Hello ladies, long time no-post,
Well thank you to elliek because without you i wouldn't have a clue about what has been going on on these threads!
I don't want to sound like the voice of doom and gloom but things have been going from bad to worse in the bubblez household.
First there was all the trips to and from the hospital for jaundice checks for T.
Then T.V broke (doing dodgy things with the picture)
Then dp (bless him) tried to 'improve' our computer by 'cleaning' it up and making run faster, which resulted in..... A broken pc! (on dad's laptop now)
which meant no mumsnet to help me with what came next...
Pregnancy....... I've typed and erased this section about three times over debating whether I should say it or not, but in the end i have decided that as I haven't discussed it in RL with many ppl it might prove to be a relief to let it all out...
Not last thursday but the thurday before, I took a pregnancy test (was being careful sex wise so had no reason to think that I would be pg only tested becuse T was 10wks and still no AF) and it was a BFP . Almost as soon as i tested i started to bleed and get cramps, called doc, doc tested my stomach and was tender so sent me to hospital (suspected ectopic).. Hospital kept me for 5days and 4 nights, testing hormones, doing scans, until they could finally rule out ectopic pregnancy and came to the conclusion that the pg was in the right place... (T was 11wks by then) docs also came to the conclusion that i was 6wks gone and having a threatend miscarriage....
here is the part that i'm struggling with, cos of timing and the fact that i was on the slimfast diet and eating all the things i shouldn't have been, still bleeding a getting pain, hormones were only rising 66%, the effect it would have had on my other two lo's i decided not to go through ith the pg.... I know i did it for the right reasons and when i went for the last scan the pg as still messuring 6wks (it hadn't grown) but i still feel sad about it and sick iwith myself for not being strong enough to go through iwth the pg.
Now im in recovery from the proceedure and am unable to do a lot of things (pick up my dd1 etc)
oh and to top it all off the car broke donwn another expence and something else to go rwong... and now the 'wwwwwwwwwwwwww' on the laptop isn't woking properly so i may have just broken my dads laptop i think i may cry]
Gonna reboot the laptop and hopefully ill be back on soon to catch up.... soz to be doom and gloom...
take care
xzx