I have a ds2 who is potty training and a 9 week ds. I hate my life right now. I am so irritable and tearful all the time, I'm snapping at my son and my husband. I get angry at the baby for waking so much and just don't seem to be able to cope with the endless relentlessness of bf and nappies this time round. I feel angry and resentful that this is my life right now. Yesterday my mum came round to help as first day with two on my own whilst potty training and it was a help but then 5 mins after she left my toddler is screaming, did 3 poos on the potty in an hour (which I know is good) after being on/off the potty 20 times whilst I was simultaneously trying to bf an overtired screaming baby whilst also worrying that I hadn't been able to get dinner on. My husband is wonderful and supportive but he needs to work and he came dowbstairs to me sobbing and all the children crying. I just can't do it, it's not coming easily this time, I feel like I don't want to do it and I know it's only going to get worse with the 4 month sleep regression looming. Toddler is in nursery 2 days a week and I find myself dreading having to look after them both. We can't afford to increase his days while I'm off and I feel terribly guilty that I should be enjoying this time with him but I'm not. My husband is so good with him, he is doing all his bedtimes and deals with the tanrtums much better than me. He has the patience of a saint. We hardly have sex anymore, I feel disgusting in my postpartum body with a saggy belly, stretch marks and two stone to lose. He never puts pressure on me but I miss the closeness. But I'm too tired to even consider it and can't see that changing any time soon. I feel like I regret having the second baby. He's a gorgeous baby, doesn't sleep as well as my first and will only nap on me and in a moving buggy so I never get a break. He's also got two teeth coming already. I look at other mums and wonder how the fuck they do it. How do people manage to take two kids out of the house, how do you manage potty training and a baby when you're on your own. It feels impossible and I feel like I'm failing at being a mum. Before our second baby I was doing well. I did a questionnaire online to see if I had pnd but it said I didn't. I don't know what to do to feel better about this. Any advice?