Birthdate 14th Feb, Born to Otter, DC5
BRAM, Birthdate 21st Feb, Born to mustrunmore, DC2
LUCA, Birthdate 21st Feb, Born to 2boysmacca, DC2
EMRYS , Birthdate 24th Feb, Born to Flamesparrow, DC2
ISABEL ERIKA, Birthdate 24th Feb, Born to Amiable, DC1
RORY JOHN, Birthdate 25th Feb, Born to dewmeadow, DC2
BOY, Birthdate 26th Feb, Born to Jas, DC3
SALLY ANIELA, Birthdate 28th Feb, Born to Thell, DC1
NEVE, Birthdate 4th March, Born to Frizbe, DC2
ALFRED WILLIAM, Birthdate 4th March, Born to damewashalot, DC3
BOY, birthday 10th March, born to UniS, DC1

I think I'm just restless, as is DH and we're rubbing off on each other. (Not literally... although that could take our minds of it )

I don't know what to do. Something has to change. In an ideal world I would become business woman extraordinaire but that is unlikely, what with it being me we're talking about!!!

off to do more sums

I think that I don't want to relax. I want to be doing something

Boots do sound awfully shit at delivering.

Oh no c beebies is going all jumpy in the middle of ITNG, ds isn't impressed.

I came on to say something but have forgot what it was now It wasn't anything important i don't think

Flame, I think you're just yearning to move vlose to me

BOOTS ARRIVED!!!!!!! Literally caught him as I was leaving neighbours house to go to a friends 'Reality' or something (name on van) Mind you, everything I ordered, I think (opwenoig properly in a bit). ER, they diidnt tell me anything csws, only that they diidnt kknow where it was

I am pondering many things... moving is not one of them!

You can move to me though, that would perk me up no end

Then one night I could get you very drunk and you would name the film....

yay for arrival!

I have had a rant in chat about life in general... but no-one cares which says it all really

So, I am getting slowly drunk.

Yes, mrm. Move to Flame, get very drunk and name the film

Bugger. I didn' flip the thread, and now I can't remember what else I wanted to say.

No smear booked yet (keep mentioning it hough Phoenix, and I will do it this wmonth)

Bath paid for and ordered, but will not be here for 10 days. Ceiling over stairs and landing all plastered Our bedroom ceiling and wall to be done tomorrow, plus puting adverts in paper to try and get more work.
I'm wishing the months away til April, because I'm fairly sure we will be owed a decen amount of tax back, and tax credits may even go up as income this year has been terrible.

CSWS - I am still eating your lovely christmas food. I thank you every time I eat a chocolate biscuit

Hmmmmm. A drink sounds like a nice idea flame. Might finish my coffee first though.

Jas. You've given me warm fuzzy feelings.

mrm - move to flame, name the film, then move back again please, as dd was asking for the boys again today.

Jas, are you on the free dentistry? we are (so poor!) and I'm pretty sure with starting up the shop, dh hasn't taken us over the allowance this year... sorry to distract you this am

Flame, new year = itchy feet eh? what do you want from life then? can we start pointing you in the direction to get you there? There's nothing worse than feeling stuck/restless. (although a good walk in the countryside can help me to think when things get that way)

Phoenix, had my smear end of last year, job done here!

CSWS yay for sleep and for dd1 being crusted over ooh I just put dd1, wonder if its a sign?

MRM thinking of you, how's it going

Just went to hula aerobics, it was whammed out, they had to turn people away I've booked in for next week.

sorry not posted much... life is hectic....hope all are well/getting better

csws- im not some random psycho, honest, just don't have anyone else to talk to about this

I want to not worry about money constantly. I want to use my brain. I want to not be shouty mummy all the time (the latter may only be achievable with alcoholism )

Being a mum is the only thing I ever wanted for my life... now I have it and it turns out I'm not so good at it, I'm floundering.

CSWS - You just have to make lots of daytrips - you can't give her to me and then take her back!

EPPM - Am I missing something? Why would csws think you are a random psycho???

No free dentistry Frizbe.We were before ds, but last year was a good year on paper, and it is in arrears so I have to wait til April.

Flame - I can't help with the money, but I know of no reason why you can't be (and aren't already) a good mum. We all want to shout less It is a common theme on the FLY thread, so you aren't alone there.

You are changing from mummying babies, to mummying children. It is very different, challenging in a whole new way, but I'm finding that as the dds get older I'm enjoying it more in lots of ways. You may, too.

I miss mummying babies They are easy.

I am lost - free dentistry???

EPPM - CSWS likes random stalkers anyway She is a kinky lady

If your income is low enough with tax credits, you get free prescriptions and dentistry
But your income has to be very low so you actually need it.

Babies are easy. Children are more rewarding once you get used to it, honestly.

DD2 told me my chips are nicer than the ones at PWP on Sunday, because I make mine with love

Maybe I'm just easily pleased. I know I have a very high boredom threshold (I spen year working with people wih dementia and having the same conversation on a daily basis)

That makes me feel better Jas because we clearly have never hit that level! Tis all relative I know, we are soooooo much better off than lots of people, and even ourselves this time last year. Just always the dream of being "comfortable".

DD's request when I told her she could choose dinner tonight: Beans on toast I'm not sure what that says abotu my cooking but it made life easier.

I'll reserve judgement on liking actual children. DD is just so hard

I'm just whingey. and drunk

That makes me feel better Jas because we clearly have never hit that level! Tis all relative I know, we are soooooo much better off than lots of people, and even ourselves this time last year. Just always the dream of being "comfortable".

DD's request when I told her she could choose dinner tonight: Beans on toast I'm not sure what that says abotu my cooking but it made life easier.

I'll reserve judgement on liking actual children. DD is just so hard

I'm just whingey. and drunk

DD2 is very whingy. And hard. And she thinks I'm the best mum in the world
DD1 thinks I'm "ok"

lol she's older

Babies are not easy! Not all of them anyway. at this statement coming from you Jas. Memories of dd2 are obviously fading .

at dd2's chips. That's really quite lovely.

Yes Jas, you are missing something re EPPM. An email to rival war and peace .
Have replied now EPPM - that's what I've been doing all night - only just managed to get up and get my Baileys (bottle is now empty ).

I shout lots too, but most of my shouting is at dh. He shouts at dd enough for the both of us. Dd has mastered the phrase 'no shouting' .

Flame - all I wanted career wise was to get a good position with Tesco. I got it, did really well there, and then had no idea what I was supposed to want after that, so I do understand how you're feeling.

Ah, but babies are controllable (in the sense that you know where they are/what they are doing all the time). I'm having to trust that I've taught the dds to be safe outside playing. I'm going to have to let them walk to school on their own. I don't know their friends parents any more. There is so much to worry about .

Babies are tiring and physically harder, but the needs are so much more basic.

shouting.
DP shouts alot too. Mosly at inanimate objects, but I find it very hard not to take offence when I am there.
DD1 has stared asking us not to argue which is why I am implementing my withdrawl method....assuming I'm not toally irrational and furious () I try to tell him why I am upset/angry/hurt and not discuss further. If it is too bad, I go up to bed and read, til I'm calm, by which time he has calmed down and apologised (usually)
The arguing isn't happening less, but I think(hope) it is lees disurbing for the dds. I really don't want them thinkin it is ok to be spoken to the way dp sometimes speaks to me.

Flame- csws seems likely to be the least kinky person on mn! Maybe I read her wrongly?

I sent her an email about schools- probably broke hotmail it was so long! Don't want her to feel she has to read it/ have an opinion/have any answers!

You seem like a great mum Flame, just really hard on yourself- and I should know cos thats one of my major failings!

From your thread about dd the other day, seems like there are other factors to consider than just your parenting! (ok, maybe I am a leetle beet of a stalker...)
It sounds like many of the issues are just her regardless of whether thats her personality, or some 'condition' (I use the term loosely). My dd is hypersensitive, and a book I read really helped me understand so many of the problems we'd encountered since her birth- all of which other people have encountered before me. I also find this thread really helpful, the Dreamer of dreams,born out of my due time, Why should I strive to set the crooked straight? but I'm sure there would be something similar (i'm not familiar with all the issues...)

Hmmm. Withdrawal method. Is that better than my 'throw the chair at the cupboard method' (though dd was out for that one today) ?

CSWS hides her kinkiness well

I haven't read all that thread EPPM but tend to think dd2 would fit in there too. Some children are just different
She is also hypersensitive(whatever the description is.I ticked lots of boxes for her on a test) and "high maintenance" and always will be. I think she will always have friends, be creative, and kind. I'm not asking more than that. She is very bright, too, but only when it suits her.

I tried throwing things(remember me having to sheepishly buy new plates after throwing them all ou of the kitchen door?)
It didn't work.
This way I'm staying calmer at least.

DP has a very short memory for arguments, and doesn't hold grudges. Generally if I smile, he gets over it.

He's just phoned promising to get up very early and go and buy bread in the morning (was supposed to buy it while he was out and forgot).
I bet he doesn't though.

We are weird obviously- absolutely no shouting in this house just never happens.

Just realised we cross-posted csws! Off to check email